A New Chapter Unfolds

last week of school

2008-12-16T20:42:00.002+08:00

Term is ending. woohoo.. 3more days. k lahh.. make it 2 since i think the lecturers are not giving any lectures on friday.

time juz flies by so quickly. and i am having a writer's block now. hahhaha.. no link i know, just dunno wad to write anymore. i dont want to blog for the sake of blogging either. really want people around me to know more about my life. and to share any interesting snippets with u guys. hmm.. have i changed? so much so that i dun have anything to talk about anymore? i dunno... dun really want to know anw.

life in the past few weeks have been quite routine on the whole. school in the morning. study, read bible, watch the channel 8 nonya show, slack and then play dota at night before going to sleep. hahaha... so boring rite?

ohh.. wanted to say the household stayed up quite late on a weekday. we were having choc fondue at like 11pm? and then we juz sat and talked.. and i slept at 630am cos i could not tahan anymore. old already lo.. rem last time at chalets.. always can stay up the whole night till the next day but now cannot liao. but maybe also me is a pig lahh.. aahha always nid to sleep de. not like weiming who can only have 7hrs of sleep, nothing more nothing less.

yea... anyways i have applied to ucl and warwick for masters lo. ucl is my1st choice lahh as i am applying for masters in stats there and i am more interested in statistics. and ucl has already offered me a conditional offer of 2nd upper. so happy.... it all depends on moe now.. and of cos my results at the end of the year lahh. haha...

looking forward to the italy trip next monday! wif duane and mel.. hope the trip will be a blast. =p

i kissed dating goodbye

2008-11-30T02:10:00.003+08:00

Term is ending. Cant wait for term to end. Everything passes by so quickly and soon I will be taking my very last paper and graduating. Another chapter of my life will be closed soon, or maybe MOE allows me to take Masters? Until then.

Work seems to be never-ending. I am feeling more like an arts student now. the time spent at home studying is so much more than the time spent copying notes during lessons. 2 assignments and I am done for the term!

So Daryl has just finished his A levels and is going to serve army really soon. The dynamics of our family is changing and I am very happy. 3 small boys from not long ago are now not-so-small men lo. I hope that my dad can stop worrying about us and just simply relax and enjoy life, something which is of a high order for him to do. 1 more thing! We, (the whole family) have not gone on a holiday trip together before! (Malaysia not counted)

Really hope that that day will come before i create my own family in the near future :)

Just finished reading the book I HAVE KISSED DATING GOODBYE. It is a very good book. All along, I have my own viewpoints on relationships normally shaped by the relationships around me and it never did occur to me about God's perspective on this issue. I am proud to say that i have really kissed dating goodbye.

i will be waiting for the right one. waiting for God to make the 1st move for me. wait. i guess i have finally understood what it means to surrender my life to Him. :) in the meantime, i will continue to improve myself. make myself a better person and be more Christ-like!

bring me along!

2008-11-06T00:35:00.003+08:00

i know that i have been mia-ing. i have half the mind of closing down the blog and not continuing anymore. i am also waiting for an email by flooble.com to tell me that my chatterbox is closing down cos of inactiveness but i did not realise that some of u have tagged on my blog. lol

i am doing fine. i am enjoying the modules that i am taking this year. i think it is really different. the past few years were really to learn and master the machinery and techniques but this year i get to learn something concrete and interesting.. so ya i am enjoying more.

anyways.. want to talk more about christianity. wanted to blog about it for some time le and so here i am. i want to say that people in general have misconceptions about christians as a whole. (but it could be also the way christians bring themselves across to others)

in my opinion, everyone is the same.
for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God
-Romans 3:23
we are all sinners. the only difference is that christians accept Jesus as their saviour and believe that He has died on the cross for us and our sins are washed away.

in no way, we are more superior and christians should not have that image. instead, we should humbly point out to everyone what God has done for us in our lives and let them decide for themselves.

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish and have eternal life.
-John 3:16
It is this same unconditional love that we should all have with us when we deal with people around us.

the reason as to why i am saying this is not that i have bad experiences or anything but just want to remind myself and u guys about it. =)

anyways, the show which is blowing my mind off is Taiwanese serials
不良笑花
which starrs Rainie Yang and Wilber Pan. The show is superrr farnie and it is a pity that i can only watch it every Mondays on youtube as it is screened in Taiwan on Sundays.

i think this song is really meaningful.

In my opinion, this song is about someone who cant find love even though she dreams about it all along. then comes this man who wants to be with her and yet he is not the one for her. in desperation, she is willing to have a relationship with this man..

that is my interpretation of the song.. which is soooo sad. haiii

my fav line from the song.
就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫，我不怕，带我走。

london!

2008-10-09T03:13:00.002+08:00

so now i have reached london for a few days le. ermmm... it is the last year of my undergraduate studies le! time really flies hor? suddenly got the inertia to start studying again. all because this holidays was so long and i slacked too much:)

oh and i dun mean to sound gay.. ahaha.. but my room is super cold and lonely cos my 2 roomies are not here yet! hurry come back! add some atmosphere into the house. haha. olivia!! the house is quite different without you around too! hahaha. haixxx.

hopefully this year will be a refreshing and fulfilling year for me. :p

sucky timetable

2008-09-25T12:07:00.003+08:00

to those who are patiently (or impatiently) waiting for a new entry of mine to drop down from the sky, heres a new one! haha.. think it may be the last entry of year 2008 in penned in singapore.

yo yo sharoN! it is reallie heart-warming to see people whom I have lost touch for quite some time to say come and say hi. ok think i must do that often to others too! since i know that is a good feeling rite? =)

oh think 2 sundays ago, i was at j8. then this girl came up to me. i thought oh my, not another insurance/financial person. just when all my pourcupine spikes are up and on the defense, i realised she looked quite familiar. then she asked me whether i was from vj. haha. turned out that she was william's classmate. s64 de. then we talked alittle and i got a free thermal mug from HSBC. hahah.. she is working for the bank. anyways, the main point that i want to say is, she said that i am more tanned and more zhuang4 than i was in jc. hahahahaha... me was sooo happy lahh.. sorry lah.. these few days got nothing going on to make me happy anyway. :)

i just saw my new term's timetable. it means my holiday is coming to an end. shucks! this holiday isnt the best holiday anyways. haahhha. the timetable sux big time!! lemme explain... in year 3, we can finally choose different modules to take. on average, each person will take 4 modules. so what happens is that the school asked us which modules we would be interested to take before school ended in june. then the school will look at our interest and try to plan the timetable.

so... i have decided to take 3 particular modules and unsure for my 4th one. wanted to go shopping during the 1st week to see which one is better for me. BUT! haii..

there were 2 modules for me to choose from for the 4th one which i will call it E and G. then one of the modules that i am confirmed taking, lets call it T. i was totally sianed when i saw the timetable last night just before i slept.

Tuesday 10-11 slot: E, G and T all in that timeslot at different venues.
Wednesday 11-12 slot: G and T
Thursday 11-12 slot: only G
Thursday 3-4 slot: only E
Friday 9-10 slot: E and T

FYI, each module has 3 1-hr lecture per week. so, i am going to miss 2 hr lectures per week! woohoo. left with 10hrs only per week! but that also means i have to catch up on my own. sian! hahaha.. see how lahh who knows if very few people taking E or G modules, i can persuade the lecturers to change the timeslot? hahaha

anyways.. my holidays is coming to an end. it is not really a holiday lo. haha. because of this cant wait to start my life in london again. for the last yr perhaps. and i have set some resolutions in the new academic year! hopefully i will be able to fulfill them. :)

musings

2008-09-15T20:54:00.002+08:00

have been busy giving tuition to my a level kids. hahaha... using the word kids is so weird. all these tuition are just wad i have been busy with for these last weeks of my holidays. *sobs* hahah.. no lahh, me is not complaining. i mean i ll be happy for my students should they do well for their exams. =)

there is nothing much going on in my life reallie. zilch. ok lahh.. other than the fact that i am hooked on 2 channel 8 tv serials now. hahha. even though the 9pm show which features adrian pang as the baysitter for his niece in the show and it seems to me to be another propaganda for singaporeans to make babies, it is a very nice show. the baby is sooo cute. even though a baby boy would have been cuter. =p

reallie hope that i can have at least 3 kids in the future. hahhaha... even though there is no other half for me yet and no i am not going to anyhow spread my seeds =p and hopefully my future wife doesnt think that i treat her as a child-bearing machine. hahhaha.....

oh! and i really cant stand schools that set killer papers to kill students. the anderson jc maths papers are killers with the capital k lo. not only do they dont serve the purpose of differentiating the students of different calibres, they only demoralise the students lo. n it pains me to see my brother's face on friday. hahahha. well, to put it this way, the papers are passable only if you dun spend too much time on the tough questions and picking out the easy parts of the paper. but wif exam stress, how to do that? haiz. hopefully my brother and huimin can pass! =p

okok i am gg to watch adrain pang changing diapers for the baby liao. tata.

the way i do

2008-08-26T23:25:00.002+08:00

on weekend today last week, it was written that

"This year's postponement of the telecast [of the NDR] has a significance that goes beyond the interest in the Olympics and TV viewership rivalry. It is yet another indication that the Government accepts that not everything it deems important has to be also a priority for every SIngaporean."

My sentiments exactly!
I am not saying that Singaporeans should be self-centred and think of themselves only but when occasions arise i think that we are mature enough to determine for ourselves what our priorities should be.

All thanks to Huimin. I am in love with Marcos Hernandez. haha.. his songs lahh. everyone should go hear his songs. my all-time favourite song of his is "the way I do".

food for thoughts

2008-08-19T16:56:00.003+08:00

This is a super duper late entry in view of the Olympics. I had long wanted to pen this down but again it is due to laziness. haha.

Unless you live in an area where there is no internet, TV, radio etc. etc. or u are just a hermit living in this lonely planet you will have heard of this name: MICHAEL PHELPS. he is really a legend in making waves and breaking records. He did his best and he delivered, with the whole world watching him. The whole world's attention is on him.

Another wonder is our very own Tao Li. She was the shortest swimmer in the 100m butterfly. She was unknown to the world. Yet she created history by shaving just less than 2 sec in the heats. I did not manage to the catch the heats but i saw the semifinals. she was amazing. She was the last swimmer in the last 50m. i thought that she was a gone case. but in the last 25m, suddenly this super small size girl juz came out from nowhere to come in the 3rd in the 1st round of the semifinal. that race was just so awesome. and i was glad i managed to catch it.

They sort of motivate me, a lowly nothing to set my goals in life and to work on them. of course, i know that all these are impossible without God. but by not working hard and depending on God, you will be testing God to prove that He is indeed the almighty to do the impossible for you. of course that shall not be the case. for it is written in the Bible, Thou shall not put God to the test.

Another point that i want to highlight is about foreign talent in singapore. With the singaporean table tennis team getting the coveted silver medal and Tao Li being recognised and congratulated for her results, more people are lamenting that they are all not local born, local bred. to put it crudely, can these people just shut up?

from young in primary schools, we have been asked not to be busybodies in school. dont be monitor, dont answer teachers' questions in class since there are 39 other students in class to do that. y must it be me? in a bid to protect their children, these parents have caused our generations to be not outspoken and have this "y me" mentality.

so when we grow older, nobody even volunteers to be monitor in class anymore. nobody even volunteers for anything any more. even when students are arrowed to do tasks for teachers or for their CCAs, parents will ask " y must it be you? y cant it be anybody else?"

and so in this dog-eat-dog society, parents just want students to excel in their studies. other things come later. for those sport people or in other arena where they are representing singapore, they can be anyone else other than their precious children. there is nothing wrong in this mentality. who doesnt want the best out of their children? who doesnt want their children to be able to survive in the future?

yet, it is also these parents or the whole generation, rather who are the ones who are lamenting why these sports people are not local born, local bred. since there isnt anyone who is "made in singapore" willing to put studies aside to train all the way, y cant those who are "made in china" but groomed in singapore be given recognition and credit? mind you, Tao Li is 18 this year already and yet she is only studying Sec 2/3 level at the Singapore Sports School.

oh! and i want to say about the word surviviability! i hate this word to the core.. really! how i hope this word can be burnt and incinerated and vanished from this world. yes, in the nation's context, we are very vulnerable. the government has to think much ahead of other countries to grab hold of any opportunities to ensure that the economy of the society be healthy. singapore after all is a country with no natural resources.

but but but.. what about each individual or family unit? how far are we going to stretch the meaning of this word. we are living in an era where our motto in life is survival of the fittest. what is definition of the fittest? who is currently the fittest? we dunno.. so we continue to fight for excellence and make sure that we are able to survive today. people are loosely defining more and more terms. take comfortable for example. people will say that we want to live comfortable lives, so we cant have too many children. with higher standards of living, we have to keep more to ourselves to ensure that we live comfortably. so what is their definition of comfortable? landed property? tours to exotic countries every year? buying branded stuff and go to high end restaurants for meals? yes, i am making an extreme point here but what i say here definitely make sense.

i think we need to constantly remind ourselves that there are alot of people in this society who needs help too. yes to those who are fit or fitter than the rest, i think we can stop and help those who have been left behind. of course, not at the expense of our own lives where we come to the point where we cant even cope anymore.

God gives us lives to ensure that we have fulfilled lives. fulfilled in His way, not ours. we are not going to bring all our accolades, fame and fortune to our graves. God is only going to see our souls and nothing else.

no food and drinks allowed!

2008-08-08T15:13:00.002+08:00

just 3minutes ago, i was looking at astee's super random entry about money. i was so amused by that entry and i was reminded myself that i have not written a super random entry in a long while. heez.

oh let me start this entry proper by what peeves me the most now. i cant stand the super-on attitude of those people in charge of the NEL trains. they have to stop people from drinking even plain water from water bottle in the trains. yes, there is a sign on the train that states that no eating and drinking is allowed. but what is the purpose of this rule? it is prevent any inconvenience to other commuters in terms of smell of food, spillage of food and drinks which can cause discomfort to them.

BUT plain water from water bottles? even if there is spillage on the floor, it is just water! not like it is some sticky liquid that is not easily removed. if someone is drinking bubble tea or loosely packaged drinks then he is ought to be shot. commuters may need to have a sip of water after some time and i think plain water is perfectly fine.

also, what about milk bottles for the babies? do the commuters have to endure the high pitched crying of the poor little things just because no drinking is allowed?

my point is, can people dun be so rigid? we are not talking about bending the rules here but we must always ask ourselves why the rules are there. for example, talk about spillage of food and drinks, that means we can chew other small stuff like sweets because such spillage will never occur.

similarly, even if a little amount of water is spilled accidentally on other people, it is only water! and i dun think the other commuters will make a big fuss over it. (unless the one offended carries an LV bag and water will damage his clothing.. haha)

dunno why i have been making alot of dreams lately with students running around me in them. i even dreamt of some students from the class that i taught in my short stint. 304 from Xinmin. :) haha.. oh i saw 8 of the guys last week at ang mo kio. the moment they saw me, they were looking at me from head to toe. "wha.. u look very different leh! (from my working attire that is)" they are all sooo nice to talk to. numbers were exchanged and i was quite happy to get to know them. that class arh.. hai. they can get reallie rowdy. it is obvious that they dun like their form teacher and they were giving her quite abit of problem. but as a whole, the class is quite nice to teach. i will rather teach a class like this than a boring class lo.

when the same things start to happen again for the umpteenth time, i am already numb and dun want to retaliate already. everything will be over soon, the next phase of life will come reallie soon... gambatte!!

long overdue

2008-07-30T16:45:00.002+08:00

Procrastination has gotten over me for the past few weeks. The desire to blog has dwindled tremendously. Part of me is due to sheer laziness and as for the other parts i shall not dwell over it.

As I have mentioned before, I was attached to Xinmin Sec for 3 weeks plus. These 3 weeks were amazing! I observed different classes spanning all 3 streams and 3 levels for all different subjects. The kids in school reminded me of my time as a secondary school boy. There were so many things that I brought home too.

Different class dynamics warrants a different pedagogy for the same teaching material. Management of class is more than a skill and also in order for the students to respect you and listen to you, you must respect them first and think of ways to attract their attention.

Xinmin is a school that attracts bright students so the school is in a different spectrum. The teachers are motivated to create a holistic education for the students and the school is always in its thinking cap trying to improve the quality of education for the students. I am personally impressed by how the school is run.

In the past, when people were to ask me for the reason as to why i chose teaching as a career, my reply would be, since I love maths so much, i want to spread the joy of learning maths to my students. but after the attachment, I realised how important teachers are in shaping the lives of the students especially in secondary school and I really want to be an inspiration and a role model ( i hope) for my students in the future.

Oh, i have received my results for my 2nd year. As promised, this is my results.

Differential Equations 70
Multivariable Calculus 61
Orthogonality 79
Fluids and Dynamics 62
Real Analysis 76
Algebra 2 79
Complex Analysis 78
Probability & Stats 71

Well, FYI 70 and above is an A and 60plus is a B.

want to thank God for the results. but i really must learn to be contended. for 2 years running, God gave me results that are good but are not up to my expectations. I am still learning to be contended. Let me explain 1st why this results is not up to my expectations even though I still get a 1st class (borderline).

I am not sore about the 2 Bs actually. hahaa. it was kinda expected. The fluids paper was the only morning paper and my mind was not ready for the paper. and i sorta screwed up the other one and i knew i would not get an A for that.

but i thought that for the top few papers i could get in the 80s range. high 80s even. but it all din happen. dun get me wrong. i am not whining to God or complaining that He is not doing His job. in fact, I dun think I am doing well enough to be His disciple. ahha.. that is beside the point.

all along, i told myself i MUST get a first class degree. However, after 2 long years then i realised that even if i dun get my 1st so what? i am not being a sour grape here dun get me wrong. but God is telling me that in His eyes the class degree does not matter at all. It is through His grace that I am getting this results anyway. No man is able to do anything on his own.

so that brings me to my next point. I am taking a teaching module next year. The assessment is very subjective as I will be graded by a written report on my experience in teaching in a secondary school in London. In fact, out of the 18people chosen, I am the only one who did not go through the education system in UK. (before uni, that is) However, that module is going to be an eye-opener for me. I was thinking that in a worst case scenario, taking that module and getting a 2nd upper is much better than not taking a module and getting a 1st. I think i will regret my decision if i choose the latter. hahaha..

dun worry, i am not devastated. I know He is always there for me and whatever He has planned for me, I must always have a grateful heart. in fact, keng seng and I have said that we are going to work hard next year! :)

so attachment is finally over and I am resting now. not exactly resting since i am giving tuition to some j2 kids (plus my brother) who are taking their As this year. and my kakis are all in hongkong now having fun. haizz. Luckily they did not go to Korea as they said they want to go with me next yr.. :)

oh and i am boycotting the taiwanese singing contest and i am not watching it le at least for this season. :) and i hope that huang jinglun can go and train up 1st before producing his 1st album. I will definitely support him de. :P

derrick's album is out lo! hopefully his songs are nice lo. I liked his rendition of Tian Kong during Project Superstar and i rooted for him and kelly during the 1st season. hahaha...

teaching attachment

2008-07-09T10:45:00.002+08:00

me is back in singapore! hahah.. acty back for some time liao.

i am now on attachment where i can observe how the school functions and how the teachers teach and manage the class. have to say that i am learning quite abit during this period of time. it is quite draining some days. there were days where i was super tired due to lack of sleep and i thought i would be a gone case in school. however when i was in school i would become energised for the whole day before collapsing at home.

the students all remind me of my secondary schooldays and i want to travel back time to be a secondary school boy again! ahhaha...

will thoroughly enjoy my holidays after this attachment is over. =)

randomness

2008-06-25T17:54:00.003+08:00

hahahha.... here i am again. that shows how bored i am! heez. cant wait to take the plane tmr!! muahhah...

i am just very lazy to pack my luggage. dun feel like doing anything other than nuah-ing. lol had been sleeping like a pig yesterday and then woke up at 730am today.. den now at 11am i am feeling tired again! heeeez.

ya lahh... i admit that in my household i think i sleep the most. muahhhahhaa... like the feeling of nuahing on bed and think about everything under the sun (ok... moon most of the time) just before i doze off to lala-land...

haha... y am i talking about these? HAHAHHAH... cant believe it.

okok.. before i end. a quote that i like from the show!

我是说你不能喜欢我，但我又没说我不能爱上你。

haahhahahahhahahhahha... a totally random entry. lalalallala..

the next entry will be typed in singapore!
till then!

fated to love you

2008-06-24T00:34:00.002+08:00

argghhhh!

now i have to wait for every Tuesday to watch the show! roarrrr..... plus it is ending sooon!! haizz!!

命中注定我爱你

2008-06-23T00:18:00.004+08:00

emo entry ahead. be forewarned. and it will be in chinese. =p

多几天就要回新加坡了。
好兴奋哦。
这几天不是作project ，就是跟朋友出门吃饭之类的。
其余的时间呢？

我已经迷上了台湾偶像剧“命中注定我爱你”。
完全上瘾了。
偶像剧的内容很简单。
女主角与男主角因一个错误的邂逅而上了床，结果女方有了孩子。
然而，男主角有了一个深爱他的女朋友。而女朋友却因为梦想而一直叫他等她。
结果，男主角在被逼不得已的情况下与女主角结婚。
也因为女方的体贴与善解人意，男主角也不知不觉地喜欢上她。

故事的内容就是这样。但之后有很多转折。
而且，在台湾，这部戏还没播完。所以故事的结尾是如何我也不晓得。

也许你会问我为何这么喜欢这部戏呢？
因为我觉得我跟女主角真的很像。

女主角，陈欣怡是一个处处为人着想的女孩子，而且在上班的时候每次都被欺负。
她觉得自己很平凡，跟灰姑娘没什么两样，一直等待着他的王子。
我还觉得我跟她很像。

还记得中三，中四的时候，我不喜欢我的班。因为当朋友找我的时候都只会问我数学上的难题，他们从来都不叫我陪他们出去玩。我知道我跟他们大多数的人的世界不一样，但是我却每次都回去帮助他们。

长大了。我也变了。我知道现在的我不会向当时一样。哈哈。人生的历练就是这样的。
但，我承认我很平凡。平凡得很不起眼，平凡得容易被遗忘。
还记得去年，我中四班有了一个聚会。当时，有一个我不喜欢的同学竟然跟我说我现在变得很不一样。他的意思是以前的我更加不起眼。听了这番话，我不禁高兴了起来。

然而，我还是很平凡啊。我觉得我的故事可以是一个改装男生般的灰姑娘。但是，现在的我还是一个毫不起眼的宅男.

我说的是真的。每当我看到身旁的男孩子，都会把自己比下去。然后很容易的说服我自己，我是没有条件跟别人比。我啊。才艺什么都不会（讲冷笑话算吗？）。虽然高大，但肥肉一大堆，根本没有肌肉。（如果我廋下来的话，就会全乘是骨）。

我不会努力争取，只会在后面萎缩自责。不求上进。也难怪哪个女生会要我这种男人呢？
二十三岁了。不要误会。我不是因为为了要有爱情而去拼命孤注一掷的设法拥有。但想了又想这些男生也比我好啊。起码他们也有曾经爱过。

我相信天长地久。我相信这世界上的某一个人是上帝安排作我的老婆的。
所以我要改进。把我的所有的缺点一一改掉。
为了幸福，要努力。

但我需要多久的时间才能办到的？
一个月？一年？五年？
我自己也不晓得。但是我会设法的把我的改装男生般的灰姑娘的结局填上这三个字。

happily ever after.

好了啦。够了。废话也够多的。

让我介绍这一首歌给你听吧。命中注定我爱你的插曲。

我的快乐。

徘了徊了走了错了哭了懂了累了倦了困了
烦的乱的梦的都是真的

疯的想的念的不安的焦虑的浮躁的梦过的
永远的失去的怎么忘呢

你坐过的沙发困了你爱的音乐
听了我等着你等成了摆设

我的你的他的好的坏的难的灰的蓝的黄的
酸的甜的苦的都还记得

非常想要忘的绝对不能忘得
我想要换你了真的不想要了只得疯了

环岛的火车载着我第几天了
忽然发现这一刻我不想你了

我的快乐会回来的
只要清楚曾爱的那么深刻不准问值不值得

我的快乐会回来的
离开不是谁给了谁的选择

我的快乐会回来的
只要清楚曾爱的那么深刻不准问值不值得

我的快乐会回来的离开不是谁给了谁的选择
我的快乐会回来的只要清楚曾爱的那么深刻不准问值不值得
我的快乐会回来的离开不是你给了我的选择

疯的想的念的不安的焦虑的浮躁的梦过的
拥有的失去的怎么忘呢

非常想要忘的绝对不能忘的
我想要换你了真的不想要了只得只得放了

放了

忘了

last days of yr 2 in london!

2008-06-22T21:39:00.002+08:00

ermm... i know that i have not blogged for quite some time already but it is because i have nothing to blog about as well! hhahaha...

actually not really lah.. got quite abit of things to say. haha. my 2nd year in london is going to come to an end on thursday morning. time really flies by very quickly! and i am graduating next year! roarrr... this year has been a great year... i have lovely housemates who can go crazy over household dinners. (well, i know i am the one who go crazy most of the time.. hahahh) will miss olivia who is graduating already. =p

oh did i mention that i am posted to xinmin sec for my attachment? i am quite excited about the attachment and hopefully i will get the chance to do some teaching in school too... but i saw the timetable for my attachment.. the most exciting thing that the school has planned for the school is cross country at bishan park! haizzz... oh and it was a coincidence! as in i dreamt about bishan park the other day, dun ask me why. i thought that i will be teaching at bishan park secondary school in the future. haha. i dreamt that i was teaching at temasek junior college too! hahaha.. bizarre dreams i know. =)

and i have to say about my project supervisor. i mentioned before that he is a singaporean but i dun have a good impression of him, i am sorry. haha. there was once when we went to him for help because we could not figure out 1 small part and we tried all we could le. we were missing some link somewhere. then when he saw us and found out the small part that we could not do he asked us back.. "do u want me to do for you and i will deduct marks from your project?" roarr.. it was a typical singaporean teacher response lahh.. i think my other groupmates were taken aback. and he went on to say things like we should retake 2nd year then blah blah... arghhhh... but after that he went back to his jovial mood again. haizz. after the meeting the 1st thing i said to my groupmates was that "not all singaporeans are like that" ahhaha... but ok lahh.. after that he seemed impressed and satisfied with our draft.

pareece

2008-06-11T20:45:00.002+08:00

I am so sian of typing my project and so here I am blogging. hahha...

yes yes i am back in london. i really LOVE greece alot alot. think i will go there again someday. =) okok more about the trip.

we went to paris 1st. ermm... paris is super expensive! a bottle of coke cost between 2 to 4.50 euroes! there isnt any day train tickets and paris just sucks my money off at a very fast rate.

Eiffel tower looks very different in the day and at night. its grey is soo pale in the day that it looks dead like any other monument. but looking at the city from the top of the tower is another story. the city looks like those primary school projects that we did which we had to use styrofoam boards as the base and tried to build a city on the board. oh, those were the days. haha.. and the tower at night is juz amazing! the lights gave life to the tower and it is just so magnificient.

Oh Mona Lisa at the Louvre is such a small painting and guards have to be at the painting to prevent people from going too near it. She really looks very different at different angles. well still remember my art teacher said before that half of Mona lisa's face is actually Leonardo's himself.

and the highlight of the trip was of cos DISNEYLAND! haizz. 22 years later and i have finally stepped into disneyland. hahaha. so sad rite? hee. at least better than never lah. the tickets are expensive though. 60 euroes to go into both the studio and the disneyland park.

i am not complaining here that my parents did not bring me to disneyland before. hahahaha... ok lah to be fair they brought me to warner brother studios in australia when i was in primary 1. haha i can still remember lo. too bad daryl was sooo young then (like 1 year old?) so he did not get to go. hahahah.

oh then we went to greece. spent half a day at the acropolis at athens and then went over to santorini. santorini is beautiful! The sea with the different islands scattered on it not forgetting the white-washed buildings facing the sea. AND the sun set just reminds me of God's wonderful creation.

want to go there again!! ahha.. think the highlight of the trip will be me and kengseng jumping off the boat (one of the guided tours) into the sea and swam to the hot springs. ok lah i did not jump off like survivor-style. hahha.

and now back in london left with my project to do! back in singapore on the 27th June! cant wait...

paris & greece

2008-05-31T21:33:00.002+08:00

whee... gg to paris and greece today. haha but i am not reallie excited lah as usual. must reach the destinations before i will get excited. hahaha...

oh! i have gotten a place to study M3T course next year. it is one of my 8 modules that i have to take next year and i will be going down to a school to teach.

erm.. the only academic work left for me is my project. my project supervisor is a singaporean. din even know that a singaporean professor exists in imperial. ahhaha.. eh he is a slacker also lah, i like. hee. and my groupmates arh.. 1 of them is damn onz. and i have an eye candy in my group too! haha.. so very good! muahhaha..

okie dokiez
to those whose exams have not ended, jiayou!!

f-i-n-i-s-h-e-d

2008-05-21T00:21:00.002+08:00

my exams are over!!

okok. this is going to be quite a long entry i think.

1stly, i dun regret going back to singapore for my easters at all. cos other than a change of environment to study, it is great not to think about what to cook and there is always good food in singapore. :)

also other than the meeting up with frenz though not alot cos of my studies and the time spent with my family was indeed precious too, but most importantly i learnt alot during the hols too. cos my dad went overseas for a working trip. so i was tasked to pay the bills for him over the month and from all this i learn alot about what working adults pay every month and also the expenses for the family. also, something relatively big happened during the last week of my stay in singapore and it affected my studies alittle but i guess i have to say that i still learned quite abit from it too.

oh then i took A380 back to london!! hahaha.. ehh.. it is reallie a pleasant flight! the screens are bigger, the carpets and the whole plane look cleaner and brighter (cos it is new lah), the seats are bigger but the only bad thing is that the seats are harder (cos they are new too) hahaha..

and i finally watched P.S. i love you! in the plane that is. ermm... i know there are some gals who cried after watching the show but i am sorry to say that i am truly disappointed by the movie. well, i guess cos i read the book like 5 weeks ago and i liked it so much that i finished it in a day which can be considered to be a feat! hahaha... but the movie din bring out the atmosphere that the book had. so i am disappointed. ahhaha.

ok so back to my exams. really thank God for my exams. can reallie felt Him throughout this whole period and i know that whatever results that come out will belong to Him. :) oh! want to say that i will publish my results on my blog. juz like last year. the reason as to why i am saying this now is so that if the results are good then u cannot say that i am hao-lianing ... haha but if my results are bad then u guys can feel free to laugh at me lo. hahaa.

anw the best part of my exams was in fact juz now which was my last paper. the module arh.. hai. 1stly it is a new module, no past yr paper never mind. 2ndly, the lecturer did not even lecture well. 3rdly his notes/ problem sheets/solutions always have typo errors. Then his paper was sooo different from the problem sheets. take for example, the problem sheet taught us how to solve B from A. the exam question was given B, find A. basically all the questions are not problem sheet style. hahahahha... hai. it was a competition to see who die less for that particular paper. siann.

anw everything is over!! 1 month of project and thats it. singapore here i come again. :)

exams

2008-05-17T00:34:00.002+08:00

my life will be back by next tuesday..

1600h london time

i can smell it!! can u? hahaha...

ehh so far my papers went alright.. reallie wanna thank God for being with me all this time even those times when i have forsaken Him!

mugging

2008-04-09T20:22:00.002+08:00

this entry basically is to tell people that i am still alive... hahaha.

ermm.. nothing much to say also. juz that mugging is so sian. but ok lahh, everything is still in order and i am not exactly panicking (yet)..

and i still havent been to town yet!! roarrr... soon lah soon i ll go to town and i need retail therapy too :)

my ideal major

2008-03-28T10:15:00.002+08:00

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?
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You scored as Mathematics/Statistics

You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Mathematics, Statistics, or related majors (e.g., Accounting, Actuarial Science, Astronomy, Computer Engineering, Computer Information Systems (CIS), Computer Science, Economics, Engineering, Finance, Management Information Systems (MIS), Operations Management, Physics, Risk Management).

It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

Education/Counseling

88%

Mathematics/Statistics

88%

Psychology/Sociology

81%

Accounting/Finance/Marketing

75%

HR/BusinessManagement

69%

Religion/Theology

56%

Physics/Engineering/Computer

56%

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage

50%

English/Journalism/Comm

44%

Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health

44%

Biology/Chemistry/Geology

38%

Visual&PerformingArts

38%

PoliticalScience/Philosophy

31%

History/Anthropology/LiberalArts

13%

What more can I say? hahaha.. i am going to be a math teacher in the near future! hahaha..

flight back

2008-03-26T23:55:00.002+08:00

yes, me is back. the humid not-so-sunny island.

it felt as if i have never left singapore for the past 6months at all. juz that i have an extra workload which is 6months worth for me to digest... hahahaa.

anw, have started to revise my work. slowly gaining momentum which is good. hope to eat lots of good food too in order to motivate myself to work harder. shall work soo hard until i need to go to orchard to shop and take a breather.. heez. try lahh.

oh wanted to talk about the flight back. flew back with clarice and haojun, then 3 of us could not get to sit together initially with clarice sitting elsewhere. so wad i did was to ask this lady who was sitting beside me whether she is willing to change seat with clarice. she said she wanted an aisle seat, and i replied that clarice's seat was an aisle seat too. then, she just said,

"no, i am fine here. thank you"

was so stunned that i did not know how to react. in fact was sooo angry until i thought of splashing water *unknowingly* onto her when i managed to get hold of one later on. but of course, that did not happen. i prayed to God for peace and for the whole situation. as i calmed down after that, after the plane flew off, in mid air, she said she was finally willing to change seat with clarice liao and her reason was that she did not want to disrupt the other passengers and the stewardesses. thanked God for that! :)

okok gg back to studying lo. ciao

singapore

2008-03-22T22:53:00.002+08:00

it is saturday today! going back to singapore tmr lo!!
sooo happie..

the reason as to why i am going back now is cos i am not travelling and i am spending my holidays studying for exams. So studying back in singapore, i hope that the environment will be conducive for me to study. the food can be a motivation for me to study too! =) and of cos i hope to enjoy my time in singapore too, if not i will juz be wasting my money going back to singapore rite? heheheh....

anw the weather in london now is c-r-a-z-y. it is snowing now... when spring is coming! and it is gg to be reallie cold tmr... roarrr.

nvm.. sunny singapore here i come!

scary exp

2008-03-16T23:52:00.003+08:00

i hope u guys dun think too much after reading this entry, i am really fine! =)

anw, i heard of this term 被鬼压 before but i did not exactly get what it really meant until i kena-ed it on friday afternoon.

i was taking a nap when in the middle of my sleep, i felt that someone was massaging my head. then my body was shaking and i actually felt shiok. however, soon after i thought to myself that my bed was not even a massaging bed! i was too tired to panick and think too much when i realised that i could not move at all. feeling helpless, i opened my eyes and my vision was very very blurred... i saw keng seng sit beside me (cos our study table is just beside my bed) and i wanted to shout out his name but i could not have the energy to do so.

it was then that i thought i was going to die. hahahha... and the funny thing was my mind was so active that i suddenly thought that dying in sleep is actually the best way to die cos the death is painless. i smiled at the thought and i thought of God too! i smiled even more (i think) and i actually told myself 'die, die lo'.

however, the next thing i knew, i turned my whole body to the side and i just continued to sleep.
muahahhaha... but now to think back, i think that few seconds of whatever that happened was really scary. but something that i learn from it, when i die in the future, i want to die with a smile. =)

kkiez... enough about that.

came from church and the speaker Kay Warren, the wife of Rick Warren was really good. anyways, just want to say that

i want to make the invisible God visible, visible to everyone around me. =p

our island lah

2008-03-12T06:16:00.002+08:00

hahaha... these pictures are from the production our island lah...

a lot of hard work had been put into the production. (not me of course as i joined later and my dance was just a teeny bit of the whole thing) nevertheless, it was a wonderful production with loads of praises from the audience.

haha.. the show was actually put up by the singapore society of imperial college. it was meant to showcase singapore to the school and for the singaporeans (mostly the freshers) to work together and bond together. the show showcased the history of singapore and it was brilliantly weaved in the whole musical.

the commisioner Mr Michael Teo had all praises for the production according to our dear president chern ern.. but one thing is for sure, the songs in the production was sooo classic that everyone loved it. i am sure that the songs are of the same quality as the other NDP songs. =p well done gabriel and ziyang.

k and now it is time to talk about my dance. ahhah... as u can see from my hair, (yes it is unglam i know) it was supposed to portray the 80s generation look with the retro dance. it was really quite an enjoyable dance. most importantly all of us enjoyed the dances which is of course the upmost importance. oh and if u are wondering why i am the only one with such a hairstyle is cos only my hair has that length and thickness to produce that effect.. grrrr...

anw, well done everyone.

the smell of holidays is getting stronger and stronger.... next wednesday faster come... =p

dreams

2008-03-06T22:24:00.003+08:00

woke up yesterday super duper early!! 645am! the last time i woke up so early was because of thorpe park. but then again, durin the bus ride, all of us slept too.

anw, yesterday me and ben went to heathrow airport to meet andrew for breakfast. he flew in from montreal and going to manchester. lucky guy! he has travelled to many many places in america.... arghhh. hahah.

then on the way back, me and ben juz slept throughout in the tube. hahah.. 45min of shiokness.

was thinking right... if i were to break bond wif MOE, and MOE were to ask me for reason, what will happen if my reason is that i cant wake up at 6plus 7am every morning? hahahahah.... think my parents will disown me 1st. hahha. kidding lahh... roarrr. so not used to waking up so early now lo. hahha...

last night i dreamt of many things. one of which i am already a teacher. astee i dreamt of u too! haha dreamt that we are teaching in the same school. then during assembly i walked up to you to say hi but you scolded me cos i was late for school again... hhhahahha..

the other dream was sooo bizarre. i dreamt that i am an OGL back in VJ!! oh manz... din want to wake up cos i was so enjoying myself. the dream felt soo real lo. i was the OGL of this OG group called Tark. (I dunno where this name came from) and i dreamt that i was explaining to my OG group that the 1st letter of each group forms the word V-I-C-T-O-R-I-A. oh i was in charge of this smaller OG group called Elvis. ahahha weird names.

but anw, arrghhh miss my jc days. they were filled wif joy and happiness. i have never felt tired in school before no matter how late i stayed in school until. want to stay as a jc student forever... ahahahhah..

kkiez enough rubbish. back to work. tata.

frenz

2008-03-04T01:32:00.003+08:00

hahah... didnt know that guys can pms too!! muahhaha...

i mean this whole morning i was sooo sian, no mood for anything and din even bother to brighten up my face and there was no reason for it at all! lol. the run in the gym was good!! i am so much fresher now, even tho i am stinking since i have not bathed yet. heez

anw, wanted to say that it is reallie great to have frenz who are reallie concerned about you. hhaha... juz that they observe more, then as frenz, they think that they should inform u about whatever they see. lol. and these people always start with the line on msn
"ermm.. do u mind if i ask u a question?"

hahahah.. even though wadever they said, i have already known, i am still glad that they are showing their concern. i am not saying other frenz are not concerned abt me juz because they are not observant but juz that different people have different ways of showing and blah blah blah... u know wad i mean!

kkiez.. i seriously need to go and take a bath now...

vjc!!

2008-02-29T05:38:00.002+08:00

hahaha.. this is wad victorian spirit is all about. time in vj was happening, never boring and soo fun to be at! heez. and of all places this video had to be taken in the toilet. muahhaha

那首歌

2008-02-28T06:19:00.002+08:00

不知道为了什么忧愁它围绕著我
我每天都在祈祷快赶走爱的寂寞

你要我听这一首歌用这首歌离开我
她唱的太美了歌词却很伤人
你为什么不直接提分手

爱人的话不需要重轻轻的说我就懂
接你的车来了表示爱到站了
我站在十字路口对抗心痛一个人

你的黑发现在睡进谁的胸口
你的唇现在跟谁要温柔
一开始你爱我最后你放弃我
还要用千言万语说得委屈你有多难过

爱牢牢抓紧我恨深深包围我
你要我为你好快赶走爱的寂寞

爱人的话不需要重轻轻的说我就懂
接你的车来了表示爱到站了
我站在十字路口对抗心痛一个人

你的黑发现在睡进谁的胸口
你的唇现在跟谁要温柔
一开始你爱我最后你放弃我
还要用千言万语说得委屈你有多难过

爱牢牢抓紧我恨深深包围我
你要我为你好快赶走爱的寂寞

爱牢牢抓紧我恨深深包围我
你要我为你好快赶走爱的寂寞

fell in love this song the moment i heard it. youjia really has a magnetic voice that brings u into the emotions of the song. the lyrics are not that hard to understand yet it is so powerful and meaningful.

hope that i will never have to go through this kind of emotions in my life =)

hope that you will like this song as much as I do. enjoy!

our island lah

2008-02-27T08:01:00.003+08:00

if the date difference of the latest entry and the 2nd latest one is a huge one, then either it means that there is nothing much going on in his life and hence nothing to write about or it may also mean that there is sooo much going on in his life but he has no time to update.

sadly, i belong to the 1st case. hahaha...

erm... i am finally perfoming in the singsoc major event OUR ISLAND LAH! hahha... i was roped in due to the fact that i was dancing VJ mass dance during the Chinese New Year carnival. Then Youcai and Jingzhi were staring at me after that, and i know i gone case liao. hahha. ok lah, retro dancing has few steps to remember. hopefully i will be able to master and bring out the intended flavour. anw, i saw and practised the whole dance segment today. it is by far the CHEEKIEST dance i have ever danced in my life. not that i have danced for my whole life either. =)

oh and i got my exam timetable today. i end on the 20th May!! hahaha.. thats quite early and i am so happy. hee. but got 2papers on 1 day, think i will konk out after 5days of 6papers consecutively. so my heart goes out to someoneS who have 4/5 papers in 3 days. ahhaha... anyway, to yvonne, ahha ur prayer worked! i really end on that day and haizzz that means that i have to play host to u and ur fren when u come here liao. hahahahha...

still remember last year, after 7 papers, i was soooo drained that i could not study for my last paper. i slept at 8pm the night before and i woke up at around 10plus the next morning. my paper was at 2pm. hahahha.. luckily the module was easy to understand but i got a B for it. hahaha. but if it happens this year again, i will confirm die cos the last paper is the module which i hate the most. in fact i think that is the only module that i am hating now. roarrr. hahaha.

cant wait to go back to singapore. haha. as in whenever i go back to singapore, i will feel like i am charging up my energy for my time in london. dunno why, this year my energy goes down so fast. maybe i know that i am going back to singapore earlier so i used my energy in excess and not as sparingly as last year (*beaming at the chemistry students*).

anw, me is watching 公主小妹 now. the plot may be alittle trashy but it is reallie a feel-good show. and sometimes i think i can identify to wu zun in the show. i am not saying here that i am as good-looking as him or i have a bod as hot as his. hahah my skin not that thick. but anyway, can really relate to the character in the show. maybe thats wad attract me to the show.

kkiez.. have been staring at the screen for some time not knowing wad to write liao. juz wanna sign off here by asking everyone part of the major event to JIAYOU. dun be stressed by it. enjoy the whole process and enjoy the company of the fellow singaporeans around us. everything will fall into place nicely de. =)

arghh.. juz realised that i think that i sprained my knee or something. i cant squat at all if not my right leg will hurt alot!!

random entry

2008-02-20T01:25:00.002+08:00

hahahahha... i cannot stop laughing now.

please ignore my last entry. it was an emo entry written in the heat of the moment and no i did not lose my virginity! hahahha. sorrie to frenz out there who have been speculating and thinking about it. it is nothing serious reallie. =p

anyways, today in afternoon lecture, i was sooo drained that i was just like a robot copying my notes. i wasnt physically tired and so i could not sleep then. that kind of feeling sucks. it was in fact the 1st time when i wanted to go to the gym to run to wake myself up, which i did!

was doing my coursework on sunday. spent the whole day literally to try and solve a 12-mark question. by evening i was quite demoralised already with all the chunks of messy equations. clarice was looking at my working and then i just said

reallie hate all those ugly things (referring to the ugly maths workings), thats why i cant possibly hate myself.

ahhahaha... oh! i am stuck at www.viwawa.com. hahha... it has online mahjong! for someone in london now whose hands get itchy quite often, online mahjong is there for me!! muahahha....

cant wait for this term to end. singapore here i come!!

loss

2008-02-15T06:00:00.004+08:00

I have lost something which was solely mine. I could not even protect it with all my might. I may be making a mountain out of a molehill but that doesnt stop me from feeling disappointed. Surprised? no. cos i know this day will come and so i am very very irritated.

Ignorance is blissed but I am no longer ignorant and so I am not blissed. i am feeling sorry not for myself but for the whole situation. have been thinking if there was a teeny bit chance that i would not have lose it yet could not think of any.

guess i am learning something new. something which i gained from it. about the idealistic world i think i am living in. yet the world is soooo real and complex. (*grinning at all mathematics students*)

BUT

Mark 4:35-40 (English Standard Version)

On that day, when evening had come, he said to them, "Let us go across to the other side." And leaving the crowd, they took him with them in the boat, just as he was. And other boats were with him. And a great windstorm arose, and the waves were breakng into the boat, so that the boat was already filling. But he was in the stern, asleep on the cushion. And they woke him and said to him, "Teacher, do you not care that we are perishing?"

And he awoke and rebuked the wind and said to the sea, "Peace! Be still!" And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. He said to them, "Why are you so afraid? Have you still no faith?"

I have faith with Him and I know that He is there for me. and so, I should rejoice! =p

stupid coursework

2008-02-11T07:37:00.000+08:00

I am soooo tired now. practically stuck in school for yesterday and today to do the stupid coursework. allow me to whine and bitch a little.

this coursework is part of the differential equation module that i am taking now and there are a total of 3 courseworks altogether. these amount to 10% of the module. oh did i mention that i am taking 8modules for the whole year? so ya do your maths and you will realise that this coursework is sooo teeeny weeeny in terms of percentage of my overall mark.

yet it is 43pages long of the output of this wonderfully-created maple programme. and i was so fed up that i did not even complete every single thing that is asked of me. well, left out abit here and there. there are soo many things to do all for the little percentage.

but then again, thats the sad thing about students. all we care for is the grades when we are doing the assignments and the exams. but we do not really care whether we understand the subject matter anot. thats singapore education for you IMO. so i am trying hard to like wadever i am learning right now. but still quite hard lahh..

i can so imagine my dad asking me to bite the bullet and to suck thumb cos life is like that. hahahha.

anyway, this coursework is considered to be history and it will be like 2 weeks later before another assignment comes in for us to do! let me breathe more during these 2 weeks plus. ahaha.

better things to mention:

ermm... just realised today that dayung sampan has the same tune as 甜蜜蜜. i bet u all dunno rite? in fact i also dunno until joshua pointed it out. =)

oh!! it is proven from the gym weighing machine that i weigh the same as the last time i weighed! but i am told that my face is rounder and like wad daryl says, i look like a daogay (beansprout). haizzz. even i myself have to admit that my face is rounder! however i am not fatter than before Har! lol... sighz.

kkiez my eyes are going to shut really really soon. this is the reflection of the amount of work i put in. =) need to write the conclusion for the coursework before going to bed. oh did i say that the coursework is history liao? darn.. soon lah soon by tmr 2pm it will officially be history.

万事如意

2008-02-07T21:37:00.000+08:00

I am bored so here i am again!

haizzz....

when the whole of singapore is visiting relatives and friends for Chinese New year, i am sleeping on my bed.

when my 2 brothers are receiving angbaos and eating bak kwa and pineapple tarts, i am playing chess with 周公.

when the whole of singapore is going to have dinner on the 1st day of Chinese new year, i am in school having lessons.

when the whole of singapore has 4 days to celebrate CNY, i have to hand in assignment on Monday which means i will be stuck in the computer lab for some period of my time.

saddddd.....

kk lunch break is over need to go to school for lessons liao.
are you guys playing balackjack and/or mahjong now?

sadddddd.....

happy new year!

2008-02-07T10:29:00.001+08:00

gong xi fa cai!!

*burp*

haha... it is 230am now and yet i am still very very full from dinner. that is the problem with steamboats. before the steamboat everything seemed not enough but once we have started eating, we realised that there were too much food.

*burpppp*

and the worst part (or rather the best part) we had chocolate fondue for dessert!! fruits are healthy but when they are dipped in chocolate are they healthy anymore? teehee.... there were too much fruits and we had to play zong ji mi ma to clear the fruits. my stomach was soo full until whenever i laugh i will get stomach cramp... hahahah...

plus i am GUILTY! of eating too much and i am FATter... must go and exercise more. in the past the weather was too cold for me to be more active. (hahaha.... excuse) but anyways, my stupid brothers just insulted me over skype. especially darren..

"ehh kor.. put your face nearer to the screen.. nearer.. nearer lahh.. hahah your face takes up the whole screen! hahahha"

roarrrrr.... i will do something to it! (erm.. my body i mean) hahahaha.

i have digressed too much.

just wanted to say
GONG XI FA CAI! may the year be full of blessings, joy and peace!

新年快乐

2008-02-03T00:56:00.000+08:00

农历新年又来临了。
然而心情没有因此而热腾起来。
那种童年时的兴奋与欢乐究竟跑到哪里去了？
人在他乡，随遇而安，更谈不上什么佳节的气氛。
只求除夕的团员饭会是丰富的，并且充满着喜悦。

开学也有四周了。
多么希望时间可以瞬间般的溜走。
不要误会，我在这里的生活也没有什么可以挑的。
这里的朋友也增添了我人生的色彩。

可能是在功课上找不到以前的那种热诚吧。
记得从小学，中学，甚至到了高中，我对数学的热诚是无庸置疑的。
但是这份热诚已像气球飞入蓝蓝的天空。
还好，有些科目还蛮有趣的。我相信这份热诚还是找得回的。

猪年已要告一段落了。
我们也只好认了吧。老了。哈哈。
牛年即将来临了。两轮的十二年也要过了。
回想起着二十多年的生活，也没有什么好遗憾的。
真的要感谢上帝，给予我一个如此美好的生活。

就此祝大家过个幸福的一年。要带着微笑与关怀度过每一天。

那些日子

2008-01-28T22:17:00.000+08:00

I know I am very slow in that I just watched the whole 1st season of 超级星光大道.

Anyway, this entry is just to say how much i love this song after i heard him sing. This is the very 1st time i have listened to this song even though it is a super old song (i think). The tune has been stuck in my head for a very long time.

to sidetrack abit. i think 林宥嘉 looks abit like rayner. both can eat alot and like to sing! and i think they have the similar outlook. hahahahha. BUT rayner juz refuses to go and take part in 绝对 superstar.. hahaha.

kkiez. the following clip is the original song from 陶晶莹. i think the mtv spoils the whole thing but just enjoy the song lahh. :)

The reason why i like this song is because the song is very 自言自语 and layback. it talks about how this person has wonderful memories of the past relationship and is reminiscing about the past. the reason as to why he/she chose to break up with partner because he/she just wants to keep the good memories and duwan to reach a level where the love totally becomes a hatred and the good memories vanish.

hope you like this song too! :)

high school musical

2008-01-20T07:48:00.000+08:00

Finished watching high school musical 1 and 2. 1 is really fantastic. the songs and the plot made the whole show a very good one. however, hsm2 just went down the drain. the plot was super kiddy and lacking of substance. the only thing that salvaged it is the songs. really love the songs in it.

Gotta Go My Own Way is my favourite song in this whole HSM. the song is juz so sad and i can feel the pain in the song.

another colour turns to grey.

dunno why but this simple line just struck me. hope that my life will be very very colourful and not be greyish/black/white... i am sure i can! :)

enjoy the video and the song! hope you like it as much as i did.

[Gabriella]

I gotta say what's on my mind

Something about us doesn't seem right these days

Life keeps gettin in the way

Whenever we try, somehow the plan Is always rearranged

It's so hard to say But I've gotta do what's best for me

You'll be ok... I've got to move on and be who I am

I just don't belong here I hope you understand

We might find our place in thisWorld someday

But at least for now I gotta go my own way

Don't wanna leave it all behind But I get my hopes up

And I watch them fall everytime Another colour turns to grey

And it's just too hard to watch it all

Slowly fade away I'm leaving today 'cause IGotta do what's best for me

You'll be ok...

I've got to move on and be who I am

I just don't belong here I hope you understand

We might find our place in thisWorld someday

But at least for nowI gotta go my own way

[Troy]What about us? What about everything we've been through?

[Gabriella]What about trust?

[Troy]You know I never wanted to hurt you

[Gabriella]what about me?

[Troy]What am I supposed to do?

[Gabriella]I gotta leave but I'll miss you

[Troy]I'll miss you [Gabriella]SoI've got to move on and be who I am

[Troy]Why do you have to go? [Gabriella]I just don't belong here I hope you understand

[Troy]I'm trying to understand

[Gabriella]We might find our place in thisWorld somedayBut at least for now

[Troy]I want you to stay

[Gabriella]I gotta go my own wayI've got to move on and be who I am

[Troy]What about us?

[Gabriella]I just don't belong here I hope you understand

[Troy]I'm trying to understand

[Gabriella]We might find our place in thisWorld someday

But at least for nowI gotta go my own wayI gotta go my own wayI gotta go my own way

hungary photos

2008-01-17T05:28:00.000+08:00

the photos of the hungary trip! hahaha... ermm. realised that i did not say anything much about the trip. basically after my ski trip, i was too sian and tired to go travelling again. haha. so we were like going there grudgingly. perhaps i enjoyed too much during my ski trip.

anyways, SO we decided to make the trip a super slack one. no rushing to museums or visiting places. hahhaa.. in a way it was good because we managed to look at the country and looked at how the people live through our myopic eyes.

and yes, u saw us swimming outside in the cold of 2degree Celsius. haha. it was a thermal bath actually. the temperature of the water was 25degree Celsius. we went for like 10min and we went back to the indoor ones. the bath was supposed to be good for skin complexions BUT the water was super dirty! and it was crowded with so many people.

the food was fantabulous as can be seen from the pictures. :) anyways, in eastern europe, things are generally cheaper and hence we can afford to eat abit classier. hahha. yups.

the last half of the pictures were taken in Budapest, the capital of Hungary. i am really a city person. my mood was soo much better when i reached Budapest. haha.. a typical city-dweller.

roarr... too tired to think or write anymore.. ohohh!!! suddenly remembered! 1stly, i went to other eastern european countries last year. and in the train stations, there are no gantries, just ticket machines for people to check their tickets. and so we managed to walk in and out of stations without paying for the tickets. then in Budapest, we did the same thing but we were stopped by this guy. we were fined for 5000FT per person (about 10pounds). ahhaha and we talked to him for a long time to make sure that he was real stuff and not out there to cheat our money. well, we had to fork out money lo. was quite sad at that time. however, the wonderful thing that happened was that the guy actually let us off alittle by asking olivia not to pay the fine as she is a lady. ks, benny and i were more pissed than happy even though we gained 5000FT. hahaha.. talking about gender equality! lols.

kkiez shall post more pics soooon!

new blogskin!

2008-01-14T06:51:00.000+08:00

wahhaha... love my new blogskin! not that i design it though.. heez

kkiez photos will be uploaded. i promise! :)

1st week of school

2008-01-08T20:05:00.000+08:00

hahah... dunno wad to blog about, yet feel like blogging. roar..

ermm. school has started. really grateful that my lecturers are getting better and better.. but then again, it is only the 1st week of school.

still remembered last year after spring term, i was so happy as i thought i wont have to sit in front of the computer cracking my brain till my head burst due to some evil programming like matlab and maple. But my joy was short-lived. Last term, there was this course that made use alot of matlab, last assignment of which was just handed in yesterday and i heaved a sigh of relief.

BUT! today during a lecture, Lamb, my lecturer-cum-personal tutor told us that part of our assessed courseworks will have to make use of maple and/or matlab. was too overwhelmed that i just laughed out loud in lectures. well, not that loud for heads to turn but ya i laughed. haiiiiiiiii...
nvm, next year no more liao! (hahahaha, hoping again =p)

was talking to yt like around 12hrs before her exam. yet the things we talked about are not about molecules, benzene or what-nots, not that i am able to help too :) hahha.. we talked about friendships and relationships. hmmm... have to agree that the more you expect, the more disappointed you are. and then you will start to blame yourself for thinking that way because people are different. yup yup.
(dun read too much into this paragraph =p just my thoughts.)

made me think about my wonderful family and friends back home. really cherish the bonds with each and every one of you, be it strong metallic ones or weaker van der waals one... :)

btw, must record this down in my blog so that in the future i can remember.

kudos to gy and duane for secretly sending me a card. not exactly a bdae / new year card but a card full of warmth and heart-felt thoughts. thanks a millions! reallie touched by it. (from head to toe) hahahah

sometimes i am thinking y i am so sensitive and like to think so much... if i were to be like other guys in general and be less sensitive and maybe more macho, how will my life be? hahaha... but then again, i will not be the darius today and i dun think my circle of frens will be exactly the same too... SO, cannot have the best of both worlds and the only thing i can do now is to stop thinking so much. hahahaha. yup, thank God for who i am and i am sure i ll be a better man/person in the future.

hahah reminds me of ACS motto..

my favourite line now is from 黄金路. haha yes, i am watching the channel 8 show now =p

笑也一天，哭也一天，那何不笑着过一天？

something lidat lahh, but it means alot... which is somewhat my motto for life too.. (not the ACS one .. hahahaha)

anyways, think the show is very nice. but i am only at episode 5. wahhhahah...

wow, amazing! didnt know i managed to write so much... =p

atonement

2008-01-03T04:05:00.000+08:00

just finished reading the book ATONEMENT and watching the movie on tudou.com. the storyline is really amazing and it gropes into guilt, shame, consequences, love and hatred. hahaha i dun think it make sense now.

the setting of the story is in london, in the pre WWII period. there is this girl by the name of Briony. as a young child, her command of the language is very strong, she likes to write tales and tries to write a play. during one summer, on a hot day, she sees her sister, Cecilia taking off her outer clothes and jumping into the water to retrieve a broken vase piece (the vase is a family treasure) in front of their childhood friend, Robbie Turner. Robbie is the one who broke the vase. After the incident, Robbie and Cecilia realised that they are in love. but Briony does not interprete it that way. she thinks that Robbie is a sex maniac and she commits a crime.

The crime changes Robbie's and Cecilia's life forever. Briony spends her lifetime trying to atone for her crime and Robbie in the end chooses to be in the army to fight in the world war because he doesnt want to stay in the prison.

If you want to know the ending, watch the movie. it is really good.

the story touches me because it is all about feelings. Briony committed the crime purely because of sisterly love. she wanted to protect her sister but of course in the wrong way. the consequences of it all was too much for Briony to bear. (I cringed and my heart when i read the last few pages and watched the last few minutes of the movie.)

also, even though the crime caused Cecilia and Robbie to be separated, their love for each other was so real and intense that they have never ceased to write letters to each other and Cecilia kept asking Robbie to come back to her after the war.

life is about LOVE. if there is no love, there is no point in living in this world.

For God so loved the world that He sent His one and only Son to die for us.

happy birthday to me

2008-01-02T04:59:00.000+08:00

2008 is here!
and of cos my birthday is here too! hahahha.

today has been quite a peaceful and pleasant day. reached back to london from the super cold romania in the late afternoon. really grateful that clarence and chee hui came over to my place to have dinner with me and my housemates.

to all those people who wished me via MSN, facebook etc. thanks a million :)

birthday is now just another day to thank God for. thank Him for everything over the past year.

birthday resolutions?
erm... hahah made 3 wishes just now. shall not say them at all.

this is going to be super random but evil thoughts please please get away from me. i have been having evil thoughts about people which is not good at all.

kiez. school is starting really soon!

hahah.. shall upload photos soon, i promise!

ski trip

2007-12-24T19:26:00.001+08:00

I am back from Tignes, France! Skiing was really fun and i enjoyed it very much. For 5days, from Monday to Friday, what we did were eat, ski, eat, ski, eat, play bridge, sleep! hahahhah..

thank God that i did not suffer any injuries. the closest that i got was i did a split once after i left the chair lift cos my skis were positioned wrongly and *pah* my knees were locked. yahting, chieh hwee and the person-in-charge of the chair lift were stunned. and the person has to pull me up. once i was pulled up, i juz burst out laughing... haha cos there was this sign that wrote MOVE FORWARD and the arrows pointed left and right to indicate 2 different slopes on the left and right. then i told yt and ch that i was juz following instructions.. heez.

and i realised from the ski trip. erm not exactly from the ski trip lah, but that i am not close to the singaporeans of my batch at all. told clarence and chee hui that i was quite glad that they came to this trip too. maybe because i am staying on the other side of school.

oh and tingjun's brother and sister came for the ski trip too. haha tingwei is a fellow victorian too! and he is super chatty lah hahaha... talked to him alot about vs and joked about other stuff too. =p

anyways, happy holidays to everyone!!
have a merry xmas and a happy new year!

think the next time i blog will be in the year 2008 cos i am going to hungary/romania on the 27th till 1st jan!

ski trip

2007-12-14T06:55:00.000+08:00

term has officially ended!! well, not that official lah, since tmr i still have 1hr lecture. roarrrr!!!! it was damn funny juz now. when the same lecturer ended this afternoon, he said 'see you tmr'. then the whole lecture theatre juz groaned... hahhaha

anyway, this term juz zoomed past and within this period of time i have so much memories. must say that i am having fun here and i learnt alot too! =p

going to france for a ski trip together with the singsoc till 23rd december. hope that everyone will not have any injuries. =p

to the rest of the people, have a happy holiday and dun miss me..=)

back from the dead

2007-12-10T21:49:00.000+08:00

yeah! my stupid internet in the house is finally up and running. so ya, i am not hiding or avoiding from anyone for the past week... hahahaha.

1 more week of school! cant wait for school to end le. no mood to study liao... hahaha. can only think of my ski trip this coming friday. =p

oh must mention about last monday too. well, 祸不单行. basically there was this day where the washing machine could not work. then it followed by the cold water tap from the kitchen sink ran out of water. after lunch, there was no more hot water. luckily the bathroom and the toilet still had water. we were thinking like how suay can we get for since everything in the house seemed to go wrong. we realised later that a major water tank leaked the night before and we had been using the water reserve for the whole night the night before and till lunchtime. luckily, the water came back by evening time. hahhaa..

went to olivia's church to listen to this testimony of Ian. He is a New Zealander and he was a gambling aethist who did not believe in God at all. Then, in 1982, he was stung by a jellyfish, the deadliest species and he was going to die. in the whole process of dying, he heard this voice reassuring and telling him things, i.e. if you close your eyes you will die. basically throughout the ordeal, he began to pray to God and was truly repentent.

he was pronounced dead in the hospital. his soul went to this dark place. after a while, he went upwards towards this source of light. he experienced warmth, peace and unadulterated love from the light and there he was in heaven. God asked him whether he wanted to go down back to earth to live again. at first, the only person that made him want to go back was his mum. cos his mum is a devout christian and he was scared that if he were to remain in heaven then his mum may lose faith in God. he wanted to be a living testimony to his mum too. then God showed him faces. unfamiliar faces. Ian was puzzled as he could not recognise these faces. well, God's intention was to use him to reach out to others to believe in Him.

hence he chose to come back to earth. the whole experience took 15minutes and when he opened his eyes, he frightened all the nurses and doctors and was discharged the next day with perfect health.

well, his testimony may sound too amazing to be true but the lesson learnt personally for me is that i am living now is not because of my life on earth but i am reminded that i am living for the sonship, stewardship and worship of God. living for my eternal life. =p

mars vs venus

2007-11-29T03:07:00.000+08:00

roaarrr... me is pissed off now. it is all because the stupid internet provider that my household uses is currently UNDER MAINTAINENCE. and the best thing is the internet provider did not even inform us of this SUPER BIG INCONVENIENCE. roaarrrr.. ahhaha.

anyways, blog about happier stuff. haha. ermm... went to Nice and Monaco over the weekend with my household.

Saturday
3am: left the house
315am: took the bus to the national coach station
4am: took the coach to bring us to the airport
5am: reach the airport
7am: took the plane.

basically i was super zonked for the whole Saturday because i only managed to catch some sleep in the coach and the 2hr flight. ahha but ok lahh. weekend trips are always like that. upon reaching Nice, the custom officers need to check with our passports. we were all puzzled. but one thing is for sure. if u have the biometric passport, u will meet with much less inconvenience and it is much faster to clear the custom. basically, we realised later that it is their custom to check Asian passports. i also dunno why.

Upon reaching this hostel which doesnt even deserve the 2star rating (but it is cheap lah), we put down our stuff and took a train to monaco. Monaco is the 2nd smallest independent country... but the weather dampened pur spirits. cos it was raining. the rain plus the fatigue that we had propelled us to go back to Nice at 5pm and we din tour much too.

but on sunday, it was super sunny and hot! my favourite kind of weather! and Nice is famous for her beach. the sun and the beach is a super welcoming combination for tourists like me. the water is super clear and i felt like jumping into the sea. roarrr wanted to put up pictures. but i am in school blogging now at 7pm, so no pictures for now. haha.

it was quite a refreshing and relaxing weekend.

wanna mention i just finished MARS VS VENUS! hahaha. well, yes yes, i know i am super slow. cos it was shown on channel 8 last yr november but sorry lahh, poor me dun get to watch such shows here u know? hahaha. anyways, this is the 1st singaporean show (or channel 8 show for the matter) that makes me superglued to my laptop. hahah thanks to astee's mum. cos she taped the show and sent it over to astee for her to watch. then astee was saying that the show was very nice so i decided to watch lo.

i really like it alot! it follows the korean drama formula actually. the 1st few episodes are super farnie and then the serious and emotional stuff come later. the show is about sterotypes between the 2 genders and about the common problems where couples faced. i was laughing alot cos the stereotypes were so exaggerating until they are funny. haahah.

the stereotypes are like a guy farts an average of 12times a day and a girl, 8. or, a guy speaks an average of 2000-3000 words a day while a girl, 6000-8000. hahhaha... anyways, ya kudos to the show! hope they will garner alot of awards this yr during star awards. shit!! i sound super auntie here but i dun care. hahahaa.

and the boy wenwen is sooo cute!! i want to have a son that is like him!! hahahaah.. :)

and heres to all my friends who are currently taking their exams, JIAYOUUU!!! the xmas break is coming reallyyyyy soon!! =p

oh haha. super excited cos i am gg back to singapore in march!! and if nothing goes wrong, i will be back for 6 weeks!! ahhaha.. going to pon the 1st week of useless lessons and stay in singapore to study for my exams. heez. dunno why i din have that feeling last year. maybe because at the start of this term, i discussed wif my parents about me coming back. but thats not before my december hols!

quite excited yet scared cos going skiing. think this should be once-in-a-lifetime experience bah. so gg to enjoy it! =p

hahaha.. somehow glad that my house's internet is down cos i came to school so i have the incentive to spend more time in front of my com now and so i am blogging alot lo. hahahah..

temasek seminar

2007-11-19T04:32:00.000+08:00

ok. after a relatively long hiatus, i have decided to blog. there are many things on my mind that i really like to blog about and so i hope that i will be able to list everything down.

the weather is turning cold and winter has officially started. i can stand the cold but i cant stand the wind. the wind is really a pain in the ass. hahah and not to mention the weather in London is not exactly that fantastic. the only thing that i like about the cold is everynight when i cuddle myself under my thick thick duvet and sleep. hahaha really warm and comfortable.

jevon came over for the weekend and he stayed over at my place. i was quite excited cos this is the 1st time ever since i came to London last year that we meet up in Europe. haha. well, DSTA sponsored him money to come to London for the talk organised by PSC. the talk was by singaporeans and for singaporeans to update us about the landscape in singapore. well, the crux of it is that the fertilty rate in Singapore is mediocre and hence we should do something about it. i think the underline meaning of it is also to remind the singaporeans of their roots and to go back to Singapore after our studies or a few years of working experience here. i really like the opinions given by Mr (or Dr?) Lim Siong Guan , chairman of EDB. he is really frank and outright about the policies and way Singapore does things. of course he was so frank about the whole thing that i dun think i can blog about what he said during the talk.

which reminds me. i was helping out this korean friend of mine, Handoo at the library. then we were talking for awhile. i was stunned when he asked me this question

" i heard that there is dictatorship in singapore and singapore is owned by this family. is it true?"

stunned. shocked. loss of words for a few moments. whoever has been feeding the foreigners such distorted facts should be shot. how can we feed others the wrong information? haizz...

i have forgotten where i have heard this joke from. but it is about chemists, physicists and mathematicians.

once, there was this 3-storey house and it was owned by a chemist, physicist and the mathematician. Each stays on different storey. one day, a fire broke out. the chemist woke up, saw the fire, took the fire extinguisher and sprayed the contents in excess. the physicist woke up, sat down at the table and calculated the angle and the force applied to the fire extinguisher so as to maximise the effort of putting out the fire. he got the results, and put out the fire, proud of himself and went back to sleep. the mathematician woke up, saw the fire, then the fire extinguisher, told himself that there is a solution to the problem and went back to sleep.

hahaha... make fun of mathematicians. sighz... hahaha.

anyways, i realised some stuff about myself. lets talk about food. i realise that i am quite resistant to changes. i can go to the same eatery and order the same dishes all the time once i find them nice. take for example, ben's cookies. there are so many flavours and types which i have not tried before. but if i were to choose just one, there is a very high chance that i will choose the triple chocolate one. is this called 专一? ahahha.. i dont know either. maybe like what daryl said, that means i am not very good with goodbyes.

another thing about me is that i like to use my heart more than my head. of cos not in times of tests and exams lah, if not i will surely die one. hahaha. for instance, i see this thing that it is really really nice. it is white in colour. i like it alot. i know it can be/will get dirty in the end but i will still buy it and own it in the end. most of the time it cannot even be considered a struggle. hahaha... i just buy it. heeez.

hahaah these sound really random but at least these are really some of my thoughts.

photos

2007-11-11T06:42:00.000+08:00

These are just some random photos i took in Thorpe Park. hahhahahha... really impressed by thrope park especially by the facilities for the wheelchair bound people. they have the opportunity to sit the rides too..

week 6

2007-11-09T22:27:00.000+08:00

in school now waiting for my lesson to start at 3.

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

hahah is this the longest word? anyway, went to watch the musical Mary Poppins on Wednesday. It is really a pity that they are ending their performance by mid january. it is a really colourful and magical performance. I was personally swept away by the dance steps. there was tap dancing too! dunno why i like tap dancing so much now. still haven gotten my shoes. damnn! ahhaha...

half of a term has gone le. time flies isnt it? dunno why but i feel jaded le. maybe yr 2 in london le. i have fallen into equilibrium and hence me is soo jaded. i cant believe that i am counting the weeks every now and then. ya week 6 is coming to an end. i need a holiday sooN! a good thing my december holidays are filled with activities and i hope that it will be fun.

another thing about this year is that i have been drawn sooo much closer to God. like to thank the people around me who are christians for encouraging me unknowingly. hahahah. really learn alot and i hope that i am prepared and ready to take the next step of christianity. i am learning too! hahahaha.

cant believe i am staring at this site for the past 10min and not typing anything.. ahhahah too tired lahh. last night came back quite late from weiming's bday celebration...

roarrr okie gg for the last 2 hours of lesson for the week!!

week 6 is coming to an end. :)

Thorpe Park

2007-11-04T08:43:00.000+08:00

damn tired now. juz finished bathing and i have to blog about today, if not i will forget.

went to thorpe park today. it is an amusement park.. yeah! and i did 7 extreme rides (thats wad they call it). it felt like i committed suicide 7times. hahahha... the 1st station that I did was RUSH. it was something like a super big swing and it will swing you up and down a few times with the maximum height is super duper high. the seat wasnt exactly that tight so when we reached the maximum height our butts left the seats. it was superrrr scary. it is the only station that is scarier than it looks. my legs were wobbly after the ride.

after that, we went to all kinds of roller coaster. trained by the 1st station, the other stations were not that scary liao... hahahaha. shall let you all see the pics some other time.

the last station that we did called the Stealth was another classic. i waited for 2hrs for the 15sec ride. this super short ride was the highlight of Thorpe park. the roller coaster will accelerate from 0km/h to 160km/h in 2.3sec and bring you to the height of 205feet. the acceleration was scarryyyyy but after the whole thing, i juz felt damn shiok.

Happy Guy's Fawkes Day!
Remember remember the 5th of november!!

workkk

2007-10-31T01:35:00.000+08:00

waiting to go for cell group soon. then felt like blogging. hahhaha...

ehhh.. last weekend went to a church in orpington which is in zone6 of london organised by the Christian Union. the food which was prepared by just 2 people for 50 of us was really awesome... hahaha.. i had so much fun in the camp as well as listening to talks and seminars which are important for our spiritual lives and our mission.

came back on sunday night and i was damn shagged. but i managed to work on my problem sheet till 2am which was supposed to discuss on monday.. heez. went to school at 10-11.then came back to sleep till 130pm. shiokk. ahhahha. then last night chionged 2 problem sheets till 2am too... and surprisingly i am not tired today. :) and now i can rest for 1 day!! not doing any work today!!! all my brain cells have evaporated le.

the song 完美比例 from rainie juz keeps ringing in my head. like that song. :)

secret

2007-10-25T23:17:00.000+08:00

i hate thursdays cos i end school at 6. me is waiting to go for my last lesson and so got nothing to do (in fact no mood to do anything) so here i am blogging. :)

weather here is ridiculously, insanely cold for the past week. the weather forecast said it will end by this sat... i am sooo hoping.. hahaha. it is cold cos of the strong winds and blow right at your face.

the only good thing about the cold weather is that i will feel very coomfy and loved when i sleep under my thick duvet everynight. hahhaha...

anw, did i mention that i like 换换爱？ thanks to gy for passing me to watch.. it is reallie my kind of show lahh. and the show like wad gy said really have the effect of having the impulsion to fall in love. heheheh... I am sooo not hinting anything arh??!?! dun get me wrong.. hahhahahha...

and i know that i am super duper slow. but i finally watched SECRET. reallie impressed by jay chou. the whole thing was quite slow moving and i could even kept the last part of the show till the next day to watch.. hahah ( i was watching online then the show was divided into 4 parts) but the 4th part aka the revealing of the secret was woahhhhh... reminds me of the movie LAKEHOUSE. reallie nice and touching... i like. hahhah

sound of music

2007-10-20T03:21:00.000+08:00

sound of music musical is really really nice!! the 7children are very cute. and all the songs in the movie were sung in the musical. the songs juz blew my head off cos i have already fallen with the songs in the movie. 1st saw the movie when i was in primary 5.

like the props and the set too. they put the props on a converyer belt and they changed scenes by just moving the conveyer belt.. cool huh? think the money is well spent for a half-price ticket from artsoc. hahaha. :)

my roommates are all out on a friday night. and i am here right in front of the com.. sian!! lolz

sunday

2007-10-15T00:42:00.000+08:00

yippee!! school has started lo. ermm work has started to trickle in but it is still ok lahh.. still enjoying life. hehehe.. guess this year i am busier and i hope that i will be able to do all tasks that are bestowed to me.

went for my 1st tap dancing course this morning. it is damn cool but i dun have my tap dancing shoes yet so it is still not shiok yet. hope that i will be able to go for many many lessons.. hahaha.

and sunday afternoon is spent repairing a vacuum cleaner. it all happened when olivia smelled something burning and we realised that the dust went into the motor and was burnt. as we were trying to salvage it, it became very chui and in the end sparks flew. the vacuum cleaner was deemed as useless le.. hehehe. in the end had to borrow the vacuum cleaner from our neighbour.. ahahah. that sums up my sunday afternoon.. hhahaha..

watching sound of music musical on thursday. hope that it will not let me down cos i really really like the movie and Salzburg where i went last year.

my house

2007-10-08T23:24:00.000+08:00

The above snapshots show the condition of my house minus the gals' rooms... haha.. my room looks spacious rite and neat!! other than the study tables.. :p

The curtain by the way partition our room from the dining table. we will only close it at night when we are sleeping.

Hope that next yr we will be staying at the same place so that we dun have to transport all the cumbersome luggages.

1st week in london

2007-10-03T19:28:00.001+08:00

1st time i took a taxi here!! hahah coolz.. cos gab got extra tables so we went to his place to transport them. the meter jumps by 20pence each time lahh.. but in the end was 7pounds 40 for a typical 20min walk. ok lahh.. we took the opportunity to buy 20kg of rice too and transport everything back.

signed up for french and philosophy course. this year is gg to be a tad busier than last yr. last yr was slackness to the max. hahahha.

oh wanted to say that when i reached back singapore in june, i needed time to get used to my surroundings and everything. but when i cam back to london, everything juz seems so familiar and it seemed like i went back to singapore for only a week. time really flies....

got project presentation next week. it is not counted at all lahh, but then arh i have forgotten everything about my project le lahh... hehehe..

london!

2007-09-30T03:01:00.000+08:00

i am now in london!!

but i am damn shagged now. hahaha.. arrived in london yesterday morning. the stupid queue in customs was super long and we waited for 1hr 40min to get our passports chopped.

went ikea last night to buy stuff and we are now renovating the house. going to like the end product man!! hahaha shall take photos when i am done.. heez.

okok gg to carry on unpacking my boxes and renovating my room!

i am weak.

2007-09-26T22:14:00.001+08:00

darius is flying off tmr!

This 16-day-hiatus of blogging. wanted to blog but laziness and things juz caught up! heeez.

people have been asking me about my feelings as to departing Singapore tmr. ehh.. seriously i am immuned le. no feelings whatsoever. my excitement to yr 2 in london is overwrited by my not-so-happy mood recently.

i think i am weak too! back here in singapore for 3 months. i have teared umpteen times. tears of agony and sadness. who says a guy cant tear rite? to me, tears represent how close you are to me. if someone makes me angry or irritated and i am so not close to him then i will use my bitchiness to retaliate. but if someone who is close to me has upset me, there is a high chance that i will tear.

remember in london, I have teared a total of... 1 time!! hahhah.. and i teared in class somemore... hahaha. anw, i feel that i have done and contributed my part during these 3 months more so than that of the past 21 years. i think i may have changed within this period of time bah.

erm.. positive changes? i think it will be that i have become more of a family person. thanks to my dad who is a super family person.. wahhaha.. i think i ll follow my dad's footsteps when i have my own family in terms of this.

but then again, there are times where i felt like trash. take last night for example. it was a wonderful mid-autumn festival, the moon was super round not that i noticed or celebrated too. however, some things happened and my mood just plummeted.

sometimes i really wonder what i am good at. i dont deny that i have academic excellence, one of which i really work hard for. but then again i think thats all i am good at. seriously. i know people say that i am a nice person. guangyi, u thanked me for being myself and allowing you to find out your weaknesses through me. (oh! i take this opportunity to thank you.. u have been a great fren too!! really...) and keng seng, during the moe thingy, u told someone else in defence that i am the nicest guy u have ever known. i was too stunned to react but ya i heard it. thanks for the comment.. hahaha.. my 24hr-every-day buddy! ( ok that sounds gay.. minus 10hr at least for misc stuff like bathing and sleeping... hahhhahha) heez. back to my point, sometimes i am really not that nice de. ya, and i am just not good at anything else...

really thank God for not giving me the smart gene. i will rather be hardworking and a little stupider than smart but lazy and not doing anything.

i also know myself. i am too emotional le. still remembered the days in Laos where Mr Yap cried that night because of us. He was too emotionally attached to us and thats why when he wasnt happy with us, and too angry, he just broke down. i told myself next time when i become a teacher, i cannot be like him. i want to be a good teacher and yet keep the distance away from my students to prevent anyone from getting hurt or the opportunity for any student to cry foul and point fingers at me to say that i sexually harrass him/her. hahhahha.. i think too much ya?

this period of time, i have made sacrifices too. there are some people whom i think i sould meet up with u guys more.. ah boi, ping and janicia! my BB gang!! sorrie lahh... i promise to meet up wif u guys more often next yr k? oh ya, my other army frenz too!!! see? so many! yet my sacrifices always go un-reciprocated and thats wad piss me off.

sorry for the super randomness. i am just writing down what i am thinking at the moment.

but i am really glad cos i dare to say that my relationship with my dad is so much better now as compared to before i went london last yr. now i can even be cheeky with my dad and advise him about my 2 younger brothers not that it helps lah. of course, there are days where i was really really really mad at him.. but 父子没有隔夜愁。 and for our case, it is really the literal meaning. cos we will be fine only during the following morning. hahaha...

okok.. enough of the emo stuff.

darren has gone to OCS. feel so happy for him... but he suay lahh go to Apha wing. haojun told me that alpha coy is well know to be xiong and they are proud of it. so my bro is in for a hard time.. hahahaha. but he should be fine de lahh... anw jiayou and by the time you commission, it is time for me to come back to singapore too! hahaha.

anw last night's star search was in quarter-final round. i think the competition was quite cock. round 2 was an oral examination to the contestants. and the questions asked how they will react to certain situations if they are celebrities. i think it is quite weird cos the contestants are not even celebrities yet so ask them these questions for wad? but some questions are still ok lahh. then came the acting round. the twist in that round was that there would be 3 minor changes in each show to see how the contestants react and move on in the show. like if the newspaper disappear, how will the contestant react? hahaa... well, it add comic relief and freshness to the show but then think again, these contestants are going to be TV actors in the future not stage actors. if there is something worng with the props, the director will just shout NG wad, why still carry on leh? hahahahha.. this is just my thought lahh.. hahah but the funniest thing happened last year was that the sound of thunders supposed to sound, instead it turned out to be birds chirping. and the actress still went off with in chinese "listen to the sound of thunder!" hahahha...

singaporean drivers are horrible lahh... my dad was caught up in the jam and i was in the car too. the car was in the outermost lane in the expressway. there were 3 motorikes in front and my dad kept a distance from them yet the car kept honking and switching on beam lights. like hello?!? even if we were to move on to the front, the jam is still there! u will still be behind the 3 motorbikes!! well, my car has a p-plate affixed to it. but p-plate means you can bully us meh? also, car got p-plate means that the driver is a p-plater mehz??!? and thats not the best thing yet. the best thing came when my dad finally relented after 5minutes plus by filtering to the middle lane, the car overtook us and the passengers looked at us for quite some time lahh. like wth lor!!! keep your eyes to yourselves lahh... idiots!

oh!! wanted to say about music too! A-Do's album is not out yet but thanks to 933FM, i got to hear his 1st song.. i like the song alot! it is called 差一点. it is about how this gal almost becomes his galfren but due to some reasons they are just not together. also another i like is the other version of Music and Lyrics by Fish Leung and 品冠。well, their song is not as powerful as the original version but this song is too nice to be sung lousily le.. their version has their own taste to it. i like!! hahaha...

thats should be all from singapore 07. wait for my new post in london!! muahhaha...

chuck and larry

2007-09-19T01:22:00.000+08:00

cant stand it! a million singers are going to release their albums only after i am in london... grr. well, what to do? suck thumb lo.. heez.

if someone close to you takes you for granted, do you feel sad because you are taken for granted or do you feel happy and relieved cos u know he takes you for granted precisely he is close to you? juz a food for thought.

on sunday, 3 guys went to watch chuck and larry lah!! ahhaha. damn farnie. the show is really funny lahh. even though some gay jokes are cliched and overused already. but the show is really light-hearted for a sunday afternoon. dun like the part of the hearing cos it turned out to be preaching to the audience that discriminating the gays is wrong. cos the sudden turn in the show was too abrupt for my liking.

duane and gy treated me to this high-class dinner (duane recommend one.. ahaha) at holiday inn. the seafood was super fresh and the staff juz kept walking around and served us different kinds of meat at different times. too bad, my tummy was not being itself that night if not i could have enjoyed it better.

had a 1st household meeting at astee's place. and she cooked pasta for us too. :) ehh.. really excited to go back and live together with the bunch of crazy people... ahhaha.. hope next 9 months will be filled with joy, happiness and warmth! ahhaha.

my tutee

2007-09-14T01:02:00.000+08:00

I am so gonna strangle my tutee. the one who is taking his prelim exams now. I went to give him tuition for his paper 2 exam tmr.

Me: So hows ur paper on tuesday?
Him: Cher, u see lo.
Him: Quite easy rite. Oh cher.. u see the vector question! it is the same pattern as the one u said very important one leh.. den i very excited...
Him: But den hor, i tot the paper is upon 80 leh, so i did until 40 marks den i complacent and den i anyhow do le.. but it is upon 100 marks!!!

-_-"

wah piangz... i feel like strangling him at that point lo.. hahaha... dunno wad to say to him also. haiz.. but if nothing goes wrong, he will pass de lahh... at least still better than his mid yr, only got like 10odd, 20 marks only.

den before i leave.

Me: All the best for ur papers tmr arh.
Him: cher arh.. u think i can pass anot?
Me: ya, of course.. u confirm can pass one. juz dun panic can liao
Him: cher, u reallie think so or juz before the exam you want to boost my confidence arh?

-_-"

passing out

2007-09-11T23:27:00.000+08:00

before i came back from london, i made a resolution. the resolution is to be never angry at this person, to respect him and do my part in this relationship.

and now i am going back. i can only say that i have failed. no matter how hard i try, i feel that i am not good enough. at least that is in his eyes. we juz cannot fully understand each other and it just saddens me totally.

anyways, my brother has juz pop-ed. he is going to slack with me for these 2 weeks. muahhahaha.... hopefully he can go to OCS, or even better as a pilot as that is what he wants.

i really dun like your whack-1st-den-say-sorry mentality.

new skin!

2007-09-11T17:23:00.000+08:00

tada!! my new blogskin. think it is time for a change. gg to embark on a new journey soon so a change in the skin is needed. really like this skin when i 1st saw it. even though there is something wrong with the cursor (so juz press the down/up buttons to scroll) but i liked it sooo much that i wanted this blogskin. however, this also means that i have to type in bigger letters too. the past entries all seem to be too small.

just came back from tuition. my tutee is having his prelims for maths tmr. i spent 2 and a half hours with him and i was totally spent. it was super draining. he asked me questions and i just kept explaining for the whole period of time. i drank 2 glasses of water as a result. but i juz hope that he can do well tmr lo.

since this blogskin is about music, let me talk about it. i listen to chinese songs. i just feel that i can relate better to the songs as compared to the english ones. i have many favourite artistes leh... but i think my all-time fav is still stephanie sun lo. cannot fight one. her very 1st album, is incidentally THE album that brought me into the music world. that was when i was in secondary 3.

as for what instruments i know how to play, sadly none. even though i think playing piano is damn cool. and piano ballads are always oh-so-nice.

clarence is flying off tmr... my turn is coming soon! muahhaha.... rem last yr i was quite envious of him when i was still stuck in singapore then he managed to sightsee london liao..

anw 16more days!!

alotofstuff

2007-09-01T23:36:00.001+08:00

everytime i want to blog, i will have alot of things in mind. but once i see the blank screen in front of me, my mind will go blank too and in the end my entry will not be what i intend it to be.

anyways, want to blog about the freak bus accident that happened last week near my house. i was overwhelmed that day when i walked past the scene. saw the body lying on the floor with a white cloth covering his body and his bag flung a distance away from him. was even overwhelmed when my mum told me that the deceased was actually my schoolmate's brother.

life is juz so fragile man. also maybe i am too sensitive but this month i came across more accidents or wakes at HDB void decks. Just last night, I saw a crashed motorbike on the expressway too. life is too fragile to be taken for granted. and the thing is as i passed by his wake, there was this day where i saw his frenz were there to pay their last respects. and then i saw them crying. my heart felt for them and i felt like crying too! even though i dun even know how he looked like nor do i know his name.

anw, i am proud to say that i had managed to unlock a certain struggle that i had for quite some time le. so happy that my heart can finally beat wildly, full of energy and zest. no longer does my heart feels waned or drained. heez...

oh, let me digress. i feel that i look damn ugly! only when i laugh den i look sooo much better.. ahhahaha... but thats really how i feel. maybe thats y people say i look photogenic on photos only!! hahha

there was one incident which reminded me what haojun told us in prague. he said that in OCS, during survival training, his officer told him that due to survival instinct, if u are stranded in the island with no food, u will end up killing people around you to eat their meat and survive. it is the survival of the fittest and whoever the stronger gets to live. and this includes killing your loved ones. hj said he doesnt rule out that possibilty should that arises. but i reallie shuddered when the thought came to my mind. i mean in today's context, i can daresay that i will never kill anyone let alone eat up my own wife. but who is know given the real situation wad will happen rite? however, i thought about it before and the best outcome that i could think of was cuddling and hugging my wife together till we die. =p

went for UK bound on thursday. it was held at butter factory. it was quite a success and being a greenhorn in clubbing i quite enjoyed myself lahh.. anw felt paiseh for dragging von, pk, weilin and clarence down. den von wanted to dance like reallll badly but the people there were all socialising and networking so the dance floor was empty. it was only after quite a while where people started to dance. so i felt quite bad.

going back to london in 20 odd days. i think i am really excited to go back. cos this time around i am staying with my good friends and the unknown atmosphere of staying with them makes the whole thing exciting. also, i ll like to try out different things and venture different stuff to get different experience.

sojourn

2007-08-28T13:07:00.000+08:00

wah piang! wanted to go and have lunch le but then now raining cats and dogs so i decided to blog 1st and let the rain subside.

haha.. cat reminded me of the museum trip which i mentioned about in my previous entry. i saw her at the museum lahh, then the 1st thing she said was, 'what are you doing here?' hahaha i waas stumped and i din know how to reply her lahh. wad else can we do in the museum?? hehehhe...

anw, the camp was quite fun. got to know alot of people. and i daresay i get to talk to my batch people more durin the camp too which is good. but then arh, i think that i am old liao. after the 1st day, my group the 3 ogls juz died lahh.. ahahha damn shagged man! but anw it is the fun that matters. =)

know that the exco has done alot for the camp and think they really did a good job.

september is here already!!!! roarrr!! hahaha..

museum

2007-08-22T20:47:00.000+08:00

last friday, von brought me to the national museum. too bad the rest could not come. i think for 5bucks it was very worth it to find out the history of singapore from 14th century to the present. and the display was divided into 2 parts, personal one and events one. these 2 parts gave me a very detailed part of the history at that time, not only from the narrator's pov but oso from different people at those era as well.

and i daresay that this museum is really not bad but i still think the winter and summer palaces in austria are still nicer. i will never forget the day where zx din want to buy ticket to view the summer palace then as he and hj were waiting for us, he came in from the back and viewed the palace for free!!! ahhahha...

then the whole ct gang went to ktv at this cheap cheap place at katong shopping centre. damn cheap lah, but no drinks and the seats quite hard but cannot complain le lahh.

friday gg for sojourn camp le. at least got things to do le, minus doing mundane household chores. =)

victoria

2007-08-14T22:52:00.000+08:00

Question of the day:

think of a kind of food which is nutritious for you but you dun like it when you are young. then as you grow older you finally like the taste of the food, your parents tell you that it is in cholestrol and so dun eat too much!

Answer: PIG LIVER

at least that happens to me lahh. cannot have steamboat dinner with my family man!! cos wad is steamboat w/o pig liver rite? but i am the only one in my family to like it and i juz keep eating and eating!! ahhahaha... muz remind myself of the cholestrol content mann!!
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i was driving the other day when i saw this school bus in front of me. it wrote there VICTORIA SECONDARY SCHOOL. oh my goodness lahh! cos i spent 1 min thinking wad school is that!? and i am not kidding here.. it was until when i told myself that i came from Victoria then i realised!!! ahhahaha... BUT THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS VICTORIA SECONDARY SCHOOL!!! thats y i was blur from the start.. haha *excuses* it is VICTORIA SCHOOL lo!!!! haizzz.... imagine calling SJI as St Joseph Secondary school or RAFFLES BOYS SECONDARY SCHOOL! diaoz.. hahaha....
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i hate facials!! it is damn painful and i hate it! arggh yet i have to do it.. all for the price of vanity!! =p

postings

2007-08-10T15:36:00.001+08:00

a lack of posts generally mean that the blogger has nothing to talk about. which is quite true to me. maybe i am lazy oso lahh.. haha..

monday was the TSPC. went to help out with the prize presentation ceremony at Suntec. My duty was to guide 14 cars to the allocated parking lots and had to shoo other people away from the lots.

during the performance there was this dance item put up by some primary school. and the gals were damn cute! when they were preparing for the performance, this teacher asked them wad to pray for. (the school is a Catholic missionary school) this gal shouted that she wants to sleep for 12hrs after the perfomance. and another gal said she want to have group photo with our Education Minister. felt like pinching their cheeks lahh. hahaha.

me is no paedophile here sorry. haha.

2 days ago, on the eve. went out with the ct gang. quite amazed at the turnout! had dinner at this superb korean restaurant at chinatown and den we talked cock basically. really refreshing to have gatherings. =)

oh wanna mention that i think SIMPSONS MOVIE is by far the funniest and bestest movie of the year man... it was super super funny poking fun at EVERYTHING.. like during judgement day, this father asked his kids to pray to God and they are going to see Him soon then this kid shouted "will Buddha be there?" his expression and the innocence is juz damn farnie lahh. hahaha...

for those who haven watched yet, u muz go watch it man...

retail therapy

2007-08-01T13:34:00.000+08:00

wheeez...

i have enjoyed the past 3 days! even though i walked quite abit and my lousy slippers caused my legs to hurt a little but i am not complaining.

drank my fav A&W root beer float.. shiok!

and i am now a self-proclaimed RETAIL THERAPIST! hahahha...

shit august is here alrd!! so fast and i need to go back london soooon. i still haven nua-ed enough!!

results

2007-07-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

I just got my results.

wanna thank God lo. My results are not bad lahh, but because i expected abit more so i was disappointed by abit. however, still like to thank Him for seeing me through. taking 8 papers at one go was reallie tiring and my results is a testimony to Him lo.

i am juz quite irritated by 1 of my papers actually cos i got a 55. in fact, for those difficult papers i did damn well lo. it was those easy papers which everyone can do and i screwed up abit then my results was pulled down in the end.

i am not bragging here but juz to share wif my frenz my results.

M1A1 mechanics 92
M1F foundation of analysis 64
M1GLA geometry and linear algebra 66
M1M1 mathematical methods 1 71
M1M2 mathematical methods 2 88
M1P1 analysis 55 (!!!)
M1P2 algebra 79
M1S statistics 89

average is 75.5 lo.

Harry Potter

2007-07-24T12:57:00.000+08:00

last sat went to the ne show. it was just another rehearsal for the ndp show but i am not complaining. cos this is the 1st year the ndp will be held at marina. erm... feel that it was a pity not as many people are able to attend the ndp to celebrate together. however, the programme was reallie good.

1st, this is to inform those who are gg for the preview or the real ndp show. if u are going wif ur frenz, get different colours for the goodie bags. cos the bag is designed in such a way where it is put together by stripes and the stripes are connected by zips. so u can actually make ur bag bigger/ more colourful.. yup. my bag has orange, green and blue stripes. hahaa...

another thing i know this is not within anyone's control but try to sit on the right side of the audience seats. cos this yr since the stage is on the sea, there are performances/ shows on the water so check out for that... talking about seats. me and ks pissed one of the captains off. cos we had already got our seats and sat down. then we saw astee and zy, so we decided to join them to sit. but the captain came to us and told us in a not very frenly tone that we are making life difficult for him. oh come on lo, the empty seats can be filled by the next 2 people who are coming up wad. i mean yes, their life will be easier but isnt it better if u can go the extra mile to make others happy and it is within ur control? it is not as if like we demand to choose particular seats and block others from having seats lo... haha...

the show itself was nice wif alot of digital effects and the perfomance display put up by the students and soka association was colourful and vibrant. missed those days when i get to go down to deyi sec to help them with their performance when i was in army... haha.

spoilers ahead
i din say who died in the book or wad the ending is like. but the next few paragraphs are more of my opinions peppered wif some stuff from the book. if u duwan to know anything before u read the book, dun read on.

i have also finished reading harry potter... hmm, let me try to say some stuff without spilling out any spoilers. i am reallie impressed by J. K. Rowling as i think it is reallie difficult to write somehting which is not only fictional but also something is not even existent in our lives. yet the story she weaved out, drew parallels with our present lives.

things that struck me in book 7 was that Voldermort was another Hitler, trying to kill and destroy Muggles/Muggled-born witches/Mudblood etc and the propaganda that was to follow like taking charge of all radio stations.. the chaos and fighting presented reminded me of WWII not that i experienced it before. also, Hermoine who was the smartest of the 3 was said to be limited/narrow-thinking... this immediately reminds me of the Singaporean context where people like to say that people who study alot dun dare to take risks blah blah and they like to follow the book as compared to those who are not that academically inclined like to think out of the box... hahha. maybe i am thinking too much.. heez.

book 7 also presented lots of fighting scenes right from the 2nd chapter and i would like to think that the last movie of the Harry Potter series will be set to be a smashing hit... and most of the fighting scene, someone has to die... i feel that the deaths made the fighting scenes more realistic but there are already some connections between those characters and the readers in the other books so i cant help but to feel sorry and thought that wouldnt it have been better if J.K.Rowling doesnt kill anyone.. haizz.

also, i realised that the progress of the story and the explanations of some loose threads in the previous books were all in the forms of conversations and letters and blah blah... well, i know that it is quite hard for the writer to write all these in narrative forms but that was juz a thought.

like there was this whole chapter of Dumbledore talking to Harry Potter.. (to those who havent read it yet, dun kill me for this... i am not saying that Dumbledore is not dead, neither am i saying that he has already died and revived. juz read the book and u will find out =p)

anyways, it is a wonderful book and everyone should read it. hope the movie doesnt disappoint us.

about personal stuff. was quite angry when my mum told me that her colleague brushed against the law and was sacked from her work. angry cos she almost caused my mum into trouble too. luckily got cctv to explain everything lo. haizzz...

marriage

2007-07-20T23:08:00.000+08:00

just came back from dinner wif the moe pople and got to know my moe imperial juniors just now in the evening too. can see that my juniors are feeling the way i am feeling last year too. ahhaha...

cant wait for my results to be out.. grr. think next week out liao.

anw, yesterday was at my aunt's place and my grandfather was there. he suddenly for no reason asked me to get married after i graduate when he is still around. haha... damn farnie lahh, it was soo out of the blue. my grandfather is still quite healthy now lahh, dunno wad on the earth gave him that idea. but that reminds me of the dream that i had sometime back where i saw my paternal grandfather and my maternal grandmothers sitting side by side at my wedding dinner. cool dream rite? heeez.

my mum was damn farnie oso lahh. there was this night where i was still wearing my contact lens in my house. den i was talking to her. suddenly, she asked me whether i was wearing my lens. i asked her why and she told me cos i kept blinking and winking at her. haha.

was the emcee for some event yesterday at moe for my juniors. then the principal from Northlight School came to talk to us. she is my role model man... she is super influential, inspirational and she spoke with lots of conviction. i can really see that she is in the ministry not because she wants to climb the minsitry ladder but she is really into education and she really wants to change lives. i hope i can be like her. =)

tmr is the big day man! the last book of harry potter has finally arrived and i am watching the ne show ie ndp rehearsal tomorrow!!

vents

2007-07-17T23:21:00.001+08:00

this entry is going to be a revenue for me to vent my frustrations in me.

1
singaporean drivers are not only bad drivers. they are blardy hell inconsiderate ones. the carpark at my HDB blocks are relatively small. there are only 2 lanes for the cars to move. and each lane are only big enough for 1 car to pass through. yet, there are always cars stopped along the carpark on the lanes, restricting flow of the traffic. it is super inconvenient lahh, and my neighbour was damn sad. his car plate was being scratched and the whole plate fell to the ground. his car was parked properly in the slot somemore lo. so wad if these people spend thousands of money to buy cars? big f**k ar? there are other pple who spend their thousands of money on their cars and they have the same rights to use the carpark and the roads lo.

2
this is not the 1st time already and i know this is not the last time. i really dun like the feeling of being sandwiched in between. something is seriously wrong somewhere. i feel like i am the cushion. if only this sandwich thingy can make me thinner den i ll be more happy. hahahah... reallie do not feel good at all.

harry potter

2007-07-13T20:21:00.001+08:00

back to blogging! haven been blogging for awhile. cos i am reallie slacking and rotting and still enjoying it. heez.

yesterday, went to watch harry potter and the order of the pheonix for free. cos safra bought the cinema for 1 timeslot and duane and gy went to queue up for the tix some time back. and so i have the luxury to watch it for free. ahhaha. thanks dudes!

the show is alright lah. quite a no of pple say it is abit of a letdown blah blah. but i beg to differ. cos 1stly, the book is really thick and the content is more of to explain and link the front few books to the last few (cant wait for the last book). and 2ndly, alot of pple have placed a huge amount of expectation on this blockbuster and so when expectations not met, they will feel disappointed.

but i have to say that of the 3 children, i think emma watson acted the best. not cos she is cute but ya.. hahaha. i feel that harry potter can portray more anger in the show cos in the book he was fuming most of the time.

after the show, we went back to duane's car. he rented the car for this week and the best thing is the car could not be started at all. think there isnt enough battery water. diaoz. in the end we waited for quite awhile for the repair company to help to jump start the car. haha.. duane arhh reallie quite suay lehh.

and for today, my beloved brother is in tekong right now!! ahhaa. and i drove my family to pasir ris and i went in to look around too... everything looks the same to me. the only difference is the people bahh... when i was watching the videos, i had goosebumps all over me lahh. ahaha. well, i ord lo!! heez. but i dare say that i had a memorable time in the notorious Foxtrot company where our OC treated us like shit and gave us alot more physical and mental training. his aim was to turn us into psychos. hahaha.

fulfilling week

2007-07-07T23:27:00.000+08:00

alot of things had happened for the past week and i dunno to start blogging from where.

anw, today went to sentosa wif the other imperial singsoc pple to try out the games for sojourn. it was quite a relaxing and fun day i muz say even though the rain in the morning put me off a little. and when i was talking to the others, we reached one concensus that we are slacking now and not working. hence our bank accounts are always on the drop. and that irritates me!! think i must find a job in august to curb that... hahaah.

anw, juz now we were trying games. doing those usual stupid orientation games and we got alot of looks from other people. but who cares lahh huh, we were all enjoying ourselves. ahhaha.

then last week went swimming for more than 3 occasions. maybe that accounts for my tan. ahhah... then duane rented a car so he drove me and gy to diff places. tried driving the car alittle cos it is a manual car! never drive a manual car for ages le... ahhhaa. proud to say that i din stall the engine at all. heeez.

but we were unlucky on friday cos we were having lunch at thomson den duane parked illegally at some place. then power ranger/uncle sam/fatimah (wadeva u call them lahh huh) came and gave the summon. haizzz.

met up wif my class last night too. it was one of the best turnouts lo. hahahha good to see everyone doing well.. and catching up on old times.

then met up wif my dear ct councillors on tuesday too. had dinner and talked a lot of cock. think we juz crapped and laughed alot that night. hahaha. the jap food at uma uma was not bad i have to say.

my BB frenz all look the same. even though josh has gained alot of weight again!! haha..

that summed up my week actually. =)

lousy mood

2007-07-07T00:39:00.000+08:00

some things just dun change.

wanted to blog but got no mood liaoz.

shall blog more when i am in the mood.

msn

2007-07-03T00:58:00.000+08:00

oh man!!! i still cannot believe it!

ermm... i juz got to know a girl on internet and we talked quite abit juz now. and before you guys think that i am those ugly horny testerone-filled guys looking for prey online den u are wrong. hahah... i am very innocent one hor.. =p

the thing is msn screwed up. dunno why i have this gal's contacts and she has mine. den we both added each other and juz now was the 1st time both of us online. we started talking and then it went on and i am amazed that we talked majiam like we are close frenz for some time le...

haha anw nice talking to her lahh.. but still cant believe such thing can happen. =)

super duper lucky

2007-07-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

yeah. got my 21st birthday from my dad lo.. heez. got my finally coveted flip phone. bought the LG chocolate series, hope i ll be able to use it for 2 plus yrs. =p

i am super duper lucky today lahh... i was shopping at compass point with my dad and we were already heading for the carpark. i was talking to my dad and din notice the floor. suddenly i felt like i was stepping on soft ground and i heard a 'piak' sound. i said shit before looking down. it was brown in colour and at that time i was hoping that i stepped on chocolate lahh......

but as i went to the toilet and began to clean my slipper, the smell was super horrendous. luckily it was easy to rub away the shit and the smell din linger. i have to say that leaving shit in the middle of the road in the shopping centre is like... leaving sainsbury trolley outside of south kensington station waiting for people to clear... HAHAHHAHAHA... heeez.

anw my mum juz told me about this yesterday.

women are just like different kinds of balls at different age groups.

20yr olds are like soccer balls cos got 20 men chasing after 1 ball.
30yr olds are like basketballs cos got fewer no of men chasing after the ball.
40yr olds are like pingpong balls cos only 2 men are in play and they are shooting away the ball.
50yr olds are like golf balls cos guys will shoot them as far as possible. but after that the guys will still pick the balls up.

family gathering

2007-07-01T12:12:00.000+08:00

went to maxwell food centre wif kha and xian on friday. cos there got alot of food. had all the local delicacies there, ie hokkien mee, char kway teow, fried oyster, chicken rice and kway chap. =) it was a nice and super filling lunch. haha and now only me and ks are slacking =p the rest have attachments or working.. haha.

going to start tuition again tmr. juz teaching 1 or 2 people to make my bank account not always be decreasing. hahaha...

anw, after that lunch, went out wif gy to vivocity. walao ehh, think of the moe imperial pple, i am the last to go there lahh.. ahhaha. we wanted to shop cos muz shop before 1st july so that we will not pay more for the GST. vivocity is quite a big shopping centre but the shops are quite high end. and there are quite a no of shops from london like river island, ted baker etc. etc. but all are damn expensive. sianzz.. even lonsdale is expensive here lahh.. met tingjun and xiufang there too.

last night had gathering wif my extended family. it was more like a belated grandfather's day. cos my grandfather wanted to wait till me and jevon come back before meeting up. the catered food was nice! got lots of seafood and i like the crayfish too. but the highlight of the day was my aunt bought the karaoke system and the whole family juz ktv all the way. lols. and to sing in front of so many people are so malu lahh. then my aunts and my mum cant stand the noise (haha not music) and they were hiding in the room all the time... hahaha. even my grandfather sang some hokkien song lahh. ahhaha. so cool...

oh wanted to say that driving wif a p plate license is more dangerous than driving w/o. my dad says most drivers will take care of you. but i beg to differ. my car has that stupid plate cos my younger bro juz passed his test 6 months ago. then when i drove my brother from school last week, i met 3 incidents where vehicles think that p-plate cars are slow and easy to bully, they make illegal u turns, drive out of car park SLOWLY. if i din brake, i would have crashed into them and it is their fault lo. wth... and wif today's newspaper article which mentioned that singapore drivers are among the worst in the world, how true can it get?

londoners are much better drivers lo. when police cars or ambulances have those sirens on and speeding on the roads, they will really let them go 1st before moving off.

talking about volunteering to help wif the pre departure course and the tspc for our juniors. i was shot by 1 big fat arrow lo. my scholarship officer called my home to ask me to be emcee for some relatively small function but i was reallie caught by surprise. and this is the 1st time i am gg to be an emcee lo. haizz. nvm it is going to be a new experience for me. anw i am gg to be a teacher le, next time may have to lecture in front of hundreds of students, so take this as a learning experience lo. =p

campus superstar

2007-06-26T12:00:00.000+08:00

there was campus superstar last night and i was soooo disappointed with the results last night. I have to admit that the departure of the 13yr-old boy was due to lack of sms-es which i have to play a part in cos i din vote for him to ENSURE that he will be in the competition.

but what i want to say is about how this whole thing works. guohao the other guy who sang really horribly last night and only managed a 16.5 mark from the judges while the other guys got a 21.5/22 mark. and shawn has been in the limelight since the audition rounds for impressing everyone who went to hear the auditions. he also scored the highest of 24mark in the 1st round. so what went wrong?

guohao's supporters thought that with such a dismay result, they will have to vote ALOT alot to keep him in the competition while shawn's supporters will think that since he got soo many supporters and guohao will sure to be out so there is no need for them to vote and so this outcome. this is how the game works isnt it?

but shawn will be in after the revival round again, that i am quite sure since his supporters will have a wake-up call.

oh wanted to say abt last night when i watched the results show. the way desmond koh said before the results were released i guessed that shawn would have been eliminated and boy was i right. spot on!

was quite impressed at the gal joanna who sang the difficult song BU TONG from angela zhang.

1st week

2007-06-25T01:49:00.000+08:00

soaking in the singapore environment and i am feeling shiok now even if it is juz rotting at home. met up with some frenz over the weekend while the weekdays were mostly spent at home. haiz.. i think this holiday is reallie quite a bad timing. the gals all have internships and the guys have ict. sianzz..

but i am so excited on going to the malaysia trip with my army pals. muahahha...

oh and the car plates are until SGV now!! it is like how fast they changed the letters lahh. it shows that more people have bought cars recently juz within the span of 9 months. sorry arh, i am indeed sua ku here. haha.

met up wif sj and jan yesterday too. really enjoyed their company. =p but what struck me was during the conversation when i told them some stuff and then i realised that in my life i use my head to do my work, in my studies and analyse some important stuff. other than that, i have been using my heart to lead my life. that explains why i am so idealistic. and jan said something like your head can control your heart.

maybe thats why i am not so goal-striven. i dun care whether i climb to the highest rung of MOE in the future or whether i ll be rich. i define success in this area to be able to make positive changes in my students' life be it directly when i am a teacher or indirectly if my policies or decisions affect them in one way or another. money wise, i dun have to be filthy rich and i juz need to lead a comfortable life. i know the definition of this word 'comfortable' is very very broad but let me put it this way, i ll choose more children over money. not that i want my wife to be a making-babies-machine =)

and i juz realised that the above paragraph makes me sound like i am super super pro-government. hahaha.

BUT i have to admit that results in school are very important to me. i mean which singaporean student isnt rite? hahahaha...

and about other mudane stuff, i use my heart to think too much, change emotions like breathing every micro-second etc.

okok dunno why i had that thought too. how much of heart should i use and to what extent should i let my head do the work?

maybe i think too much again! cos this is maybe still the old darius whom haven changed or for the fact that i am able to think like this means that i am using more of my head. hahahahaa....

think i am starting to talk rubbish. it doesnt help that it is 2am now. =p

Oh! wanna thank God for pulling me out of the battalion man. cos some of my army frenz aka duane, zg, wl etc are in the battalion. and they are in the some uluated camp now for their ICT. and they were complaining that it is super xiong. wells, wad to expect from a battalion whom have won best battalion of the year. sianz. feel sad for them and relieved for myself. u all jiayou k! 1 cycle down le! =p

gg to bed le. agenda for tmr? teaching my bro physics in the hope that he will at least pass the paper. i ll be relieved if he gets C or D.

back in singapore

2007-06-20T22:10:00.000+08:00

me is back in singapore! haha..

i hate packing and moving stuff!! hopefully i get to stay the same place in year 3. and i packed my duvet 2 days earlier, so i slept in the cold for 2 nights.

anw, the last few days clarence and kelvin came over to stay with us cos they had nowhere to stay le and they are in france now... they all arr travelled sooo many places ziyang also. not that i am jealous cos i want to go back to singapore too.. aahah...

my luggage cannot be moved properly so that kinda sucked. in the end, i used sainsbury trolley to move to the tube station.. ahaha and i left it there much to many people dismay.. we were desperate le so we juz left the tube station asap.. hahaha.

in the plane, finished watching The Holiday and played alot of stupid games. i refused to sleep too much, scared i will get jet-lag which i am proud to say that i did not really suffer from it. let me talk abit about anti -jetlag. due to the cold 2 nights, i din sleep well and in the plane i only slept for like 5hrs, it made me quite tired when i got off the plane last night. but i still lasted till 1am and woke up at 10am today... oh, and what edwin said is true, in the plane i switched back the time to singapore time to tell my body to get used to singapore time. it helped for me i think, psychologically...

i have to admit that as i am going to the airport and in the plane, i felt lost and abit sad. not because i am leaving london. but because the life in london had been in equilibrium and now suddenly i am going back to singapore. my life will have to change accordingly for the 3 months. maybe it is because i was too tired. the WHOLE world knows that i am sooo eager to go home.

anw when i touched down and saw my family (extended family included), like what astee said, everything felt so surreal.. the HDB flats and the surroundings look sooo familiar and yet so foreign. but after awhile, i could not believe that i have been in london for 9 months. cos it juz seemed like i went to london for a short tour... reallie short tour. yet i gained 9months of maths, made new frenz and lived a life which i have never lived before in singapore. my aunt asked me whether i regretted going to london to study. this time around, i din even hesitate and i shook my head. =p

hougang for one has not changed at all. so does hougang mall.. everything is juz there, majiam like the neighbourhood is waiting for me to come back and so not changing anything.. hahah.. i am sounding soooo BHB here... ahhaha.

even slacking at home feels good. and i mean reallieeeee good.

3 months and 10days of slack, fun and more fun. wheee =)

oh man, my moe junior juz asked me 10 more questions. can see that my juniors are reallie unsure about alot of things and they juz shoot us with loads of questions.. hahha.. not that i am complaining here. juz that they are reallie reallie reallie on the ball.... heez

excited!

2007-06-18T16:28:00.000+08:00

my last entry in london for the academic year 06/07.

1st and foremost, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to my dad.. heez. thanks for always being there for me...

yesterday went to church. and that was the 1st time where i reallie went into the church with a grateful heart... thankful to God for these past 9 months.. the wonderful frenz, my schoolwork, those holidays, those meals that we had etc. reallie grateful to everyone around me for helping me and listening to my crap and nonsense sometimes... ahhaha... however, sometimes i am treating God like a vending machine. i turn to Him when i need my can of coke and when i got it, i thank Him.. wells, think now is the time for me to grow spiritually too..

hahaha... wanted to blog more but alot of images are gg through my mind now.... how Singapore was like, how my house was like, and the people blah blah... BUT the clearest thing in my mind right now is the SEAFOOD that is awaiting.. =) haha

oh and seriously, singapore's food thrash london's food hands down... even those western food!! really. maybe I am too used to the western food in Singapore. the only thing that i can think of that is yumilicious here is the duck... hahah..

kkiez.. off to singapore lo. that is after i hand in my project, go for some talk about year 2 stuff and bring remaining stuff to my future place... =)

london Out!

done wif project

2007-06-17T00:46:00.000+08:00

As I am waiting eagerly for monday to arrive and for me to reach singapore on tues evening, 6pm, I would have thought that these few days will juz crawl. but how wrong can i get.. hahah.. time still flies. not that i am complaining. =)

I hereby declare that my project is done. I am not making any more additions or changes unless i see spelling errors which will make me very dui. anyways, last friday was supposed to meet my supervisor for the last time. I was really dragging my feet to see him, afraid that he will ask me to add more materials. really no mood to do more le.. haha. anyways, upon reaching his door, saw this notice that he would be out of office that day. woohoo! haha.. so wad i did was to amend my project alittle to my liking and now i am done. hahha..

packed some stuff and brought them to olivia's place le... damn xiong.. ahahha. luckily got sainsbury trolleys to the rescue.. even though my small toe kicked against the wheel and i bled alittle.. hahaha...

in exactly 48hrs time, i will either be in the train or at the airport lo! hahahha...

super duper excited!

One Word

2007-06-14T07:42:00.001+08:00

You. Can. Only. Type. One. Word. No. Explanations.

1. Yourself: sian
2. Your girlfriend: non-existent
3. Your hair: messy
4. Your mother: supportive
5. Your father: caring
6. Your favourite item: bags
7. Your dream last night: blank
8. Your favourite drink: sweet
9. Your dream car: comfy
10. The room you are in: messy
11. Your ex: nullified
12. Your fear: alone
13. What you want to be in 10 years: happy
14. Who you hung out with last night: girls
15. What you’re not: girl
16. Muffins: raisins
17. One of your wish list items: teleportation
18. Time: midnight
19. The last thing you did: thinking
20. What you’re wearing: clothes
21. Your favourite weather: sunny
22. Your favourite book: romantic
23. The last thing you ate: rice
24. Your life: happie
25. Your mood: blank
26. Your best friend(s): dudes
27. What you’re thinking about right now: complex
28. Your car: long
29. What you’re doing at the moment: typing
30. Your summer: refreshing
31. Your relationship status: awesome
32. What’s on TV: antenna
33. The weather: rainy
34. The last time you laughed: today

back from swiss

2007-06-14T07:17:00.000+08:00

me is back from swiss!! i like spring-time switzerland. dun mind going there again.. like interlaken best. the sea is super clean and nice. had cheese fondue for the 1st time and din know that the fondue has alcohol in it... spent alot of time in trains though. hahah.

it was a super duper duper relaxing trip.. hahaha. got to know olivia and clarice much much better. oh and the swatch watches in swiss were only a teeeny weeeny bit cheaper than in singapore. sighz.

juz now went to watch lord of the rings musical. well, can only say that it would make an excellent theatre show but not a musical. the props and visual effect were good. the stage effect was brilliant... but the songs were a letdown.. yup.

so now, i got 2 things left to do, pack up my room and do my project... well my project is never-ending.. my supervisor always ask me to do more stuff.. luckily this friday will be the last time i will get to see him.. if not for the fact that my supervisor marks my project, i would have handed in my present-state-project..

anw, after this i am gg to pack my room and am not doing my project till tmr. hahah cos packing my room makes me feel happier and it tires me out... so tonight i can have sweeter dreams. =)

i have my whole of next week planned out le when i reached singapore... hahaha so excited!!

tuesday night: 6pm reach singapore then go seafood restautant eat crabs and prawns. =)
wed: morning- cut & dye hair, afternoon-do facial, night-help my bro for his mid-yrs
thurs: rest day cos my face will be too red and swollen to go out.. haha bet gy duane and rayner muz have rem the state of my face after facial.. hahaha. and helping my bro.. night time go ikea in tampines?
fri: nothing yet if not stay home all day to help my bro
sat: jan bdae! haha gg out wif jan and sj...
sun afternoon: meeting wif gy duane and rayner for our short getaway trip..
mon: shld be stuck at home. since maths papers are always on tuesdays, the day after general paper

yeah! cant wait to meet up wif frenz.. cant wait to soak in the sun... cant wait to eat!!!

shit 1235am le.. going to pack my room, make myself much happier then can do my project! hahaha...

bournemouth

2007-06-07T21:44:00.001+08:00

this is a groyne

The above pictures are from the beach in Bournemouth. Me and ks went to Bournemouth on Tues and came back last night. it was a relaxing trip on the beach and lying there to enjoy the scenery (all kinds of scenery) and enjoy the sun and the sand. ooh, the sand was soo fine that it wunt stick on your body if u brush it away.

the 1st day was disappointing cos the sun played pee-ka-boo with us. and pee-ka-boo is for kids! so we went to our hotel depressed. haha. the town has millions of round-a-bouts and the map doesnt show the small roads so we always took quite abit of time to find places. hahah... anyways, wanted to go a thai restaurant for dinner but the stupid map brought us (cos we gave up after that) to chef hong kong... the food was alright and the singapore fried rice was abit like sambal fried rice... i like! haha. anyways, there was only 1 waiter and 1 waitress and after awhile this waitress started to talk to the waiter about hainanese chicken rice and nasi lemak and singapore. so we guessed that the waitress is a singaporean and she created that convo to arouse our interests. ahhaha. and true enough, she is a singaporean. haha... she said singaporeans are extinct in bournemouth and she was surprised to see us there. she had been working there for 10yrs. hahaha... cool! we talked to her for awhile before we left the restaurant.

the 2nd day was so much better. the sun shone right onto our bodies but i hate the winds. and at the end of the day, i was abit red but not of cos not as bad as when i was at obs.... and i am darker abit now too... haha.

the pictures below are from the aquariam. we went to the aquarium on the 1st day after we gave up on the sun...

going off to switzerland tonight. will be back on tuesday... whoppee!!

oh.. wanted to blog about campus superstar! haha.. so happy that i get to watch on the same day as the performance. the 13 yr old boy shawn can reallie sing!!! hope that he doesnt break his voice during the competition... as for the girls, my grand x4 junior is quite cute and the rg gal can really dance and groove...

parental guidance

2007-06-04T08:21:00.000+08:00

14 days.

in exactly 14 days time, this hour i ll be in the plane. bet i ll be too excited to go home. bet i ll tear when i see my family. hahaha. frankly speaking, i am tired. yes, i have enjoyed my stay here for 9 months. maybe i have enjoyed too much, i dunno. i am really tired. hahaha.. going home soon.. =)

yesterday, or rather on saturday, me and ks went to manchester to see the THEATRE OF DREAMS. thats the old trafford stadium actually. haha.. went for the stadium tour and even went into the players' changing room. anyways, the stadium is very grand and very RED. after looking at the stadium, really envious of ben and gang who have gone to watch a live match there. hopefully we can get to see it the coming academic year. =)

oh, suddenly rem that we din know the stadium's exact location so i asked this passerby where the stadium was. he asked me back, "man u football stadium?" my 1st thought was," no, geylang united football stadium" hahahhahhaa.... okok manchester got more than 1 stadium i know. haha.

dunno y but i felt bad today. shant say much anyway. juz that ya there were things i could have done but i din do. there are some things that i really cherish too much that i dunno how to react in some situations. hahaha.... dun dwell into this paragraph. it is nothing serious anyways, but i still dun feel good. haha. juz ignore this cryptic paragraph. =p

anyways, i have finished watching WHICH STAR ARE YOU FROM? for a start, the reason as to why i watched this show, the show has my fav korean star. i dunno her exact name, but she acted in MY LOVELY SAMSOON too as the supporting actress. she is hot! ahha.

back to the show. i think the storyline was really good. ok fine, in the middle, it was a typical korean drama. it was a tad draggy and the problem could have been solved relatively easier than what actually happened in the show. but at least, it produced more episodes for me to see my sweetheart rite? hahaha... the show is about how this guy liked this girl. but their relationship was not approved by her mum. (to mummy, pls trust my taste when i have a girlfriend k? hahhahahahahha actually, i think my mum wunt care as long as she is not havoc or wild, i think! muahhaha..) they struggled and they met in a car accident. the girl died. the guy felt sorry and angry for killing her in the accident. cos he was the one driving. then years later, he was in this village and he saw this girl who looked alot like the dead girl. he got to know her better, and he started to like her. he liked her for who she was and not because she looked like the deceased girl. but fate has it that this girl was actually the deceased younger sister. during a fire accident many years ago, this girl was separated and lived in the village. and hence, when the village girl went back to the family, their relationship was not approved. the show ended when the mum FINALLY allowed them to be together.

well, that is the paradox isnt it? u like this girl for who she is but the whole world will like to think that u like this girl only because u liked her sister before and u want to get the feeling back. in the show, the whole world was against them. everyone in the show except for 1 good friend asked them to give up their love. haizzz. hahaha... okok anyways, nice show.

okok. talk about something livelier. ahha. was facebooking juz now and i saw this youtube link. and it actually linked me to this channel 5 sitcom PARENTAL GUIDANCE. it is quite a nice show i muz admit and the kids in the show are soo cute. but wad i want to say here is about episode 6. it talks about schools and education in singapore. about how parents have to do volunteer service or anything juz to get their precious kids into the top schools. it also mentioned that MOST ELITE SCHOOLS IN SINGAPORE ARE SINGLE SEX SCHOOLS. hahha. well, thats true isnt it? when i was in primary 5 and 6, i remembered seeing the ST guide to the top schools where they ranked the schools from 1 to 50. ahaha.. and out of the top ten, there were more single sex schools den co-ed ones. haha.. personally, from a single sex secondary school, i think i will like to send my kids to a co-ed primary school and then a single sex secondary school. ahhaha. well, other than the fact that horniness is part of growing up and getting attached seem to be the welcomed trend but being in single sex school was really a memorable experience. ahha.

lalla...think i talk too much. back to that episode. listen their conversations carefully, they make fun of the system in singapore. like for example, there is ELITE GIRLS SCHOOL. and apparently the school has won all different kinds of awards, so much so that rumours has it that they wanna take part in competitions that they have never taken part before i.e singapore knitting olympics!!! hahaha.. and if u were to watch the show, where the female lead presented this scarf that her niece knitted in the hope of using that talent to admit her into the school. NOTE THE COLOUR OF THE SCARF!! and you will know which ELITE GIRLS SCHOOL the show is referring to..hahaha damn farnie. and i am watching on youtube now. heez. have fun watching this. =)

dads

2007-06-01T08:24:00.000+08:00

today marks the 1st day of JUNE!! hahaha.. me is very happy! cos june is here... ehh not because father's day is in june.. hehehehhe.. but because i am gg back!!! hahhaha.... 18 more days! cant wait to see changi airport, cant wait to see my family, cant wait to eat seafood the moment i touch down!! =)

havent been up to much lately. i met my supervisor on tuesday about my project and he flipped through my handwritten project. he said, 'nice progress' and din further read my project. instead, he asked me to type it out before he will really look into it and give comments later on. he told me to type by friday. then he asked me to use latex programme to type. reasons? cos i have nothing to do now, might as well learn this programme which is good for writing maths thesis papers and reports. haizzz. luckily the programme is quite easy to muster, spent 2 days to finish up my project. hope my supervisor's jaws will drop to the floor. ahhaha.

anw, this whole week was super cold. it got better today. the winds and the rain was juz too cold for me to be outside. thats london weather for u. as unpredictable as... hahaa.. dunno how to complete this simile.

oh juz now i saw this little kid. he was running. Then he slid and fell down on the floor. he looked up and gave his father 2 thumbs' up. and the father actually said a joke to him in response to his fall. i think he said it to prevent the little kid from crying. i laughed at the father's joke but i cant exactly rem wad the joke was about. but then again, if i were the kid, i would have cringed and kept my fingers crossed and hope that my dad doesnt scold me or give me the dagger stare... hor dad? hahahaha... well, thats the difference between the asian dads and the western dads i think. and i was wondering how would i turn out to be if i have a dad like the small boy's. how different will i be as a person compared to now? well, I AM NOT COMPLAINING ABOUT MY DAD arr!! hahaha.. in fact, i think i am quite happy with who i am right now and i am happy with my present family. but that was juz a thought after that incident happened... hahaha.

oh and i like to thank duane for giving me a new perspective today. in fact, i felt numb about it until we talked about it today.. hahaha. thanks!! =)

okok back to the show "which star are you from" .

project

2007-05-28T09:22:00.000+08:00

i am currently in the library now. haha. u may be wondering wad on earth am i in the library for since my exams were long over. i have a project to do and i am supposed to see my supervisor on tues. however, other than borrowing a few books, i was dilly dallying and could not understand anything i was reading. plus procrastination has crept into me.

so before i meet my supervisor empty-handed, i spent 6 hours in the library doing my project. and now i am done with my project!! haha as in my 1st draft lo. juz hope that my supervisor gives me the thumbs up, then all i have to do is to type out my projects plus fiddling maple again to plot some graphs and then i am done! =)

but now, i cant go back to my hall. cos it is raining so heavily do decided to stay in library and do some blogging. ahahha.

dota

2007-05-27T11:30:00.000+08:00

time check now 430am.

spent the last 2 hours looking at 2 blogs. gy's blog and my blog and all the archives... haha. it juz felt soo good looking at the past entries. was grinning from ear to ear looking at them. this is what blogs are for isnt it?

want to say something which i wanted to say for a very long time le but looking at some of gy's entries remind me of that. and that is DOTA. well it is a game where u play with other people ie ur FRIENDS or pple U KNOW... but dota also reflects the ugly side of people isnt it? when people kao bei others when they cant perform or simply cannot understand why others cannot do otherwise seemingly easy tasks. for goodness sake, it is just a game. i am not flaming anyone here dun get me wrong. i juz felt sian-ed by the fact that people can get sour over a game of dota. whats wrong with losing and even if u dun think u deserve to lose. it is only a game! different people have different strengths and weaknesses. in fact i think i suck at alot of things. i have no musical talent, sometimes blaming my parents for not sending me to piano lessons when i was young.. *hahhaaha*, i am not artistic. i dun consider myself as popular or good-looking blah blah.. before i go into self-pity, what i am trying to say is that so what if some people are not as good in dota or in other things as well? y muz comments be stinging? and this is to everyone, when was your last compliment that you have given to anyone out there?

anyways, what impressed me was when hj said, ' i want to be in the same team as him again. i want him to eat his words and thank me in the game' his never-say-die attitude made me smile.

juz had this thought this morning. i felt like one of the heroes in DOTA. for the past yr has been out fighting with creeps and conquering towers and other enemy heroes. and now i feel that i am low on life and mana and cant wait to go back to the fountain of wealth (ie back home) to regenerate again before end of september. hahha... BUT still cant think of any hero which is soo darius.. HAHAHHAH..

okok gg to sleep le. seriously dunno whether i can wake up for church later. me shall try!!

Aidan

2007-05-26T00:03:00.000+08:00

I have juz received the news 10min ago from my bro. shocked. stunned.

this post is dedicated to Aidan.

I got to know him when i was in sec 1. he was 2 yrs older than me, in sec 3. he was my Boys' Brigade senior. i wasnt exactly that close to him in the 1st place. he wasnt in my section, and he was the activities head, planning all the games and activities for us during parades. I was quite envious of the whole batch cos they were a really close batch. even until now, they are sooo inseperable. Aidan seemed to me as a fierce person and thats why i was not close to him. but the true fact was that he is a nice guy too.. haha. then he left for poly and he came back to help us too... we were soo close as a whole, one big family. reallie enjoyed my time in the Boys' Brigade.

Aidan knew what he wanted in life. after poly, he chose to go into commando and of course he got it. seeing my seniors together as a whole really warmed my heart... haha.. well for my batch we are one of the closest too but of course not as close as them.

the last time i saw him was when he came to london to tour wif shen zhi and dingyi. they were gg to france and i was gg to spain and we saw one another in the airport. we din talk much cos we din have alot to talk about in the 1st place. but little did i know that the goodbye that i said was actually the last goodbye that i said to him.

he has gone to another place this morning, singapore time. met into a bike accident. din ask my bro much but it really struck me. life is short but i know that He is always there for us... we have to live life the fullest, live life His way... and most importantly live with no regrets, live with no 'what-ifs'.

to aidan, i know that you are tasting the sweetness of heaven now and you must have seen God's face now.

stupid contact lens

2007-05-23T07:14:00.000+08:00

I am sooo sad now. cos my left contact lens is torn. dunno how it is torn lahh. sianz.... haizzz. damn suay lahh. think will not buy a new pair le.. maybe till after i graduate den wear again.. but then again that means i cant wear sunglasses le. and i bought 1 pair when i was in poland. sian.

anw, juz found out that star search is coming back again and this weekend is the auditions round. well, for those who dunno, it had been my childhood dream to take part in the competition and i have watched every single one of them from ivy lee's yr all the way to felicia chin's one. and as i grew older the more i told myself i was talented enough to join the competition *ok maybe not the singing segment* hahaha... especially the year when felicia won. i mean i saw her before in vj as she was 1 yr my senior then she managed to win the competition. it juz felt surreal and i told myself that hey i could be like her too. hahaha.... but then again now that i am MOE 的人 already so i have to forgo this dream of mine le.

BUT one of my close frenz is joining the competition. well i have to say that he has the exact same dream as me. i am not gg to name him here but u noe who u are. hahaha. so i told him that he is taking part for both of us not that i wanna stress him. haha and U can sing much better than me anyways.hahaha. so juz have fun and wadever results as long as u did ur best and enjoy the process then it is enough isnt it? hahaha... all the best to you then.. heez.

oh and xian juz came over to cook for us.. tankew! =p cook more often hor. ahhaa. the dinner was great man..

and i almost forgot.. haha. as most of u may know i am a super berms and slippers person. so much so that i always kena scolded by my dad when i wear slippers to orchard blah blah.. hahaha.. anw the point is i am wearing shorts in my room now. and today this girl juz told me that she likes my legs. ahhah damn stunned.. not that i am close to her or anything. this is not the 1st time this happened though.. the 1st time was when i 1st came to imperial den i was in the laundry room and this guy juz told me straight in the face that my knees look strong. wadever that means, ahahha...

slack

2007-05-21T06:03:00.000+08:00

hahahha... i am big time slacker now! wheee.. haha. well, the most difficult question that i have to answer now is when fellow imperialists ask, 'u shiok alrd lah? exams over liao' haha.. cos i dunno how to answer. all i could do was to nod my head and say ya, shiok.. heeez. to those who are still hanging there, keep on hanging k? it ll be over soon.. hahah.

realised something about my weight. i think my weight is super fluctuating all the time. i mean like my weight is always between 70-72kg, fine. but the thing is everytime i went to check my weight the difference of my present weight to the last time i weighed myself is always more than 1kg difference. is there anythng wrong with me? or am i juz being paraniod? haha. i dunno oso....

anyways, i am currently watching a japanese serial called 1 litre of tears. it is based on a true story about this teenage gal had some incurable disease and it is juz damn sad when i watched it. i teared like more than 3 times so far and i just finished watching episode 8. haizz. i recommend all others to watch this show mann. reallie touching. and i find the gal lead quite hot. heez. and i watch it on youtube. and the thing is think only gals comment on the videos cos all the comments were like the doctor is quite hot and no 1 mention about the gal. heez...

oh n juz now i thought i lost some stuff in my room and that propelled to pack up my room. ahaha.. luckily i managed to find them and now need to pack up the remains of my room but i am lazy. maybe do it tmr lahh. hahaha..

juz finished dinner.*burp* dinner was damn good. hahha tankew kengseng... ahhaha... okok back to watch show le..

end of exams!

2007-05-17T23:41:00.000+08:00

woohoo! 300th post in conjunction with the conclusion of my exams!!! hahah..

let me say 1st that these 2 weeks were superrr duper draining. i slept from 8pm-10am this morning. hahah spent only 2hrs plus doing last minute revision. well, it could not have been better. the more i study for the test today, the more time i ll be wasting cos some of the questions were juz weird.

anyways, as of now, i am sick of integrations! 1 more integration for me to do, and i will PUKE. oh! i have also grown my dislike for tanh, sinh ,cosh and all the likes... they are the pain in the ass. the most painful one was when i saw the word SECH in my mechanics test. took 5sec to think wad the hell was that..

so everything is over!!! haha.. now i feel shiok but empty.. even though i have quite a bit of things to do, i still have this dunno-wad-to-do feeling. hahahha..

things to do:

pack my room. my clothes are in a mess and it is good to pack up and get ready to go home too! =) my parents will surely shake their head if they see the condition of my drawers and cupboards. hehehe.
dota!! haha..so long never play liaoz.. time to start the engine.
retail therapy aka shopping!!! but then again not shop for my own stuff cos i got soo many things to buy for other people.. haizz.
get out of imperial, south kensington and london... stuck in my room and imperial and hyde park since mid of the easter hols
project. hahhaha. note that i put this the last one. hehehhehe.. oh and i got stats! hopefully my mentor doesnt ask me to do something of high order... heezz.

to those who are having exams now/soon, ermmm JIAYOU!! u all can do it de!! 要回家了! hang on man!! =)

happy mother's day

2007-05-13T10:33:00.000+08:00

this entry is dedicated to my mum. ermm... cos today is MOTHER'S DAY!! hahaha...

Happppiieeee mother's day!!

but den hor, since mum is working today, how can she be happy rite?? haizzzz... nvm. u wait. wait till the day u see ur son at CHANGI airport den u confirm guarantee PLUS CHOP happy.. uh that day is then happy mother's day lah ok? hehehhehe....

stay happy, ALL OF YOU!! especially the one studying SAT now and waiting to go into army one!! dun be sad k?? ur time has come.. muahhahaha

OH! thought of a riddle last night..

What do you think is the 1st thing that Darius will do when he reaches Singapore?

Ans: Get out of the plane! (even though technically speaking is get out of the seat in the plane) muahhahahahha.....

me is crazy.. 4 more days!! yippe!!

maths

2007-05-11T09:10:00.000+08:00

cool! i am so proud of singapore's maths... ahahahha...

mimi paper

2007-05-11T01:22:00.000+08:00

jonathan mestel

i love u man!! u have never failed to amaze me...

today's paper is mathematical methods. or M1M1 for short (but the whole wold calls it mimi). before the exam, still told ks and fy that i think he will chu stunt in the paper.

well, the whole paper was a stunner!! it was soooo different from past yr papers and soooo difficult. Within that 2 hrs, MILLIONS of brain cells have been killed or successully evaporated as a result. ok lahh, still produced a decent piece of work, IMO. it was sooo draining that i was doing the last part of this question within the last 5 min of the exams... and i still took my own sweet time to do.. could not be bothered already... hahah.

and when he took the paper from me, i felt like asking him,"can i have the permission to slap you?" hahahha...

seriously arrr, i reallie kow-tow to him for having the brain to set such bizzare paper... and like what ks said, once is enough. next time if he is lecturing in any optional modules, we are DEFINITELY not gg to choose his modules... heez.

Analysis paper

2007-05-09T00:42:00.000+08:00

hahha... yeah! 1st paper is gone... Analysis!! Yucks.. gone! whopee...
the paper was alright even though the lecturer chu-ed some stunt here and there.

wanted to blog cos this paper was the 1st paper since 27th nov 2003 (i think) hahaha... and i was damn nervous before the paper!! dunno y oso... hahaha. felt the jittery and suddenly the feelings of going for an exam juz came back to me after 3 plus years. but the whole experience was shiok!! hahah...

that paper had 5 questions and it was 2 hr long. within the 1st hr, i had done 4 questions with a lot of blanks within.. hahaha. luckily, within the next hr, the answers juz came to me.. =)

1 down! 7 to go!

exams

2007-05-08T02:46:00.000+08:00

And now the battle begins

cant wait for next thurs! whoppee