Procrastination has gotten over me for the past few weeks. The desire to blog has dwindled tremendously. Part of me is due to sheer laziness and as for the other parts i shall not dwell over it.

As I have mentioned before, I was attached to Xinmin Sec for 3 weeks plus. These 3 weeks were amazing! I observed different classes spanning all 3 streams and 3 levels for all different subjects. The kids in school reminded me of my time as a secondary school boy. There were so many things that I brought home too.

Different class dynamics warrants a different pedagogy for the same teaching material. Management of class is more than a skill and also in order for the students to respect you and listen to you, you must respect them first and think of ways to attract their attention.

Xinmin is a school that attracts bright students so the school is in a different spectrum. The teachers are motivated to create a holistic education for the students and the school is always in its thinking cap trying to improve the quality of education for the students. I am personally impressed by how the school is run.

In the past, when people were to ask me for the reason as to why i chose teaching as a career, my reply would be, since I love maths so much, i want to spread the joy of learning maths to my students. but after the attachment, I realised how important teachers are in shaping the lives of the students especially in secondary school and I really want to be an inspiration and a role model ( i hope) for my students in the future.

Oh, i have received my results for my 2nd year. As promised, this is my results.

Differential Equations 70
Multivariable Calculus 61
Orthogonality 79
Fluids and Dynamics 62
Real Analysis 76
Algebra 2 79
Complex Analysis 78
Probability & Stats 71

Well, FYI 70 and above is an A and 60plus is a B.

want to thank God for the results. but i really must learn to be contended. for 2 years running, God gave me results that are good but are not up to my expectations. I am still learning to be contended. Let me explain 1st why this results is not up to my expectations even though I still get a 1st class (borderline).

I am not sore about the 2 Bs actually. hahaa. it was kinda expected. The fluids paper was the only morning paper and my mind was not ready for the paper. and i sorta screwed up the other one and i knew i would not get an A for that.

but i thought that for the top few papers i could get in the 80s range. high 80s even. but it all din happen. dun get me wrong. i am not whining to God or complaining that He is not doing His job. in fact, I dun think I am doing well enough to be His disciple. ahha.. that is beside the point.

all along, i told myself i MUST get a first class degree. However, after 2 long years then i realised that even if i dun get my 1st so what? i am not being a sour grape here dun get me wrong. but God is telling me that in His eyes the class degree does not matter at all. It is through His grace that I am getting this results anyway. No man is able to do anything on his own.

so that brings me to my next point. I am taking a teaching module next year. The assessment is very subjective as I will be graded by a written report on my experience in teaching in a secondary school in London. In fact, out of the 18people chosen, I am the only one who did not go through the education system in UK. (before uni, that is) However, that module is going to be an eye-opener for me. I was thinking that in a worst case scenario, taking that module and getting a 2nd upper is much better than not taking a module and getting a 1st. I think i will regret my decision if i choose the latter. hahaha..

dun worry, i am not devastated. I know He is always there for me and whatever He has planned for me, I must always have a grateful heart. in fact, keng seng and I have said that we are going to work hard next year! :)

so attachment is finally over and I am resting now. not exactly resting since i am giving tuition to some j2 kids (plus my brother) who are taking their As this year. and my kakis are all in hongkong now having fun. haizz. Luckily they did not go to Korea as they said they want to go with me next yr.. :)

oh and i am boycotting the taiwanese singing contest and i am not watching it le at least for this season. :) and i hope that huang jinglun can go and train up 1st before producing his 1st album. I will definitely support him de. :P

derrick's album is out lo! hopefully his songs are nice lo. I liked his rendition of Tian Kong during Project Superstar and i rooted for him and kelly during the 1st season. hahaha...

heavenknows

4:45 PM

me is back in singapore! hahah.. acty back for some time liao.

i am now on attachment where i can observe how the school functions and how the teachers teach and manage the class. have to say that i am learning quite abit during this period of time. it is quite draining some days. there were days where i was super tired due to lack of sleep and i thought i would be a gone case in school. however when i was in school i would become energised for the whole day before collapsing at home.

the students all remind me of my secondary schooldays and i want to travel back time to be a secondary school boy again! ahhaha...

will thoroughly enjoy my holidays after this attachment is over. =)

heavenknows

10:45 AM