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Thursday, December 30, 2004:BiRtHdAe WiShEs

so happie dat e yr is finally over. 1 yr of ns is over. yeah! it is e tym of e yr again-- mi bdae is cumin. 2 more days! well act wanted to blog tmr but i ll nt b home fer e whole day so ya here i m now. *lookin forward to tmr lor. gg out to ktv wif duane, guangyi n rayner in e mornin den e ct councillors @ nite. yes!*

well, i ve a lot of things to pray fer fer e yr of 2005. hmm.. hope dat there ll b more peace in mi family. dat we ll nt blast each other fer e sake of blastin. more communication is needed lor. esp mi dad n darren la. dey juz duwan to tok to each other cos dey noe dey ll quarrel in e end. sighz n den need mi as e middleman. hate being e middleman. y m i e 1stborn? cant dey tok to each other properly? sighz. mi dad expects a lot fr mi to help mi bros esp. in their sch work. hope dat dey do well too, n spare mi e trouble too. hahhaaha. well, mi dad juz found a new job n i wish all e best fer him la.

spritually, i tink mi walk wif God dis yr is horrible. i took a lot of things fer granted. mi resolution fer e yr wld be to read e bible more often n tok to God n worship on a deeper tone. n i ll b able to start bringin pple to church. feel dat i m quite lousy lehz nt even able to bring pple to church ( esp mi parents) let alone convert em. well, guess i ve a lot of things to learn next yr.

noe a lot more pple dis yr. fr BMT frens to signal cse pple n den drivin cse pple. glad to noe u all lor but quite sad cos i din keep much contact wif a lot of u all. sighz. hope dat i wunt lose contact wif hueva i ve keepin contact wif n ll b in contact wif more pple. hahahha. ya. oh ya, act feel quite ashamed of myself cos a lot of pple rem mi bdae n yet i cant rem urs. paiseh la. hu ask mi mum to give birth to mi on such a nice date. hahahhaa. but seriously, quite troubled la cos of dis. u all muz tell mi ur bdae k or least hint to mi whn ur bdae is lyk cumin soon. hahhaha.

okie. noe cum to e wants! hmmm... i want a lot of things leh.

pass mi drivin by dis yr asap
learn hip hop dancin
mi acne ll be gone. aniwae i trust mi 224 antibiotic pills la!
start to play com games. tink i quite fan ying chi dun cuz i seldom play such games. hahahah i onli lyk play need fer speed la! sighz
get into imperial
mi dad ll bug mi less n nt interefere wif mi social life. :)
excitin n memorable trips to overseas trainin wif mi army frens but e lesser e no. of trips e better la.
be a gd son, gd disciple to God, gd fren, gd confidante n gd bf (if it ever happens dis yr, dat is) ahahhaa

hmmm.... dats all fer now. aniwae i ve until 1st jan 2359 to wish fer more stuff.... hahaaah.

heavenknows

1:51 PM

Wednesday, December 29, 2004:Tian Xia Wu Bu San Zi Yan Xi

todae went out fer lunch. can be considered as a csp outin la but e turnout was quite bad. maybe bcuz dis outin was quite last minute. sighz. we went to fish n co. at dhoby ghaut. wei loong initially did nt cum but was tricked by duane to cum. hahahha. wei loong is realli veri naive la. when ll oc wan to ve a meetin over lunch n in town summore? hahhaha. n to tink he was so scared when extras were mentioned to him fer nt cumin. hahhaah. if it were mi, it wld ve pissed e pants out of mi too. hahahhaa. extras! yucks!

aniwae, e purpose of e lunch was a farewell 1 fer lionel as he is leavin fer SI. well, i appreciated him as mi pc lor. he is quite nice to his men nt lyk sum other sgts hu tink dey r damn big n dun care abt e welfare of their men. he oso noe his stuff veri well n when i ve any doubt i ll definitely asked him. nt lyk sum other sgt again, hu dunno anythin n i mean anythin n tried to give lousy ans. i m realli angry @ dis lousy sgt la. y isnt he leavin? haiz. aniwae ll miss sgt lionel la n to tink e 8 of us hated him when we 1st came to e unit. hahhahaha. he scolded us on e 1st dae when we posted in cuz he wasnt in gd mood. den he scolded us again fer nt marchin back to camp aft lunch cuz he wanted to play wif us- e new men dere.hahahahha. but he showed his worth n we respect him a lot lor. hahahha.

over lunch, i saw e choc-dipped brownie wif vanilla ice-cream n cherry @ e top. i was commentin over lyk how nice it was. i m a sucker fer desserts, ice-cream, choc etc etc. yummy! i was lyk tellin duane to treat mi n he agreed la. @ 1st i tot he was fu yan 1 den i saw 3 plates of it. n duane said 1 was fer mi. @ 1st i was so touched cos i tot he realli treated mi but i realised they were on e hse cos mi, michael n sgt noel bdae r on dis week. chey! if duane treats mi ar, i tink pigs ll fly. hahaha. btw, it is realli damn nice but we shared it wif rest of e pple oso la.

went to ps to klkk. wei loong wanted to buy hooks to hang his calender. n i went to spotlight to buy threads to make frenship bands fer mi parents. i veri filial hor? ahhha. no la, cos mi mum was lyk sulkin (acting 1 la) when i made sth fer sum1. hahhah. n since i ve nt done anythin fer em, might as well rite? hahaha.

i tink i m crazy dis few days too. duane says so n i cant believe sum of e comments dat i blurted out oso la. hahahha. lyk todae wei loong asked whr to buy lava lamps n i immediately blurted out lava lamp shops. hahhahaha. i cld nt believe i said dat la. realli tink i crazy le. but e crappiest of all went to wei loong la. he wanted go to gym den he told e gym theory. @ e same time we saw 2 30 plus yr-old women tokin.

wei loong: dey ve e figure n dere r e pple hu wunt go gym.
mi: den hu?
wei loong: den when 10 yrs later, dey found out dat their body parts obey e gravity n start to sag. den dey decide to go to gym. n dat turns mi off la. no chio gals in gym onli aunties...

rubbish rite? hahhahahhaha.

heavenknows

9:54 PM

Sunday, December 26, 2004:fReE gIfT fR GoD!

went to church todae aft missin it fer 2 wks. n i din pon la. 1st wk cuz got duty den last wk cuz went to visit mi granma's grave. hahaha. had a crappy party cuz we were juz eatin n nt mingling ard wif pple we dun noe. hahhaa. oh ya, tks stepfanie fer ur switzerland choc! it is realli nice. :)

aniwae, tdy sermon is realli interestin n i learnt sth new! well i m supposed to learn sth new aft every sermon but... hahaha. okie la. aniwae, do u noe y is there a boxin dae? n it is on 26th dec? i used to tink dat e dae is fer some big boxin tournament or sth. hahaa. but act it is becuz long long time ago, in england i tink, e servants ve to stay back on xmas to help to serve their employers cos dat dae their hse ll b full of pple. so e dae aft which is e 26th, e servants r allowed to back home to celebrate wif their families n their employers r supposed to give loads of boxes or parcels to em. in churches, it is oso 26th where they opened e boxes/parcels. ( nt veri sure but sth lidat la, hahha) n hence, boxin dae! hahah. cool rite? sorrie la i noe i veri sua gu. hahhaa

but tdy real msg was abt xmas. do u oso noe y it is xmas whr there is e spirit of sharin? y is it dat e whole world r buyin gifts fer emselves n their frens? it is bcuz God gave us a wonderful gift 2004 yrs ago. For He so loved e world dat He gave His One n only Son dat is e wonderful gift-- Jesus Christ! The wages of sin is death n Jesus is dere to cleanse us n made us holy b4 God. Thanks be to God for His indescribable gift! yupyup n i m juz so grateful too. but too bad alot of pple ve nt appreciated this free gift from God yet. sighz. can onli hope dat i m a gd testimony in e eyes of e Lord. hahhaah. ya so dats how business uses dis idea of gifts n sharin n we get a commercialised xmas! sighz! but it is nt all bad la. @ least non-christians can apprecaite e spirit of xmas too.

tdy oso marks e end of lifegrp 7. sighz. we r gg bigger! to a cell grp yeah! but i hope e attendance ll get better. sighz. e army guys r all gone except fer mi lin ken n edwin... e slacker bunch. hahaha. den e gals oso dunno y dey so busy... haiz hopefully, by God's grace dey ll start cumin back.

k la need to study mi advanced theory soon. hahaha slept mi afternoon away wasnt feelin well ( sorry yvonne, guobin n erm.... edwin izzit?) hahaha haiz. den now muggin la.sighz muz nt fail, if nt wee poh n yvonne ll confirm suan mi 1. hahahaa. dat ll nt happen. hahahha.

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You gave it all for me
My soul desire, my everything
And all I am is devoted to You

How could I fail to see
You are the love that rescued me
And all I am is devoted to You

And oh, how could I not be moved
Lord here with You
So have Your way in me
Cause Lord, there is just one thing
That I will seek

This is my cry
My one desire
Is to be where You are, Lord
Now and forever
Its more than a song
My one desire
Is to be with You
Is to be with You, Jesus

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heavenknows

9:25 PM

Saturday, December 25, 2004:WhItE cHrIsTmAs EvE n A wHiTeR ChRiStMaS

hohoho... merry xmas to all of u hu r reading mi blog now even tho it is lyk gg to end soon. hahhaha. it is e tot dat counts rite? :o)

i met up wif e ct council pple fer dinner last nite. was supposed to meet at 6 at bugis mrt station n i was lyk 10 min earlier followed by weilin hu rushed down fr fullerton aft her cosin weddin lunch. June wasnt dat late either n i so long haven seen her le. she still looks e same n she has been workin fer e past yr n is preparin to lve fer aust to study next jan. awwww... aust! aniwae, we ll meet up again b4 u lve rite? heh. ya, next came joleen hu was quite late le but since she got a sprained/bruised ankle den okie la forgive her. yvonne was late bcuz of cornelieus la! n she even argued dat she was in bugis @ 6 lor but e thing is she wasnt wif us @ 6 la! hahaha. but e best latecomer award ( nt newcomer hor) went to clarence la hu woke up @ 545 den rushed down to meet us. he juz came back fr brunei sloggin out in e jungle n wasnt feelin realli gd. haiz! k la k, forgive u oso! hahhahha.

we went to tcc but e suckiest thing is dat dey onli serve expensive few dishes. so we bu zhi xiu chi went out of e shop (hahaha, nt our fault lor) n went to sketches instead. e food dere is damn cheap n gd! i ll recommend it to every1 la... den all bcuz of clare again, yvonne, weilin, he n i went down to orchard to see e xmas light-up cuz dat country bumpkin hasnt been in singapore fer 3 wks. hahah. it is mi 1st time in town on a xmas eve n it is quite an eye-opener. e roads r all very squeezy wif so many pple. n dey all ve e foam sprays in their hands. dey juz walked n sprayed @ pple ard dem. n yes, ashraf sprayed mi rite @ mi neck when he walked past mi. sighz! stupid ashraf! aniwae, town is reali crowded n i cld feel e atmosphere.

but i was quite upset cos it juz dawned onto mi dat e non-christians dun realli understand e true meanin of xmas. n it is nt their fault. commercialism is disgustin. say merry xmas to any kid in e street n ask dem hu ll dey link xmas to n dey ll b bound to say "santa" which is sad cos e ans shld b "Jesus Christ". sighz! wad is this world cumin to?

aniwae, we managed to squeeze, literally, n went to e bus stop n went to yvonne hse. supposed to play mj 1 but we saw clare slpin so soundly, mi weilin n yvonne juz toked. dey were tokin abt uni stuff. i can understand wad dey r tokin abt but i can onli listen cos i m nt in e uni yet. xian! aniwae, we waited fer zhenhao hu came @ 2 plus n we started playin la while yvonne was on her com most of e time. we played crappily n sleepily till 7 plus. haha. e mj was crap la. zhenhao can even win peng hu while half-slpin la. sighz! went breakfast aft dat. i din eat anythin cos i was too tired to even eat anythin. hahaha n e worst thing is i can babble a lot of crap when i was tired! hahhaah. poor yvonne n weilin! ha!

went home aft dat. took e same bus as weilin but was too tired to tok to her n i slpet throughout e journey while she was readin her 8days. hahhaha sorrie weilin i noe i ma pig n i lyk to slp ma!
hahahaha.

at nite, went to liqi hse fer gatherin of vsbb pple. played mj again, bridge n big 2. nt bad la, we were tokin rubbish too. oh ya, stupid jun ming n liqi, poured 1 whole glass of absolute vodka which contains 40% alcohol n even made mi drink in 1 gulp. well, i din nt drink in 1 gulp la but in a few big gulps lor. hahaha. i felt so hot aft dat n mi whole face was red la. it wad so red until jun ming started askin mi to drink soft drinks. hahahhaha. i wasnt drunk la hello! i nt dat lousy 1 u noe. face red onli ma! hahahha. oh ya, yvonne. guobin din take mi prez. hahah. jianhua took it! n i took liqi's shirt. nt bad la, hahah

aniwae, realli enjoyed mi time fer these 2 days, met up wif pple i realli want to meet, left mi church frens ( which i ll b meetin em tmr) n mi jc class pple. we muz meet up soon k? it is e fellowship n caring of each other dat warms mi heart! awwww.... hahaha.

den again, i haven studied fer mi advanced thoery! die ar! test on mon! n mi dad ll sure scold mi if i fail cuz he nvr see mi study. hahahha. well ve to start muggin tmr aft i cum back fr church. hahaha.

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mi heart always melts when i see u smile/laugh. n i feel lyk sharin mi joy wif u but i noe i cant. i noe dat i ve to restraint myself cuz u dun belong to mi n i m nvr urs. i tot i can easily remove dat feelin of lykin u fr mi heart but it is nt dat easy aft all. however, dun worry cuz i ll nvr allow myself to step btn 2 of u all in fact i wish u all da best! i dunno when dat feelin ll evaporate but i promise i ll try, realli. frenship is too dear fer mi to lose bcuz of this. sighz. tmr is yet another day n hopefully mi feelin ll change.

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heavenknows

11:35 PM

Tuesday, December 21, 2004:HeArT 2 hEaRt ToK

I remember when i was havin mi history lessons abt world war II mi teacher always asked us to ask our grandparents abt their 1st hand experience fr it. Mi reply wld always b borin, oh pls i ve better things to do! hahahha. I seldom tok to grandad n mi conversations ll always be 1-liners like his or byes. if not, he ll ask mi things abt mi life like whethr i ve gotten mi military license N more than often e qn require juz a yes or a no. hahha. i felt realli ashamed of it la but i still did nothin to change it.

But aft mi grandmum died a few yrs ago, i noticed a distinct change in him. he believed in God n he was baptised. Yeah! still, i didnt tok much to him too. hahahha but sumtimes it is nt mi fault k? we seldom met up oso. But aniwae, he came to mi hse todae. We went out fer lunch together n den saw mi cousin daniel. so, we went to his hse n 3 of us started tokin. I could nt believe it la, but still i was happi cos dis is e 1st time such things happen. n mi grandad is a bit anti-government n hearin him complain abt sum nitty-gritty stuff abt e government juz sounds funny to mi. our topics covered fr casino to chinese to PAP to world war II to life in australia ( dan juz got back fr brisbane ). Very gp rite? hahah but i m still veri happi n feel veri blessed to ve him as mi grandad!

Pray dat he ll b healthy n strong always n i wan him to attend mi weddin in e future lor. tsk tsk!

heavenknows

10:28 PM

:hQ2sIb SiGnAl PpLe U rOx!

-20th DEC 2004-

Went to duane's hse todae n had a gathering wif sum of mi close army frens. I feel realli blessed to noe a bunch of noisy n realli gd frens. Was part of e advance party n helped to prepare e food fer e steamboat dinner. * mi mum was quite sad dat i nvr i helped her b4 n den can prepare food fer mi frens* hahhaa. it was realli fun but den again was quite a chore. Mummy, xin ku ni le. everyday cookin food fer us! i finally noe ur pain! hahhaa.

Well, Rayner was realli cute todae cos he had irritated duane n was shunnin him e whole dae. but @ least he redeemed by helpin out a lot lor. hahhaha. cant stand lionel sumtimes cos he can get realli irritatin when he bitches. luckily he wasnt bitchin abt mi or to mi la! Poor Rayner again! hahhaha. Aniwae, e food was realli gd n i was realli bloated! ( I was e 1st few to eat n last few to leave e table) hahaha! yes dats how mi 20.5% fats ve cum abt but muz pamper myself aft dat outfield lor.

Went to play mj after dat n those playstation freaks went to slam their fingers on those controllers. i lost e most lor cos i was realli unlucky la nt like edwin hu had wee poh n rayner always feedin him la! no wonder he won la. Wee poh is realli irrittain oso cos he always win small like a few cents each round when i m tryin to create to win big lor! sighz!

aniwae, e nite was fun! Glad to noe every single 1 of u all, reallie n i nt actin cute here like wad u all always sae mi. sighz!

P.S. Thank u duane fer ur hse. Heez

heavenknows

9:45 PM

Saturday, December 18, 2004:A rEaLlY eVeNtFuL dAy

It was a real bad start today lor. Was supposed to meet near wei loong's hse @ 630 dis mornin but i overslept n when he n guangyi called mi @ 630, dey got a shock of their life as i was still @ home. Well, I got e shock of MI life when dey woke mi up la. sorry la wei loong treat u to sambal fried rice next yr. (i tink i ll forget remind mi k? hahahha) aniwae, i had to take a taxi to camp n i muz realli thank e driver lor. i juz told him to drive faster n e next thing i knew he juz sped off lor. i reached mi camp @ exactly 7 lor. Thank God! haha
Brigade family day was crap! i tink e officers' kids ve much more fun than us lor. Still, i won an air purifier from a game of bingo. Yeah but i was hopin to get dat olympus camera fr lcky draw. sighz. if signal coy is plannin 1 next yr, we ll do it better lor!
went to ikea aft dat wif guangyi, duane n lionel. when i walked ard dat place, suddenly ve e urge to renovate n designed e whole hse la.. it is juz so beautiful! heyz.. den went home n i slept in e bus. when i woke up i found out dat e bus has alr been parked in e interchange n luckily e driver has nt alighted yet lor. was realli angry n embarrassed la. y r singaporeans so ugly? dey didnt even wake mi up la, sighz n to tink i always wake pple up lor. dun tell mi i was e only 1 in e bus, irefuse to believe dat! hahahahz singaporeans r juz ugly at least sum of dem la. hahahaz

heavenknows

11:37 PM

Friday, December 17, 2004:Mi ViRgIn OuTfIeLd Ex

Juz got back from mi 1st outfield experience aft 1mth of siganl course n den driver course. It is really an eye-opener esp gg outfield fer e 1st time wif mi frens. Well hu ll forget guangyi thinkin dat jerry can which contained diesel contains H2O n poured fer Sashi to drink. too bad he didnt drink hahah. guangyi, nt every guy wif moustache is ur father! haha. n Lionel sexy voice over e radio. it is realli very sexy n promiscuous haha okie la dun suan u liao la since e whole world is suanin u alr. hee.
i ll slap hueva hu saiz dat taggin alon s1 n s4 is a veri slack job. haah cos it is nt lor at least fer dis ex la. e s4 got so many things to do 1 n i followed him all e way. didnt slp much oso cos i needed to communicate wif pple in e wee hours of e mornin every day den follow him ard in e afternoon. No chance to slp @ all but got catch a few winks here n dere la. well, i didnt walk durin e whole ex but i wished i walked la at least i can slp fer a few solid hrs lor. n yes dun laugh @ mi i noe i like to slp la. haha. oh n it is so uncomfortable to slp in a rover. i ve cum up wif 101 positions to slp in dat vehicle but guess wad? none of them is comfortable! sighz.
aniwae i m nt complainin la. dis is quite a gd outfield experience wif a bit of laughter here n dere. 2SIB signal pple, u rox! mi life is nvr dull in amy. hahah.

heavenknows

11:02 PM

Monday, December 13, 2004:Life is complicated!

Life is indeed complicated. sighz especially when romance is invloved. I have touched and being pricked by many many thorns but ve yet to even smell e roses. -Life is nvr a bed of roses- i tink it is blessed to ve some1 to like u n u on e other hand likes him/her back. i m wonderin when mi turn ll cum... hahha. There are so many trees in the forest and to finally choose 1 to admire n watch it grow is really amazin isn't it? well, i had chosen this tree but some1 else ve been admirin it long b4 mi n is now eatin e sweet fruits n smellin e flowers fr e tree le. sighz! but it is ok at least i ve nt lost a fren cos of this. haha. i dun feel sore abt it but i ve learnt impt lessons fr this saga. for mi veri close armi frens thank u fer supportin mi hahah but den again u all veri bagua esp dis guy fr nj 1... hahah n to those hu dun noe abt this dun dig fr mi cos i nt tellin u! heez. dis chapt of mi life is closed.

-Na de qi fang de xia- i ve fang xia (put down) le n life ll nvr be e same again!
to e tree dat i admire, all e best in ur new found relationship!

heavenknows

3:03 PM

:HuLlO

Hi everyone,
decided to blog oso since i dun ve e habit of writin a diary n i dun mind sharin wif mi frens abt mi life. If u r not mi fren but accidentally or purposely barged into mi blog n realise dat u wanna noe mi, welcome! Heez

heavenknows

2:57 PM