PATHWAYtoHEAVEN; veronicanote

Monday, February 28, 2005:good samaritans vs. lousy buggers!!!!

After 2 weeks of missing my driving lessons, i finally got the chance to hop into the Honda City and be seated in front of the steerinng wheel. I can only say that driving too much of military rovers where the pedals are as insensitive as some of the people out there. i used too much of force on the accelerator and my instructor was quite shocked. hahah But being quick to adapt to new surroundings, i managed to master back the correct techniques of driving.

was really impressed by drivers that i met today. there were more than 1 instance where i needed to lane change. i signalled to the right and was going to wait for the cars to zoom past before i changed lane. but the drivers are kind enough to slow down to the speed of a tortoise and waited for mi to change lane. i m so touched! maybe singaporean drivers are not that inconsiderate after all. maybe the traffic police have finally drilled some good stuff into their heads nowadays.

anyway, right after that driving lesson, i went to deposit some cash into my bank account and i saw a bus 25 almost leaving. i managed to sprint to the bus stop and was waiting for the bus driver to open the door. However, I was amazed to see the bus driver looking at me for 1 sec, waved his hand to bid farewell and drove off. i was stunned and e whole bus stop looked at me as i was too bewildered to shut my mouth. i am sorry to say this but i can only say that it is people like him to bring disgrace to the indian community. stupid indian bus driver. not that i am a racist but seriously indians are much smaller in no. as compared to chinese and malay. it is people like them who magnify the negative parts of the indian community and make many people out there racists. i have some indian friends and i can get along with them well. i pity them though because they are not those lousy buggers and yet they are being stereotyped! sighz. what is this world coming to?

went to play lan juz now. am really addicted to dota now. hahhah even though i am not skilled at all because i am still learning and i am a newbie! wish that i can do a killing spree some day in the near future.

heavenknows

12:01 AM

Friday, February 25, 2005:nOt So Gd WeEk

I was really agitated and pissed by what happened in e past week. Maybe i am no longer that tolerant anymore. there was 1 day when my company was given a nite off. I juz finished returning my vehicle and my friends were all waiting for me. yes, i was touched. i needed to talk to michael about e vehicle stuff and den change into civilian clothes. but there came a bitch who juz told mi to shut up, stop talking to mike and start changing! i was so damn pissed! i mean i am touched that u all waited for me but cant u see that i am busy. that was so uncalled for and insensitive.

then, today. this guy who i ll call N is quite professional in his work. he will ensure that everything is done nicely but he can be quite kan chiong. he called me to ask some of e guys to dismount radio from a vehicle and i came down 1st. i was there happily doing by myself and waiting for e guys to come. n den N ve to be panicky n asked where e rest were. e driver was kind enough to help us. our sgt saw and asked why e driver was helping us and N told him that bcuz i was e onli one who came down and helped. WTF! we are your friends la! even if that is true cant u say sth else to cover for ur friends. sorry ar, but i think it is an act of boot polishing even though i noe N doesnt really mean it.

cant pple be more tactful or sensitive? haiz. and dun be mistaken both of them are still friends of mine. sometimes friends can get on ur nerves too rite?

On a lighter note, today is cobra challenge. it is about guys forming groups of 10 to challenge themselves physically and mentally. my unit sent 1 group. they have to carry sbo, rifle, helmet each and e whole team carry 1 siganl set n 1 stretcher (oops, dunno how to spell). they have to fast march 13km altogether and in e meanwhile, go to range to shoot and do reverse soc. it is really a tough challenge and e group came in 21 out of 47. kudos to all of them esp. when they didnt train at all. Yeah!

My job in e challenge is to do rebroadcast. it is juz another normal signaller job. n mi church friend, amos who walked in e challenge saw me. he exclaimed that y is my life is army so slack. hahha. cos we met in thailand before that where he had to go for a pseudo war which was very tiring while mine was juz manning the radio sets which is nothing compared to his. Not that i am gloating, but pple must learn not to compare. if comparing will make u sad, den y compare? there ll be no end! Life is unfair. pple are smarter than others; some are more handsome/ beautiful; some are richer; some are more outspoken; etc. e list goes on. so come on, lets not compare or at least try to aim for that. u ll be happier.

heavenknows

7:05 PM

Sunday, February 13, 2005:a test i took

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heavenknows

10:03 PM

Friday, February 11, 2005:ChInEsE nEw Yr

today is already chu san. felt that this year's new year is quite sad. no hype, no expectations nothing. but still, a holiday is still a holiday. it is always better than staying in some place in mandai where arrows fly faster than aeroplanes and life is never a bed of roses but rather a bed of thorns. hahaha. noe that a lot of pple my age have e same feeling too. so wad if it is a new year? e only difference is that e animal changes. ( but e problem is it ll change back 12 years later!)

why is it that chinese new year in e olden times seem more festive n happening? is it becuz of e pple today have different expectations from our ancestors. actually, i dun tink so. this is due to the fact that e society today is affluent. people in e past are so thrifthy because they cldnt afford. big fish n meat can only be seen in new yr. new clothes too! in order to earn more money, abled men had to travel far n wide. reunion dinners are a gathering of these people n their families.

however, today is so different. fish n meat can be bought at anywhere anytime unless u have some disease like bird flu or mad cow disease spreading around. clothes can also be bought at anytime anywhere too. gatherings can be arranged juz by making a phone call. new year is juz another occasion where people make e effort to visit relatives n friends. nth special n nth significant makes new year very boring.

well, if u wan to feel more hype for next year's new year, here are some suggestions.

dun eat love lttrs, pineapple tarts, bak gua or food that u can associate with new year at other times of e year.
dun meet ur relatives or hold gatherings till CNY. u ll ve more expectations when CNY comes.
go n sweat it out by squeezing with fellow singaporeans in chinatown or river hongbao during CNY. *yucks*
dun play mahjong, blackjack or poker until CNY. if u wanna gamble, go singapore pools or illegal bookies ( &pray that police wunt come after u)
DUN BUY NEW CLOTHES OR ACCESORIES. wait till CNY is coming.

if u follow these 5 suggestions, i bet u ll hope that CNY ll come quickly n ur CNY ll guaruntee be fun!

*e writer disclaims all liabilities.*

heavenknows

6:37 PM

Tuesday, February 08, 2005:FeEl

Monday 07.02.05

Dragged myself out of the bed as i was forced to do work that i dont really want to-- that is to drive. My rover is used as a safety rover. Fatigue had to play a part too because havent been sleeping much. i was very disappointed with my driving skills. sighz. felt really ashamed of myself and to think i ve let down my military driving instructor. n to top it off, the vehicle that i m driving is in a lousy condition. not that a bad worker blames his tool but seriously the rover sux. haiz. e whole world could see e tiredness. maybe i was just too turned off by this arrow. when i went back to bunk was rejuvenated n talked to my friends n listened to jay chou till very late in the night. haha. LESSON LEARNT: marcus, u r right! never show others your weaknesses in all circumstances!

Tuesday 08.02.05
new year's eve but i dont feel anything. haiz aniwae e experts say that e rooster year is a lousy year. i am going to prove them so wrong man! dont believe in all this shit. u control ur own fate. if u believe that u are going to fail u will fail! yeah! aniwae, wanna wish all a happy n prosperous new year!

heavenknows

10:46 PM

Friday, February 04, 2005:

Special dedication to a fren:

was quite troubled cos dis fren of mine was really lost sumwhr out dere in e cold. she shared her woes wif mi n i tried to tok her out of it but too bad i failed. at least it helped her a wee bit i hope. aniwae even tho i dunno e whole pic, i can onli sae dat fer a relationship to take place 2 hands muz clap. if 1 party becuz of uncertainty withdraws 1 hand, e other party has to stretch out e other hand. however, dere is a limit as to how far e hand can b stretched. dis is unfair to both of em. yes, if more effort is put into e relationship, once u fall e hurt ll b greater but if u haven tried to really go 100% hw do u noe e ending ll be happily ever aft or not? hw do u noe whether sound can be produced from e 2 hands?

wad is a relationship? to mi, as long as both parties like each other n work hard together hu cares abt e world outside. ur world juz ve e 2 of u all. worrying ll onli wear u down n do u no gd. true, easier said than done but at least try k? dun always lk @ e portion of e dark sky which has nth but lk elsewhr find e portion of e sky whch has e round moon n dazzling stars.

ming tian hui geng hao.

special dedication to mi mum:

feelin quite bad. cos cny is cumin n mi mum is startin to fall ill. sighz. wanted to help mi mum to paint e hse todae but woke up late cos were tokin to cb n marcus last nite. hahah in e end helped a bit onli. nvm promised to help her fer e whole of tmr. she has to work n clean up e huge hse. mi bros r studyin n mi dad workin dat left wif onli mi to help out. sighz. but haiya okie la muz be a fillial son ma n see mi mum lidat makes mi heart ache.

k muz slp le so can wake up early to help mi mum tmr.

heavenknows

1:09 AM

Tuesday, February 01, 2005:hOmE sWeEt HoMe

yo pple. I M BACK! yeah. ahhaha. i noe it has been ages since i blog. wanted to blog in thailand but e com there is slower than a tortoise n there is only 1 miserable com while e rest are used to play lan.

10th-20th jan
touched down in thailand. was quite happy with e bunk. it is a 40 men bunk so all of us can squeeze into e room. 1st few days were quite xian cos we were quite sad of leavin singapore n our loved ones. n we had nth to do! we settled e signal stuff n vehicles in 1 day! e rest of e days are doing sai kang n stoning. e lan crazy pple were happily playin while e rest went canteen to shop in e 5 miserable shops. food in e cookhouse was terrible. hmm... how to describe dat? okie basically very few pple went to eat n everyday e cooks have to complain dat nobody went to eat n a lot of food were left. it seems like it had nvr dawned onto them dat e food is so yucky. even e dogs there refuse to eat la n e dustbin is full of food aft each meal. hahhaa. but canteen food is nt bad. e tom yam soup, convolvulus( which means kang kong ) blah blah. all of us spent a lot on food. e blended drinks r really nice but u ll definitely get diabetes if u stay there like fer 10 yrs la. as fer bathin facilities, well, there is a communal bath whr there r 5 bathtubs in e centre n we r given scoops to scoop up e water to bathe. there is no privacy but nt dat we bother. there r 4 shower cubicles n there r pple hu ll forever use them instead of e communal bath. e reasons dey give ll b lyk they feel more clean or feelin paiseh to be naked in front of others. hahahahhaa. if u r wonderin, ya mi skin is too thick to feel paiseh. aniwae time seems to pass by quite slowly.

20th-25th jan
exercise starts on e 22th. dunno y we need to go to thailand so early oso. sigh it is e army la. preparin e stores n doin more sai kang again. mi job in e exercise was supposed to be in a rover manning coms for 2 officers. it is a super slack 1. however e day b4 e exercise was asked to follow this officer and walk with mi signal set throughout e whole ex. i was shocked la, was alr settled n happy to sit in a vehicle n slack. i mean i dun mind walkin since i wan to improve mi fitness but i was nt mentally prepared! hahha. in e end, was pulled to do hq work. sit in some room wif nicholas n man comms. 1st tym doin hq controls so i learned a lot of things. throughout e whole ex, mi impression of sgt hui change. he gave us welfare n took care of us. he even forced chin tee to bathe. hahahah. he can be a veri gd fren but i shld say we ve no similarities. e ex was ok fer mi n i cant complain abt it cos sum of mi frens got worse stuff than mi. dey r tired fr walkin whole nite; dey dun ve e luxury of bathin n no canteen food too. hahahha.

26th-31st jan
ex ended so every1 was really happy. more lan games fer those com game freaks. e rest of e pple played bridge, german bridge, 5 player bridge. n those who initially din noe how to play learned as well. almost e whole bunk knew how to play le. sgt marcus n hui learned e fastest. i tink dey r realli smart n quick in learnin stuff. n dey were nt jc students lor mayb dats y pple always compare jc to others. is it true dat we r more rigid n learn things slower? hmm.. oh ya if u were wonderin 5 player bridge means dat since there is an extra person, there ll b a loser out of e game to let e 5th person to play n e loser is e one in e loser team hu has e less no. of sets. remember there was 1 game whn i knew mi n duane ll sure lose n under normal circumstances i ll let duane win a set since he is mi partner. but since i knew we ll lose, i ate dat set n duane was out of e next round. hahhahahhaha. felt so proud dat i backstabbed him n stayed in e game. hahhaa. it is all in e name of a game la.

in other times we can oso tok alot of cock too. hahah. rem e nite whn we all sat on marcus n duane bed to share lame jokes n racist jokes. bitchin 1 another was oso quite fun. hahah. time passes quite fast n we were enjoyin e company of 1 another. was happy to get to noe pple better. lyk cb, chew, marcus, nic sim etc.etc.

den got sum pple share their stories of their relationships or their xin shang ren but nvr becum steads. n dere is dis guy fr nj who refuses to admit dat he lyks this gal but e prob is all of us even noe her name le! hahha. realise dat marcus n i got quite a lot of similarities in this n both of us r against things lyk cohabitin. our views r quite similar n i was lyk quite shocked. lionel says dat mi view in this is very idealistic. i ve to agree wif that. e onli idealistic thing that i dun believe in is love @ 1st sight. lyk i believe in long-distance relationships as long as both parties put in e effort. wei loong says that cohaabiting shld take place b4 marriage cos if u cant stand e person u r stayin wif den how can u marry her? well, i agree that that makes sense but if u really like that person n are on e verge of marrying then should u nt know e person well enuf? to like a person is to like his/ her weakness as well that is if u cant change that weakness. n yes lionel, it may sounds loserish to say that if u truly like a person even if he/she is nt by ur side u ll b contended if he/she is happy. but i dun give a damn cos i believe in this even tho it ll be doubly blissful if he/she is by ur side. aniwae ya we tok alot of this in camp. that shows how bored we r. hahahhaa.

aniwae i bought a lot of stuff fer mi family n i tink i bought e most things compared to mi frens. i even bought new yr goodies fer mi family. well, i dun spend mi money on lan or flushing mi money by drinkin beer or smokin. hhaahhaaa. felt really accomplished.

got break now till CNY but next mon still ve to go back camp to spring clean. okie la dun complain much as i m easily contended. hopefully, this break is well used.

Wo Ye Hen Xiang Ta
Stephanie Sun (Sun Yan Zi)

那时我们总有好多话什么事都可以讲
我的爱情比你早却一直放在心上

后来你们之间的变化我不想再多说话
经过了相遇和挣扎我还是无法将他放下

那是多久后的事了有一天你突然问我
在那个时候是否也爱着他

我也很想他我们都一样在他的身上
曾找到翅膀只是那时的他是因为你他开始飞翔

我也很想他在某个地方我少了尴尬你少了肩膀
而夏天还是那么短思念却很长

还记得那年我们三个许下的愿望
星星骗了我们我们却因此上了一课
成长必修的学分

我们都一样

feel dat this song is veri touching. e tune is nice n e lyrics is very meaningful even chay beng lyk it aft he listened to mi mp3.

heavenknows

2:59 PM