In exactly 12 hours time, i ll be at the Changi airport. in 14 hours time, i ll bid my family goodbye. in 14 hours n a few minutes time, i ll bid Singapore farewell. in 18 hours time, i ll on taiwan soil.
ambivalent.
excited to go overseas again with my company people. know that i ll be having fun there. hope that at e same time, we will live as peacefully n harmoniuosly together. hahhaha. butterflies in my stomach now plus e gastric juices churning (i haven had breakfast). dunno wad to expect from this trip.
breaking barriers, forging bonds. that is my motto. yeah.
sad to leave my family members behind. sad to go without my friends. not that this is my 1st time. but i think as time go by, i get more mature n i learn to cherish mi things around mi ba.
oh ya, if u guys out there want anything from taiwan, i can try to get for u all. if it is within my means that is, and no yvonne i cant bring over the ji1 pa2 (chicken) over u noe.. unless u want 1 week diarrhaoea. hahah. juz msg mi ya? i ll bring mi phone along. N DUN CALL MI! i ll chop off ur heads when i reach back n demand u to pay for mi phone bills. hahaa. juz kidding. yup yup.
i m so relieved and happy. finally got the coveted license. yeah! i can finally drive, civilian cars that is. today was just the perfect day man. the weather wasnt hot and it was in fact gg to rain. God held e rain till i finished my test. heh. my tester was really friendly and i m grateful for that.
during the test, i was so nervous till my left leg was shaking real bad and i could not even control the clutch properly. i had to stop for a while before continuing. hahah. but anyway, the ends is more important than the means. and wads most important is i passed!
still smiling from grin to grin now. this kinda of feeling is really good.
watched e results segment of the show last night. i was feeling ambivalent after it. numb maybe. cos last night, the winners Kelly n Kelvin had e fewer marks than their competitors. the underdogs won. i mean i wasnt surprised that Kelly would have gotten this. mm... she is pretty and vocally not bad even though Xin Hwey is a tad better. she is e more consistent 1 throughout the whole competition n when she was ousted i think it was a blessing in disguise cos more people got to know her and support her.
however, i cant agree with the situation with Kelvin. Jun yang was the more consistent singer throughout the whole competition while Kelvin's marks were fluctuating very badly. i feel quite sad fer Jun Yang actually. because i think the judges are partly responsible fer it. they were clearly impressed with Jun Yang n while all my friends in my camp said that Kelvin's rendition of "heaven knows" is superb n better than Jun Yang's english song. but the judges criticised Kelvin until the song was lousy. all of us were touched by the song la. even though i agree that Jun Yang did a better job that night but there was no need for the judges to be so obvious and to an extent biased.
Votes are wierd and not for us to understand. when there is this hot favourite, everybody will ve this mentality that since he is gg to get in, why vote? so when every1 does not vote, poo the hot favourite is gone. N WHEN THE FAV IS GONE, THE VOTERS OR RATHER THE NON-VOTERS WILL COMPLAIN SAY THAT IT IS UNFAIR. hullo? too bad! i m writing this cos i was reading the papers and they were complaining that the winners should be th eones gg home. hahhaha. u r the ones who did not vote or vote lesser. i m quite irritated by this.
speaking of votes, people also have this tendency to sabotage people. sighz. this is unhealthy u noe. i remember in jc, i was saboed la. i was voted by my whole class (22 votes) to be a prom king nominee. hahahha joke rite? sabo lor! me prom king???? haahaha luckily i wasnt saboed further or rather other classes did not even want me to be prom king.l hahahhahaha. phew!
so. Votes are irritating. reallie unpredictable. n e worse is when we have to bear e consequnces after that.
hey peeps, sry for not blogging. well, partly due to laziness. hahahaa. but ya noe that some of u guys out there r disappointed by e lack of new entries.
life has been stagnant. realli. with all exercises and route marches, camp is not exactly a very wonderful place to be in. e organisation in my camp is super bad and i hate most of the commanders as in 1SG n above. haiz. i used to sae that camp wasnt that bad because of the great companionship around me. sigh but i cant say it anymore. dun get me wrong. i still like my friends a lot. all of you. but i guess i am more of an idealistic fool. u can imagine that i ll be the goon goon if asked what i ll like to see in this world- it ll be world peace. hahhaa. too bad reality hits back onto me. juz feel uneasy n uncomfortable esp when any conflicts or misunderstanding take place. n e funny thing is most of the time i m not one of e parties involved. hahahhahaa. how to change ar? as in be more indifferent but at e same time showing care n concern to the involved parties.
on a brighter note, just took a test on how masculing/feminine my brain is wired to be. for a start, for men-wired brains, it falls within the range of 0-180 while females is 150-300. between 150 n 180 is e overlapping region. n i happen to be 180. i m not exactly happy nor disappointed with my results, cos i still fall within e range of a male-wired brain but i guess maybe i can click with the gals more ba since my brain is supposedly to be e same wavelength as them. hahahah. maybe i am having e best of both worlds. n NO, i m not in self-denial state. hahahahhaha. dun be jealous if in e near future i m a lady killer. hahhaahahhha. k jokes aside. juz kidding onli ar.
ya, congrats to e Goddess of ubi. finally pass ur driving test and all e best to guang yi, must pass lehz. dun care about me u must pass 1st. hahhaha i very bu yao lian hor? haha all e best la.
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darius tan
mjs, vs, vjc, ic
soon-to-be mathematics teacher
hopes to eat less, sleep more, exercise more, have a better relationship wif God and people around me, study and play harder
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