contemplated very long before writing this entry. din really want to share with the loyal people coming to view my blog but i need something to pen my thoughts n feelings down so here goes.....

part of my mind has been in turmoil for since goodness know when. dun look at mi always in cheerful mood n sharing joy to people around me, but i feel upset sometimes. cos of the same thing.

yeah. i agree i think too much sometimes. i know that my intuitions n feelings are leading me to nowhere. but i still carry on to think n feel. y? i oso dunno. God give all of us a brain n a heart each. maybe mine muz always be active.

it may be my fault that i not proactive enough. and i noe the chinese saying tian1 shi3 di4 li4 ren2 he2. but.....

i had wanted to let it go. really let it go and carry on life as usual. but every time i wanted to do it, there ll be signs from heaven to not let go. n when dat happens, there ll be signs from hell to ask mi to let go. life is such a paradox.

maybe they are not even signs. i think too much. i feel what i want to feel. i dunno.
i m not blaming any1 here. such things happen as it comes.

Time is a healer. but TIme and tide waits for no man. Time is such a double-edged sword. maybe i need time. i had no idea wad i shld do to seek happiness in this area and now i still dont.

can only wait lor.
but dun worry frenz. u all have been a great bunch of pple to make mi forget abt it sometimes, n i am really grateful. n to some of my bunk mates who noe my situation. tks to u all too. hahahaha.

n not to worry, i will always cheer u all up as and when u all need me. hahahahha.

really.

heavenknows

5:07 PM