if your answer to the following question is no, dun bother to read on for this entry.

AM I A NICE GUY?

thhanks for your support as a fren by saying yes. REALLY!

Remember that night when i was talking to jason n gy. i asked jason to name me my weaknesses. he could not name any. i was so surprised but of cos i noe some of my own weaknesses la! hahah

am i really that nice? so nice until i can be so soft-hearted that i can take blows/hits directed at me? so soft-hearted until i can be seen as a pushover.

i know that i am a sensitive guy, being sensitive to people around me. (sensitive new age guy hahah) however, i am being taken advantage of that. shld i be more hard-hearted and not sensitive? on tuesday, there was this commander who was buffed up both externally and internally in his heart that he lost his tact and offended most of us. he was super not sensitive. shld i be like that and hurt others and not let others to hurt me? i noe i never will.

"if someone slaps you on the right cheek, offer your left one as well" -Bible

Why do i follow this command? haiz.

basically, i am on cold war with this guy frommy bunk cos of some minor issue. i admit i was in the wrong but he was wrong too and he hurt me more. all i demand was an apology.

howver, that did not come.

During the period, this is what i did,

• wrote a letter to him tell him how i felt cos i noe i dun want to cause another racket in bunk but he tore it and claimed he did not read it when he did.
• in card games, i juz played professionally.
• volunteered to help him to book his dental ffi.

n this is what he did,

• in card games, he juz kept aiming me. n it is damn obvious
• say childish things like buying clothes from heartland malls is so unglam
• in dota, he made sure that he was in the same team as me so that i would not aim him cos i am much better than him.
• TODAY, i din wake up for breakfast and luah too. i had IPPT to take so i din have to go. when our commander asked who were still sleeping, he kept saying "darius". what the hell! i would not have been pissed if he said both of our names. it is so obvious that he is aiming me when I AM NOT DOING ANYTHING TO HURT HIM.

what piss me off is he made this whole issue as if l am the one in the wrong and not him.

so back to my question, am i being too nice?

i dunno. rayner n guangyi asked me to try n let it go but i wont. not until he says the 5- letter word. it is so obvious that he selects his frenz and maybe feels that with or without me as a fren has no difference to him.

juz hope that by april 10, will walk on separate ways and our paths will not cross each other. and seriously, FUCK OFF.

to think we noe each other since pri sch. hahahha.

heavenknows

9:20 PM