i am sure getting paranoid and worried. because i have been making weird dreams for the past nights. and the dreams are real bizzare.

do dreams really mean anything? y do i have dreams every night no matter how tired i am?

like to the army people, i dreamt sgt brian scolding staff wendy. can u believe it??? haha. i cant. 1stly, brian has been posted out and 2ndly, he will lose his job if he does scream at the bitch. oops! haha.

last night. dreamt that i was having meal with my dad. then this girl came to me and ask me whether my food was enough not. i said yes and she asked me for my number and my name. hmmm.... and i replied in front of my dad. hahaa. to think i forgot my handphone number too. lol. anyway, was not interested in her but still was talking to her.

what the hell!!!! i am sure getting scared. JUST WHAT DO ALL THESE DREAMS MEAN IF THEY REALLY DO MEAN ANYTHING?

haiz.

heavenknows

11:50 AM

Stupid blogger is damn irritating! Firstly, this is the 2nd time i am writing this entry because i do not have the practise of saving them. In end, my previous one got lost into the world of telecommunications. hmm... Secondly, i have no idea what is wrong with my blogger because there is no colour for me to choose and the options are limited. IRRITATING!

Back to the topic, my right eye had been twitching for the past weekend. was feeling uncomfortable. i am not being superstitious but cant help to think is this an omen of what lies ahead? luckily, it stopped.

have been having many many dreams for the past few days. i know, i know. this is the reflection of me sleeping too much. but is sleep a sin? no. hahaha. anyway, these are the following dreams that i can still remember:

my late grandma cooking yumilicious stuff for me to eat.

my hair is so long that it covers the whole of the collar of my shirt.
( i know this is because i am waiting for my hair to grow longer before i go and do something to hair. NO REBONDING FOR ME. yes zh? i think u are going to make some comments? haha. juz kidding)

this gal who i liked a long time ago with her boyfriend who i have never seen before.
( dun remember feeling sore in my dream. in fact was feeling happy for her. whether she got boyfriend now anot i also dunno)

WEILIN!!! yes i dreamt about you and your future boyfriend! dun ask me how come, it just happened in my dream. haaha. your bf is damn tall. Yiwen ar? hahahahha. oops! no i din see his face in my dream. but could be him u know.. haha.

this gal whom i have never met before but heck she was in my dream.

help me to interpret my dream, somebody!

was reading men's health yesterday, and i came across this section. foundit quite interesting. this coloumn is where men ask questions to this gal called sara.

This girl I'm trying to date has cancelled on me 3 times but each time, she seems apologetic about it, offering alternative dates( which got cancelled in the end). How do i tell if she's just stringing me along?

Sara's reply: Sigh. you sound like a nice guy, and its even hard for me to be upfront about this - she's just not interested in you. Sad but true fact: most of us dont know how to reject a guy, and would rather say "maybe" when we should give you an honest "no". and really, no woman worth dating raises and dashes hopes 3 times. after the 2nd last-minute no-show, chances are she simply doesnt know how to tell you to bugger off. even if she sounds sincerely apologetic, she's probably just sorry that she's not interested.

Can I have your phone number,please?

Sara's reply: No. but dun take rejction too personally. there are dozens of reasons a girl says no to you - she has a boyfriend, she's gay, she just been through a rotten breakup, she's busy to date, she doesnt live in singapore. keep on searching. there are plenty of other fish in the sea.

INTERESTING, ISNT IT? WAS QUITE AMUSED BY THE ABOVE EXERCPT. hmmmmm..

heavenknows

10:37 AM

I have received feedback that my blog is an eyesore. This is due to the fact that my entries are not in perfect english and the sentences are peppered with many la-s, lo-s etc.

Initially, I was in a dilemma because this is my blog and how I write it is my business. On the other hand, I know that u poor readers out there may be cursing and swearing out there while reading my blog. hmm... (or maybe just you?) haha.

Anyway, so poor Darius has decided to start writing in England's english. haha. This is also due to the fact that I think if I continue to write Singapore-flavoured english, I will just die *swee-swee in London.

back to today! clarence introed me to Fullerton Hotel to buy the famous yummilicious chocolate cake. he was late, as usual (hee) but only for 15 min. (give it to u la, huh! heez) we reached the shop at 1045am but it was already sold out! What the heck!

Met Zhenhao in Tampines Mall later in the afternoon. Poor Zh always *kena bullied by me. muahahhaa. Thanks for the ice-cream treat anyway. haha.

Omg... I wanted to try to make my day sound exciting but i just failed terribly. life is so boring. Haiz.

heavenknows

8:00 PM

to anonymous,
erm... why dun u ask me personally? or leave ur name or smth?

basically, i may be making a mountain out of a molehill but at least i am trying to change. hahaa....

anw, wanna thank duane and gy for accompanying me all the way to bugis to buy my bag. went to zinc to buy. so shiok and they juz watched me buy, so guilty. but aniwae, gy and i bought watches too la so... hahhaa. thanks anyway.

now my life is so boring and it juz revolves ard tuition. haiz.

i think e more free i am, the more useless things are getting into my head. not gd ar. hahaha. think i am having e quarterlife crisis. lolz.

heavenknows

12:40 AM

I am absolutely sad and disappointed, yet again i know. but today is different. guess i am sick of the waiting game le ba. reallie dunno how to play this game.

anyway, today will be the start of the evolution of Darius. hahaa. it is the survival of the fittest. since, i cant beat them, i ll join them. and once i blog it here, i ll try my best to do as what i say. unless situations prevent me from doing so. haha.

people are superficial. i know i am one too. haiz... but why does this happen? sighz.

to end this, i seriously hope u all dunno wad the heck i am talking about. :L

heavenknows

11:10 PM

heyhey.

HAPPIE BDAE, GY~! I KNOW I WISHED U LE BUT STILL HAVE TO BLOG MY WISHING. HAHA. YUP. ANIWAE HOPE U LL VE A BLESSED YR AHEAD AND STAY CHEERFUL AND BUBBLY K? WISH U ALL E BEST IN UR UNI LIFE. :)

HAPPIE BDAE, PING! HAHA. I NOE EARLY A BIT BUT IT IS OK LA HOR? SCARED LATER I FORGOT. HAHA. WISH U ALL E BEST IN UR MID YEARS. DUN PANIC HOR? AND STUDY HARD AND PLAY HARD LOR. HOPE THAT U LL GET WHAT U AIM FOR IN UR COMING C DIV BBALL SEASON. YUPYUP. HAHAA.

heavenknows

12:10 AM

last day at sentosa. din even know was last day when i arrived into office this morning. then they decided that they did not want me for now. so i was booted out of sentosa.

BUT i am no at all disappointed or sad cos i knew my job was very temporary in e 1st place. my colleagues are very nice towards me and i very grateful made my short stay there memorable.

the other day at sentosa, my colleagues and i went down to wait for bus to go for lunch. we saw this group of people waiting for bus too. suddenly, they got excited and drew out their cameras. i was wondering in that short span, wad is worth to be taken?

den they all walked towards our direction. and 1 of them asked, " can i take photo of ur shoelace?" i was so stunned.

then i realised, they were playing scavenger hunt and looking for bizarre items like yellow shoelaces and yellow socks. NO, i dun wear yellow socks, but ya, my reaction was like, " u all are damn lucky" how many people actually wear yellow shoelaces? hahaa.

anyway, i think the students who come to underwater world are DAMN CUTE! no i am not = paedophile but reallie like to pinch their cheeks. haha. all pri schools and below and so bubbly and stuff. haha.

well, quite going to miss life in sentosa. haha.

heavenknows

11:42 PM

one word to describe my feeling!

still gleaming inside after i got my coveted ic. hahahaa.... even though today still have to wait for some stuff before the collection i can say the wait was definitely worth it! hhaaha. damn damn shiok~~!

went lunch with ping juz now sorta clebrate her bdae la. plus gave her a bit of pointers of math too. haha. nice toking to u after since clare bdae hor? ya. hope u like e prez. :)

tomorrow will be yet another day. but let me cherish this shiok shiok day. hahaha.

heavenknows

6:59 PM

read the new paper yesterday. saw the argument by a JC student and a poly undergrad/student. let me elaborate about what happened. it was all because of an online game called maple (omg! people quarrel because of such a game????) and this jc guy was very pissed at people ks-ing in the game who he pointed out are the poly people. and he started blasting that jc students are superior than poly people. and given the chance jc students ll do better than poly students in the poly education. plus, the best part was when he said that poly students cant even master simple stuff from secondary sch. in short, poly students are childish and stupid.

firstly, i am from jc but i totally dun agree wif him. i ll definitely not call my brother stupid juz because he is from poly. yes, i am better academically but i have to give it to him in terms of streetsmartness. dun generalise and make sweeping statements. not every poly student is weak academically and not every jc student is not street-smart.

from the comments that he gave, i can conclude that he comes from one of the top jcs in singapore because of the sentence structure of his comments and stuff. which irks me even more. juz because o levels is a piece of cake to him doesnt mean it is easy for other people. PEOPLE DO SLOG HARD FOR THE EXAMS TO GET INTO JCS.

the comments only show how shallow this guy is. cos there are many reasons for a student not to do well and NOT BECAUSE OF STUPIDITY. for one, there may be no motivation for them to study let alone to go to a jc. also, we cannot discredit all late bloomers. yes, o level subjects may be boring to these bunch of people and they find poly education more suitable for them, so be it! life is definitely not the end for these people juz because they cant get into jc.

the more i think about it the angrier i get. cos i juz cant stand such snobbish people who think they are the cream of the crops and useful to the society. every singaporean is juz like every grain of sand. we are interdependent and need to be be united. every contribution be it big or small is still a contribution to the society.

BUT THEN AGAIN hate it when poly students cry," f***ing A level students think so straight so not flexible" cos again it is a generalisation and yes all our brain cells are either, burnt, evaporated or squeezed due to the heavy mugging in jc. but that doesnt mean we are all rote-learners and not flexible.

heavenknows

5:22 PM

muahaha. today is a damn happening day cos it is ORD day! haha. got a hell lot of people i know who get their ic today. wad a good day man! ahhaa. but my ic is still stuck in camp. well, my ic deserted me in the 1st place so must let it taste of its medicine. let it freeze 1 more day in the air-con office, serve it right! hahah. no la, cos gy tmr den collect ic ma den collect wif him lorz.

yesterday, went to celebrate gy bdae. 1stly, muz say that i am damn impressed with the decorations and everything. kudos to gy who planned everything detail. well done! hope u like e prez anw. aiyah think u LOVE it too. den when i saw my army juniors there, felt quite sad lo. cos cant be in camp to talk, bitch, play dota etc. etc. wif them. esp. matthew. cos i knew him since sec sch but din have a chance to reallie talk to him since jc and in camp.

n my dad was pestering me about my farewell party. hahaa. n say if i want to book chalet in sept muz book now. haiz. tell him i need to think abt it and he says this kinda thing cannot think too long one. haha. hiaz. ziyang, clare how? organise together?

today went back to work. my time is very flexible cos i am juz helping them to clear their backlock. working in e 9-5 office is reallie an eye-opener for me man! about everything from the job scope of accountants to hr department. PLUS e office ladies! haha. they are damn farnie! they talk about everything. from other people to whether they should vote for PAP not and back to talking about other people. haha. and i hear 2 different groups of people talking nagetive stuff about 2 completely different groups of people. how scarY! haha. dunno wad they talk about me oso. haha. well, ignorance is bliss. and i dun reallie care. hahaha. i am a temp staff there anw. haha.

heavenknows

10:19 PM

Will be getting my pink IC next week. How exciting is that! hahaha. After waiting for so long, finally can get hold of her liao.

I was thinking of my army life. reallie not nothing much to complain. I know there are people who live better lives than me while others who live off worse.

My short stint in Tekong was really memorable. 1st off, clarence and duane will definitely agree, we were lucky to have a very dedicated OC. haha. he was mad! but i have to thank him for pushing all of us mentally la. all the shoutings, the stupid field camp which scared out the hell of me and everything. like my platoon. we were quite united and of course we were the best platoon. hahaa. striven to push ourselves. and we juz push one another on. my section rox too. my buddies, chris and sam funnie but were hardworking. can still rem chris wanted to have fever so he juz ate toothpaste and do a lot of jumping jacks. hahaha. too bad din work out.

den was posted to mhc lor. came in then do NDP liao. BEST TIME OF MY LIFE IN ARMY MAN! went to deyi to set up PA for them while they were perparing for their performance. damn shiok. and zijian will juz drive us illegally to go eat outside after that. hahaa. who can forget duane who went to eat $5 worth of yong yau hoo laksa at amk hawker centre.. haha. we call it the helmet laksa. haha. then do all the sai kang at the stadium. well, it is once in a lifetime experience so dun mind actually.

life in mhc was real good. the poeple in it were good. we talked a lot of cock at night. played and watched tv.. etc. etc. was quite slack la even though got a few legendary irritating fellas but they din do anything much too.

then i went for my course. short 6 weeks. DAMN Slack. haha. juz study and sleep in class thats all. i was the stupid welfare ic. and whenever we want nights off i have to ask my pc. IRRITAING. cos my platoon wants it like almost everyday. so it was damn irritating. almost argued with some of them. so not sensible. haah.

after which, i went to learn driving le. hell yeah! the instructors were mad. they would rant and rave like mad initially. and closer to the test, my instructor was practically threatening and scolding. haha. but still fail the 1st time. haha. den he threatened me and say that if i failed the 2nd time again, i would have to sing in front of the whole class. dunno how he thought of that la. but anyway, luckily i passed. driving on expressway was damn fun but still have to keep within 50 km/h la so juz see every vehicle passed by us. hahha.

den we went to thailand. reallie enjoyed it. cos of all the legendary irritating people in camp, only 1 went. and he became tame and freindly. cos no boss around ma hhahaa. too bad, gy din go with us. haiz. 1st day, went there prepare our stuff and then slack for like 15 days or so. hahaa. this period of time reallie know many people more. especially those who live in 4th floor in camp. *i live in the 3rd floor. it was bridge all the way and eat and sleep and talk cock. haha.

back in singapore, more than of half of the people ord-ed. felt quite sian. then it was exercises all the way liao. quite hectic plus my top commander wasnt reallie nice to work with in the 1st place. he was either mia or givin stupid instructions but want us to respect him etc. etc. understand fully the meaning of SHITT ROLLS DOWN. ahhaha.

after which went to taiwan. a lot of ups and downs. esp. when it is the top commander who was in charge of us. reallie made me totally turned off by him. and gy blamed me for instigating him to have the same feeling. hahhhaa. but still have to put on the mask cos i still need to live in camp. haha.

went straight to thailand. nothing much. exercise le then rest awhile and back to singapore le. quite a memorable one la.

that was in september last year. after which, got exercises and stuff but gradully tuned down until totally slack. which equates to soc and icct and physical training. hahaa. damn lucky, going to ord le, den soc and icct juz managed to skip them by using some tactics. muahahahha.

and lo and behold, ord lo! hahaha. 1 chapter of my life close le.

heavenknows

10:26 AM

arrggghhh... another one who got rejected from uni. this time from US. zh dun be too sad lehz. they duwan u is their loss.

make me cherish my life even more. i am not gloating here but i ve to say that my life is reallie blessed. thank God and thanks to everyone ard me. other than internal sch tests or exams, i ve to say i did reallie well in national exams. plus moe and imperial want me too. reallie glad and reallie cherish my life even more. duwan to let myself and people ard me down.

juz watched V for Vendetta and Failure to Launch. stupid duane says i shld grow out of trashy love movies and drag me to watch V. din regret that actually. quite like that show. cos the angle of the story is slightly different. lousy and corrupted government using wrong ways and methods to curb terrorists and all that. should give kudos to the scriptwriter for injecting music and plays into the show. Art imitates life and it adds colour to our life.

reallie like the dominoes! think they are really nice! can imagine e sense of satisfaction of pushing e 1st piece down and ditto! u get a very, very nice picture form it.

n it emphasizes that masks exist in everyone. how true it is! men can never be like Adam and Eve le who used to walk around in the garden naked and true to everyone else and the world before the serpent stepped in.

LOVE FAILURE TO LAUNCH! ya, i noe it is a trashy love movie. best romantic comedy i have ever seen. e jokes are lame. not lame enough for one to produce cold sweat though. but lame enough for one to laugh till one's content. doing CPR on a mockingbird is definitely hilarious! hahaa. reallie enjoyed myself and dun mind watching it again! hahaha.

got a job le! yeah... ahah. going to sentosa to do accounts for my aunt. quite eager to do it though. plus i am doing 5 half-days per week only so i think it is still not bad. haha.

underwater world, here i come!

heavenknows

1:56 PM