i am currently in the library now. haha. u may be wondering wad on earth am i in the library for since my exams were long over. i have a project to do and i am supposed to see my supervisor on tues. however, other than borrowing a few books, i was dilly dallying and could not understand anything i was reading. plus procrastination has crept into me.

so before i meet my supervisor empty-handed, i spent 6 hours in the library doing my project. and now i am done with my project!! haha as in my 1st draft lo. juz hope that my supervisor gives me the thumbs up, then all i have to do is to type out my projects plus fiddling maple again to plot some graphs and then i am done! =)

but now, i cant go back to my hall. cos it is raining so heavily do decided to stay in library and do some blogging. ahahha.

heavenknows

9:22 AM

time check now 430am.

spent the last 2 hours looking at 2 blogs. gy's blog and my blog and all the archives... haha. it juz felt soo good looking at the past entries. was grinning from ear to ear looking at them. this is what blogs are for isnt it?

want to say something which i wanted to say for a very long time le but looking at some of gy's entries remind me of that. and that is DOTA. well it is a game where u play with other people ie ur FRIENDS or pple U KNOW... but dota also reflects the ugly side of people isnt it? when people kao bei others when they cant perform or simply cannot understand why others cannot do otherwise seemingly easy tasks. for goodness sake, it is just a game. i am not flaming anyone here dun get me wrong. i juz felt sian-ed by the fact that people can get sour over a game of dota. whats wrong with losing and even if u dun think u deserve to lose. it is only a game! different people have different strengths and weaknesses. in fact i think i suck at alot of things. i have no musical talent, sometimes blaming my parents for not sending me to piano lessons when i was young.. *hahhaaha*, i am not artistic. i dun consider myself as popular or good-looking blah blah.. before i go into self-pity, what i am trying to say is that so what if some people are not as good in dota or in other things as well? y muz comments be stinging? and this is to everyone, when was your last compliment that you have given to anyone out there?

anyways, what impressed me was when hj said, ' i want to be in the same team as him again. i want him to eat his words and thank me in the game' his never-say-die attitude made me smile.

juz had this thought this morning. i felt like one of the heroes in DOTA. for the past yr has been out fighting with creeps and conquering towers and other enemy heroes. and now i feel that i am low on life and mana and cant wait to go back to the fountain of wealth (ie back home) to regenerate again before end of september. hahha... BUT still cant think of any hero which is soo darius.. HAHAHHAH..

okok gg to sleep le. seriously dunno whether i can wake up for church later. me shall try!!

heavenknows

11:30 AM

I have juz received the news 10min ago from my bro. shocked. stunned.

this post is dedicated to Aidan.

I got to know him when i was in sec 1. he was 2 yrs older than me, in sec 3. he was my Boys' Brigade senior. i wasnt exactly that close to him in the 1st place. he wasnt in my section, and he was the activities head, planning all the games and activities for us during parades. I was quite envious of the whole batch cos they were a really close batch. even until now, they are sooo inseperable. Aidan seemed to me as a fierce person and thats why i was not close to him. but the true fact was that he is a nice guy too.. haha. then he left for poly and he came back to help us too... we were soo close as a whole, one big family. reallie enjoyed my time in the Boys' Brigade.

Aidan knew what he wanted in life. after poly, he chose to go into commando and of course he got it. seeing my seniors together as a whole really warmed my heart... haha.. well for my batch we are one of the closest too but of course not as close as them.

the last time i saw him was when he came to london to tour wif shen zhi and dingyi. they were gg to france and i was gg to spain and we saw one another in the airport. we din talk much cos we din have alot to talk about in the 1st place. but little did i know that the goodbye that i said was actually the last goodbye that i said to him.

he has gone to another place this morning, singapore time. met into a bike accident. din ask my bro much but it really struck me. life is short but i know that He is always there for us... we have to live life the fullest, live life His way... and most importantly live with no regrets, live with no 'what-ifs'.

to aidan, i know that you are tasting the sweetness of heaven now and you must have seen God's face now.

heavenknows

12:03 AM

I am sooo sad now. cos my left contact lens is torn. dunno how it is torn lahh. sianz.... haizzz. damn suay lahh. think will not buy a new pair le.. maybe till after i graduate den wear again.. but then again that means i cant wear sunglasses le. and i bought 1 pair when i was in poland. sian.

anw, juz found out that star search is coming back again and this weekend is the auditions round. well, for those who dunno, it had been my childhood dream to take part in the competition and i have watched every single one of them from ivy lee's yr all the way to felicia chin's one. and as i grew older the more i told myself i was talented enough to join the competition *ok maybe not the singing segment* hahaha... especially the year when felicia won. i mean i saw her before in vj as she was 1 yr my senior then she managed to win the competition. it juz felt surreal and i told myself that hey i could be like her too. hahaha.... but then again now that i am MOE 的人 already so i have to forgo this dream of mine le.

BUT one of my close frenz is joining the competition. well i have to say that he has the exact same dream as me. i am not gg to name him here but u noe who u are. hahaha. so i told him that he is taking part for both of us not that i wanna stress him. haha and U can sing much better than me anyways.hahaha. so juz have fun and wadever results as long as u did ur best and enjoy the process then it is enough isnt it? hahaha... all the best to you then.. heez.

oh and xian juz came over to cook for us.. tankew! =p cook more often hor. ahhaa. the dinner was great man..

and i almost forgot.. haha. as most of u may know i am a super berms and slippers person. so much so that i always kena scolded by my dad when i wear slippers to orchard blah blah.. hahaha.. anw the point is i am wearing shorts in my room now. and today this girl juz told me that she likes my legs. ahhah damn stunned.. not that i am close to her or anything. this is not the 1st time this happened though.. the 1st time was when i 1st came to imperial den i was in the laundry room and this guy juz told me straight in the face that my knees look strong. wadever that means, ahahha...

heavenknows

7:14 AM

hahahha... i am big time slacker now! wheee.. haha. well, the most difficult question that i have to answer now is when fellow imperialists ask, 'u shiok alrd lah? exams over liao' haha.. cos i dunno how to answer. all i could do was to nod my head and say ya, shiok.. heeez. to those who are still hanging there, keep on hanging k? it ll be over soon.. hahah.

realised something about my weight. i think my weight is super fluctuating all the time. i mean like my weight is always between 70-72kg, fine. but the thing is everytime i went to check my weight the difference of my present weight to the last time i weighed myself is always more than 1kg difference. is there anythng wrong with me? or am i juz being paraniod? haha. i dunno oso....

anyways, i am currently watching a japanese serial called 1 litre of tears. it is based on a true story about this teenage gal had some incurable disease and it is juz damn sad when i watched it. i teared like more than 3 times so far and i just finished watching episode 8. haizz. i recommend all others to watch this show mann. reallie touching. and i find the gal lead quite hot. heez. and i watch it on youtube. and the thing is think only gals comment on the videos cos all the comments were like the doctor is quite hot and no 1 mention about the gal. heez...

oh n juz now i thought i lost some stuff in my room and that propelled to pack up my room. ahaha.. luckily i managed to find them and now need to pack up the remains of my room but i am lazy. maybe do it tmr lahh. hahaha..

juz finished dinner.*burp* dinner was damn good. hahha tankew kengseng... ahhaha... okok back to watch show le..

heavenknows

6:03 AM

woohoo! 300th post in conjunction with the conclusion of my exams!!! hahah..

let me say 1st that these 2 weeks were superrr duper draining. i slept from 8pm-10am this morning. hahah spent only 2hrs plus doing last minute revision. well, it could not have been better. the more i study for the test today, the more time i ll be wasting cos some of the questions were juz weird.

anyways, as of now, i am sick of integrations! 1 more integration for me to do, and i will PUKE. oh! i have also grown my dislike for tanh, sinh ,cosh and all the likes... they are the pain in the ass. the most painful one was when i saw the word SECH in my mechanics test. took 5sec to think wad the hell was that..

so everything is over!!! haha.. now i feel shiok but empty.. even though i have quite a bit of things to do, i still have this dunno-wad-to-do feeling. hahahha..

things to do:

1. pack my room. my clothes are in a mess and it is good to pack up and get ready to go home too! =) my parents will surely shake their head if they see the condition of my drawers and cupboards. hehehe.
2. dota!! haha..so long never play liaoz.. time to start the engine.
3. retail therapy aka shopping!!! but then again not shop for my own stuff cos i got soo many things to buy for other people.. haizz.
4. get out of imperial, south kensington and london... stuck in my room and imperial and hyde park since mid of the easter hols
5. project. hahhaha. note that i put this the last one. hehehhehe.. oh and i got stats! hopefully my mentor doesnt ask me to do something of high order... heezz.

to those who are having exams now/soon, ermmm JIAYOU!! u all can do it de!! 要回家了! hang on man!! =)

heavenknows

11:41 PM

this entry is dedicated to my mum. ermm... cos today is MOTHER'S DAY!! hahaha...

Happppiieeee mother's day!!

but den hor, since mum is working today, how can she be happy rite?? haizzzz... nvm. u wait. wait till the day u see ur son at CHANGI airport den u confirm guarantee PLUS CHOP happy.. uh that day is then happy mother's day lah ok? hehehhehe....

stay happy, ALL OF YOU!! especially the one studying SAT now and waiting to go into army one!! dun be sad k?? ur time has come.. muahhahaha

OH! thought of a riddle last night..

What do you think is the 1st thing that Darius will do when he reaches Singapore?






Ans: Get out of the plane! (even though technically speaking is get out of the seat in the plane) muahhahahahha.....

me is crazy.. 4 more days!! yippe!!

heavenknows

10:33 AM

cool! i am so proud of singapore's maths... ahahahha...

heavenknows

9:10 AM

jonathan mestel

i love u man!! u have never failed to amaze me...

today's paper is mathematical methods. or M1M1 for short (but the whole wold calls it mimi). before the exam, still told ks and fy that i think he will chu stunt in the paper.

well, the whole paper was a stunner!! it was soooo different from past yr papers and soooo difficult. Within that 2 hrs, MILLIONS of brain cells have been killed or successully evaporated as a result. ok lahh, still produced a decent piece of work, IMO. it was sooo draining that i was doing the last part of this question within the last 5 min of the exams... and i still took my own sweet time to do.. could not be bothered already... hahah.

and when he took the paper from me, i felt like asking him,"can i have the permission to slap you?" hahahha...

seriously arrr, i reallie kow-tow to him for having the brain to set such bizzare paper... and like what ks said, once is enough. next time if he is lecturing in any optional modules, we are DEFINITELY not gg to choose his modules... heez.

heavenknows

1:22 AM

hahha... yeah! 1st paper is gone... Analysis!! Yucks.. gone! whopee...
the paper was alright even though the lecturer chu-ed some stunt here and there.

wanted to blog cos this paper was the 1st paper since 27th nov 2003 (i think) hahaha... and i was damn nervous before the paper!! dunno y oso... hahaha. felt the jittery and suddenly the feelings of going for an exam juz came back to me after 3 plus years. but the whole experience was shiok!! hahah...

that paper had 5 questions and it was 2 hr long. within the 1st hr, i had done 4 questions with a lot of blanks within.. hahaha. luckily, within the next hr, the answers juz came to me.. =)

1 down! 7 to go!

heavenknows

12:42 AM

And now the battle begins

cant wait for next thurs! whoppee

heavenknows

2:46 AM

hahah... my dad said my blog entries no meat one. only ramblings. hahaha...
okok.. so now i write moreeee meat. =)

was viewing youtube sometime ago.. (oops) den was watching 康熙来了. they were interviewing the boyband Farenheit. anyways, their songs cannot make it... *and now i m gg to be killed by millions of xiao mei mei* and so they were asking wu zun whether he was still a virgin. he din exactly reply but an idiot wld know that he meant yes. but wad stunned me was 小 S den turned around and asked this guest whether she thought that since wu zun is a virgin does that put him to a disadvantage and deem him as unattractive?

when i heard that question i was SOOO stunned. i mean yes i am still a conservative boy. but i can understand if frenz my age (or even smaller than me) engage with sex. but wth? virgin=unattractive/unwanted goods? hahaha... maybe taiwanese culture is lidat lahh huh..

but i like the gal's reply. she said no. in fact she can teach him more... dotz. hahaha. and den yesterday the same thing happened on cai ming you on another show which i watched. haizzz. to me, i feel that sex is sacred. in fact i am QUITE sure that i ll save it to the marriage night... but dun get me wrong. i may be disappointed if my future wife is not a virgin but i ll not be too bothered by it...

also a few days ago, was reading the papers. came across this article. this sudanese guy was caught having sex with a goat. and it is their tradition that if they are caught having sex with any woman, they have to marry the woman. so this drunk guy forked out some money to buy the goat and marry her.. hahhaha.. and now the goat is dead and they call him a widower. ahhaha. damn farnie. could not stop laughing when i saw the article.

anyways, i was studying in the library from 9pm 2 nights ago. and i studied till very shiok so i studied till 6am... and the sun rose at 5am. *the sun here rises at 5am and sets at 9pm now* and then i went back to sleep. and i was reminded of my army days!!! hahah.. can still remember those days at pasir laba camp guarding those signal sets and sleeping beside them.. hahhah.. can still remember that we the old birds all volunteered for the night shifts cos the day shift got those damn ugly and unreasonable officers... ahhah. and at night those big shots go home liaoz, so at night nothing much will happen also, so we can sleep! =) ya juz suddenly rem those days especially when i saw the sky suddenly turned blue... heez.

heavenknows

2:19 AM

等。
这个字眼有十二个笔画。
而这十二个笔画却画出了不少涵义。

等可以分为两种。
一，你晓得你在等待着什么。
二，你等待的结果是个未知数，又或许你自己也不知道你在等待着什么。

既然结果只有一个，该来的总回来，那等这个字眼就只有那么肤浅吗？
不是的。因为上帝给了人类一份美丽的礼物。
这礼物就叫做感情。
也就是这份感情给予等待一种难以捉摸的感触。

等代表着期待，憧憬与希望。
它也可以代表着痛苦与悲伤。
例如，你犯了错儿等待着惩罚，又或许败给了病魔，而正等待着时间。
然而，最惨的却是绝望的等待。
遇到了关卡，但又不肯接受现实，所以痴痴地等。

所以我们应该以怎样的心态去等待呢？
难道你宁愿受到时间的折腾，还是害怕结果而活着提心吊胆的生活吗？
我才不会。
妈曾经告诉过我要以光的方向活着，过着美好的人生。
这个光芒也给予我温暖与微笑，好让我勇敢地，开心地等待着。
你呢？

hahahah... suddenly felt like writing this down. thought of it last night as i was sleeping. and yes i miss home. hahahah...

heavenknows

1:00 AM

life is boring now. cant wait for exams to start and finish... hahaha.. that explains the few entries these few days.

anw, wanted to about my dream last night. last night was the 1st night in london where i had such vivid dreams about singapore. i dreamt about my neighbourhood. dreamt that i was behind the steering wheel. heartland mall, the sand, the hot sun and ALOT ALOT of pple.. especially those pple whom i have not talked to for a very long time. u all juz suddenly appeared in my dream.

and i refused to wake up this morning. how i wished i could stay in my dreams longer. i woke up with a smile.

it is this smile that will accompany me in and out of the examination hall for the next 2 weeks. realised that i have come to london and left my family and frenz behind. all i have to do is to do u all a justice by doing what i am supposed to do and that is to do well in my exams. in fact that is the only thing that i can do for u pple. (yah lahh, i know lahh, GIFTS rite? ahhaha)

7 months have passed. have to say that there were times that i missed home but the feelings werent that strong... but now the day is coming and i juz cant wait to go home... hahaha. really felt like i am gg to ord soon!!!

-this gal in my hall is the bestest lah. next week exam alrd still asked me for notes to photocopy. if u do well n ur exams hor i reallie got nothing to say-

heavenknows

3:24 AM