soaking in the singapore environment and i am feeling shiok now even if it is juz rotting at home. met up with some frenz over the weekend while the weekdays were mostly spent at home. haiz.. i think this holiday is reallie quite a bad timing. the gals all have internships and the guys have ict. sianzz..

but i am so excited on going to the malaysia trip with my army pals. muahahha...

oh and the car plates are until SGV now!! it is like how fast they changed the letters lahh. it shows that more people have bought cars recently juz within the span of 9 months. sorry arh, i am indeed sua ku here. haha.

met up wif sj and jan yesterday too. really enjoyed their company. =p but what struck me was during the conversation when i told them some stuff and then i realised that in my life i use my head to do my work, in my studies and analyse some important stuff. other than that, i have been using my heart to lead my life. that explains why i am so idealistic. and jan said something like your head can control your heart.

maybe thats why i am not so goal-striven. i dun care whether i climb to the highest rung of MOE in the future or whether i ll be rich. i define success in this area to be able to make positive changes in my students' life be it directly when i am a teacher or indirectly if my policies or decisions affect them in one way or another. money wise, i dun have to be filthy rich and i juz need to lead a comfortable life. i know the definition of this word 'comfortable' is very very broad but let me put it this way, i ll choose more children over money. not that i want my wife to be a making-babies-machine =)

and i juz realised that the above paragraph makes me sound like i am super super pro-government. hahaha.

BUT i have to admit that results in school are very important to me. i mean which singaporean student isnt rite? hahahaha...

and about other mudane stuff, i use my heart to think too much, change emotions like breathing every micro-second etc.

okok dunno why i had that thought too. how much of heart should i use and to what extent should i let my head do the work?

maybe i think too much again! cos this is maybe still the old darius whom haven changed or for the fact that i am able to think like this means that i am using more of my head. hahahahaa....

think i am starting to talk rubbish. it doesnt help that it is 2am now. =p

Oh! wanna thank God for pulling me out of the battalion man. cos some of my army frenz aka duane, zg, wl etc are in the battalion. and they are in the some uluated camp now for their ICT. and they were complaining that it is super xiong. wells, wad to expect from a battalion whom have won best battalion of the year. sianz. feel sad for them and relieved for myself. u all jiayou k! 1 cycle down le! =p

gg to bed le. agenda for tmr? teaching my bro physics in the hope that he will at least pass the paper. i ll be relieved if he gets C or D.

heavenknows

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