everytime i want to blog, i will have alot of things in mind. but once i see the blank screen in front of me, my mind will go blank too and in the end my entry will not be what i intend it to be.
anyways, want to blog about the freak bus accident that happened last week near my house. i was overwhelmed that day when i walked past the scene. saw the body lying on the floor with a white cloth covering his body and his bag flung a distance away from him. was even overwhelmed when my mum told me that the deceased was actually my schoolmate's brother.
life is juz so fragile man. also maybe i am too sensitive but this month i came across more accidents or wakes at HDB void decks. Just last night, I saw a crashed motorbike on the expressway too. life is too fragile to be taken for granted. and the thing is as i passed by his wake, there was this day where i saw his frenz were there to pay their last respects. and then i saw them crying. my heart felt for them and i felt like crying too! even though i dun even know how he looked like nor do i know his name.
anw, i am proud to say that i had managed to unlock a certain struggle that i had for quite some time le. so happy that my heart can finally beat wildly, full of energy and zest. no longer does my heart feels waned or drained. heez...
oh, let me digress. i feel that i look damn ugly! only when i laugh den i look sooo much better.. ahhahaha... but thats really how i feel. maybe thats y people say i look photogenic on photos only!! hahha
there was one incident which reminded me what haojun told us in prague. he said that in OCS, during survival training, his officer told him that due to survival instinct, if u are stranded in the island with no food, u will end up killing people around you to eat their meat and survive. it is the survival of the fittest and whoever the stronger gets to live. and this includes killing your loved ones. hj said he doesnt rule out that possibilty should that arises. but i reallie shuddered when the thought came to my mind. i mean in today's context, i can daresay that i will never kill anyone let alone eat up my own wife. but who is know given the real situation wad will happen rite? however, i thought about it before and the best outcome that i could think of was cuddling and hugging my wife together till we die. =p
went for UK bound on thursday. it was held at butter factory. it was quite a success and being a greenhorn in clubbing i quite enjoyed myself lahh.. anw felt paiseh for dragging von, pk, weilin and clarence down. den von wanted to dance like reallll badly but the people there were all socialising and networking so the dance floor was empty. it was only after quite a while where people started to dance. so i felt quite bad.
going back to london in 20 odd days. i think i am really excited to go back. cos this time around i am staying with my good friends and the unknown atmosphere of staying with them makes the whole thing exciting. also, i ll like to try out different things and venture different stuff to get different experience.
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