I have lost something which was solely mine. I could not even protect it with all my might. I may be making a mountain out of a molehill but that doesnt stop me from feeling disappointed. Surprised? no. cos i know this day will come and so i am very very irritated.

Ignorance is blissed but I am no longer ignorant and so I am not blissed. i am feeling sorry not for myself but for the whole situation. have been thinking if there was a teeny bit chance that i would not have lose it yet could not think of any.

guess i am learning something new. something which i gained from it. about the idealistic world i think i am living in. yet the world is soooo real and complex. (*grinning at all mathematics students*)

BUT

Mark 4:35-40 (English Standard Version)

On that day, when evening had come, he said to them, "Let us go across to the other side." And leaving the crowd, they took him with them in the boat, just as he was. And other boats were with him. And a great windstorm arose, and the waves were breakng into the boat, so that the boat was already filling. But he was in the stern, asleep on the cushion. And they woke him and said to him, "Teacher, do you not care that we are perishing?"

And he awoke and rebuked the wind and said to the sea, "Peace! Be still!" And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. He said to them, "Why are you so afraid? Have you still no faith?"

I have faith with Him and I know that He is there for me. and so, I should rejoice! =p

heavenknows

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