THIS WHOLE ENTRY IS FOR YOU! hahaha.

dun get me wrong. actually i had wanted to blog this le after the previous entry, and not because u bugged me to do it in my chatterbox. hahhaa. knew you would have said something lidat, was juz waiting for it. ahhahahaa.

really wanna thank gy lorz. he is my bestest buddy in camp, as in really bestest buddy. hahaah. can say that he can understand me really well. we have telepathic skills ba. similar characteristics help too ba i guess. rem both of us who are that kind who once blow up, ll yi1 fa1 bu4 ke3 shou1 shi4 kind. hahahhahhaha.

he has shared a lot of stuff with me, be it snacks or his life etc. really hope that we ll not lose contact after we ord. act i m not dat afraid cos i think we wunt. hahhaha.

frenz forever............ :p

heavenknows

8:47 AM

the year is finally coming to an end. Yeah! cant wait for 2006 cos dats when i am leaving the dreaded organisation and going back to books. seriously, i will prefer books anytime to that organisation. haahhaa. going to be 20 le. hmm..

actually, being in the army is not all bad. these 2 years really made me slow down my pace and not to be in the rat race. had thought about many things. thought about what i really want in the future. thought about what kind of person i really am and how i want to change.

really cherish the people around me even those who i have lost contact. you all have moulded and created the DARIUS you all have seen today. I am quite happy with my present state but dunno whether u all are not. hahhahhha. u all have brought laughter and hope into my life.

it is in these 2 years when i realise i am a people-oriented person. as in hard core people-oriented. haahha. reallie care about people around me. for those who are cynical about this and say, wa Darius made himself sound so noble, seriously buzz off. i m nt being noble here but my mood is dependent on people around me. hahaha.

went to thailand twice and taiwan once. dare say that i bonded more with the people working with me. really thankful for making my trips so pleasant and forget all unpleasant ones.

then remember the times when we help to usher and take care of the SYF competitions. hahaha. so fun! dun need to back to camp somemore. can still remember how impressed Marcus and shao peng were as I was controlling those kids before and after their competitions. ahahahha. i am going to be a teacher lehz, of course la. hahaha. can also how we plus gy, duane etc. will condemn this particular snobbish boys school. hahhaha.

then wanna thank my bunk mates too. they are the ones who make the bunk so lively. always got a lot of things to say. den always share alot of stuff with one another. our bunk is forever so messy n untidy. hahhahah. but we dun care! used to be an early sleeper but my bunk mates are the ones who train me to sleep late in the night. hahah. i nt complaing here, dun get me wrong! hahahahhah....

chay beng, hope u enjoy america too! hahha. visit mi nxt yr k? haha

reallie glad to meet up wif my frenz. the vs bb people. really glad that after all these years we are still in contact. cant forget the saturdays doing parades and playing carrom etc etc.. hahaa

my class people. thanks for celebrating my bdae fer mi this year. reallie touched. thanks andrew. but still din see some people fer very long time le.
melvin - u leaving fer austr le hor? muz meet him before he leaves

of cos how can forget the ct council people. reallie glad that we are still in contact. always laughing and joking and playing bridge and suanin yvonne. hahhaa. den the gals sometimes oso gal power and suan mi or clare. but of cos the tripartite still e best. hahhahaha...

plus some other frenz who i cant categorize u all la.

like shijin hor. reallie hope u n jan can be like the ending of each fairy tale - living happily ever after.

den still got janinicia, ah boi n ping. even though know u all for like less than a month but we can click very well... hope can still keep in contact. :p

still got... haiz if i leave u out, i m so sorry. cos i really dunno who i miss out in such a short period of time. hahaaha. drop mi a hint and i will definitely write sth de. haha.

heavenknows

9:18 PM

contemplated very long before writing this entry. din really want to share with the loyal people coming to view my blog but i need something to pen my thoughts n feelings down so here goes.....

part of my mind has been in turmoil for since goodness know when. dun look at mi always in cheerful mood n sharing joy to people around me, but i feel upset sometimes. cos of the same thing.

yeah. i agree i think too much sometimes. i know that my intuitions n feelings are leading me to nowhere. but i still carry on to think n feel. y? i oso dunno. God give all of us a brain n a heart each. maybe mine muz always be active.

it may be my fault that i not proactive enough. and i noe the chinese saying tian1 shi3 di4 li4 ren2 he2. but.....

i had wanted to let it go. really let it go and carry on life as usual. but every time i wanted to do it, there ll be signs from heaven to not let go. n when dat happens, there ll be signs from hell to ask mi to let go. life is such a paradox.

maybe they are not even signs. i think too much. i feel what i want to feel. i dunno.
i m not blaming any1 here. such things happen as it comes.

Time is a healer. but TIme and tide waits for no man. Time is such a double-edged sword. maybe i need time. i had no idea wad i shld do to seek happiness in this area and now i still dont.

can only wait lor.
but dun worry frenz. u all have been a great bunch of pple to make mi forget abt it sometimes, n i am really grateful. n to some of my bunk mates who noe my situation. tks to u all too. hahahaha.

n not to worry, i will always cheer u all up as and when u all need me. hahahahha.

really.

heavenknows

5:07 PM

wanna thank mi bro, darren for giving mi bdae prez. quite shocked cos this is the 1st yr he actually bought something for mi. hahah. really touched, n even though he din even bother to take out the price tag, haiz at least it is the thought that counts la. hahahhaa.

really glad to have 2 reallie interesting bros. darren, who is in poly now, sometimes can get me on my nerves. make me boil n later apologise in a bu gan yan manner. ahhahaha. n hurling obsceneties at each other has been the practise since goodness noe when? juz hope that he ll do well in his poly and not fail a 2nd time like how he did fer his Os.

haiz. even though we dun reallie share things among us, i still feel close n connected to them. hahhaahha.... brothers forever.. :p

heavenknows

5:01 PM

Darius, your true color is Yellow!

You're yellow, the color of joy and energy — two things you definitely bring to everyone around you. It's hard for anyone to be sad or lonely in your presence; your sunny disposition and cheery outlook just won't allow it. The warmth of your personality shines through in the kindness you show friends and family (and strangers, too). Always ready with a lighthearted joke or heartfelt compliment, you know how to make people feel good about themselves, so they can't get enough of you. Yellow is a warm and inviting color for a warm and inviting person — you!


lol... how true is it? well, i think u guys are in better positions to say than me.

heavenknows

3:57 PM

MARCUS sent me this over the email. felt that it is quite funny. cant stop laughing. enjoy!



Chu Kang ( PCK ) explaining sex to Chu Beng's son, Aloysius.........

Aloy : Why is making love so enjoyable ?

PCK : Aiyah, ah boy, enjolable becaws, same like when you dig yournose with your finger mah !

Aloy : Do you think women enjoy sex more than men?

PCK : Of course woman lah! When you dig dig your nose, your nose feelbetter than your finger, right?

Aloy : Why do women hate it when they get raped ?

PCK : Ai-yah! Say, you walk along the load, den someone come over anddig your nose, you like or not ? Ehhh ? Don't pray pray ah !

Aloy : Why is it a woman cannot have sex when she is having her menses?

PCK : Oy!! If your nose bleeding, you still go and dig meh?? Siao ah!Use your blain, use your blainnn ..........

Aloy : Why is it most men don't like wearing condoms when they aremaking love ?

PCK : Ehhhh, when you dig your nose ah, you like to dig with a gloveon your finger or not? Not the same shiok feeling mah. Corlight ornot?

Aloy : Why is making love carried out in private ?

PCK : Ah boyyyyy, use your blain, use yourblainnnnn............................. you go and dig your nose inflont of your whole class izit?? Stupid lah!!

Aloy : Wah...... Uncle Chu Kang, you are very good.
PCK : Aiyah...... ," Best in Singapore, JB, some say Batam, and now,the whole world!" also ah, pass it 2 ur fren.....& let them laugh outloud....

heavenknows

7:16 PM

yeah. xmas is coming but i dun feel anything about it. maybe because of the things happening around me or maybe because is the same every year.

remember when i was young, i was so looking forward to xmas n CNY. but now not anymore. but dun worry, i ll always look forward to my birthday! hahahahhaha.

juz found out that i scratched my dad's car AGAIN. aarrrgggghhh. now i have the phobia of driving le la. juz got lashing from him. -not again- think my grandad is going to nag at me too tmr when i see him. feel damn bad haiz. tink i ll pay for the repair ba.

very grateful for my mum. she actually remembered my chinese birthday which was on wed. she was very, very busy but she still found the time to include red dye to the eggs for me to eat. even though it doesnt take much time n effort, i m still touched.

going to pariss to eat later. better be nice man! it is like how ex! but never mind la at least i dun slpurge quite often. but i already splurged on steph sun's concert last month. damn. haiz. blame it on dec. this is the month to spend.... :)

heavenknows

10:13 AM

muz thank clare for organising n booking the chalet. was supposed to be an outing for the ct councillors. but attendance quite sad. in the end only our click-cum- stone table people and a few others came.

but nevertheless, we had fun! clare brought along his sis n cousins. felt that they r really nice to talk to n play with. clare led us to pasir ris park n we had to walk all the way to the chalet. clare, i not blaming u here, ya. hahahha. really.

anyway, taught xinping, ye sheng n janicia how to play mj n bridge. influence the young kids man! hahaha. i kept bullying ye sheng cos he has that cheeky face. hahhaahahha.

n yiwen intro a stupid game with poker cards. it was something like heart attack. n i really almost had a heart attack. not a game for the faint-hearted. ye sheng also looked like he was going to die le. but at least we dun drink milo-coffee-peach tea-lemontea- water 5in 1 drink. hahaha, thank u weilin for helping us.

my ass is still hurting now. cycled fer 2 hrs. din cycle fer a long time le n the last time i learnt cycled was when i finally learnt how to cycle. haha. was struggling a bit ytd. can only say that i have a big butt. =)

e best moment was when we rented the mj table n den we juz stopped to gaze the stars. n out of the blue, marcus pulled, dragged n pushed yvonne into e pool. hahhahaha. but yvonne threw her slipper from the pool n hit me in the stomach. was so dark n cld not see that darn slipper. hmpk. hahha.

anyway, really glad to know the 3 youngsters. (wait, i m young too!)
ye sheng, if u r reading this, stop playing, flirting and start studying for ur Os next year. :)

heavenknows

11:56 PM

YEAH... block leave loh! so happy. had been waiting for this moment for goodness know when.

n e happier thing is ORD LOH. haahha. soon la soon.

so happy that i am crapping now. lallalallala.

cant wait for:

chalet
lunch at paris with my bunk people
making contact n new pair of specs
stephanie sun's concert
christmas
MY BDAE :P
PINK IC
someone

hahahhaha. yeah!

read the blog again. i noe i shld not be reading it, but still cant help to go n look. everytime i look at it, i feel lost n sad. but i juz cant help but to read. i admire this particular person for being so frank, so... not me.

haiz. everything juz leave to God, that is. dunno whether i am going to plunge again like last year. so useless.. haiz.

k, negative thoughts away. vent enough le. yeah! chalet here i come! hahha.

heavenknows

12:16 PM

must thank u man! for designing and changing my blog skin. hahah. well, he has been bothering me to change it. so here's a new 1! all thanks to u man.

took this picture in taiwan in our bunk. can still remember that day, when gideon accidently deleted all of gy photos. gy was so sad and he wanted to take pictures after that. dunno y i thought of taking that picture. ANYWAY, THAT TOWEL IS NOT MINE! hor, luah? hahhaa.

actually, wanted to tell u guys that...

HOPEFULLY, MI PICTURE LL REMIND U TO BE OPTIMISTIC AT ALL TIMES. OR WHEN U ARE FEELING LOW, LOOK AT MY PIC AND LAUGH IT OFF. I M SERIOUS. when u guys tell me enough is enough, then i ll change it. i m not trying to be narccistic ( i noe spellin wrong) here ya.

oh ya, also wanted to tell u wad happened 2 weeks ago.

was at LOT 1 with my friends for nights off. then i was shitting in the toilet. while shitting, i was playing with my handphone. i heard this boy who was shouting for some relative in the toilet. however, the next thing i know, he lay on his back, baby crawled and looked into my cubicle. I WAS SO STUNNED! i just gave him hard, cold stares for 1 minute long. and he was so scared that he stared back for a while, screamed, cried and ran out of toilet. hahahahhaa. that was so cute! but anyway, ya nowadays kids must be disciplined more.

din know that my stares are so lethal. muahahhahaa.

heavenknows

5:25 PM

recently, have been feeling a little low. because of some reasons.

firstly, some asshole spoilt my mood at the start of the week. but luckily, like to thank rayner and gy for talking to me about it. i felt much better after that. really kudos to u guys.

secondly, read one of the blogs. made me feel quite sad. really, really dunno wad i shld do. yeah.

thirdly, just found out that one guy in my camp just passed away in some accident.

1 minute silence.

dunno really know this guy. but feel sad. life is so short. God gives us our lives and we dunno when they ll be taken away from us.

all i can say is live your life to fullest and no regrets.
believe in God.

however, i know that my all-time low will be better in time to come. optimistic is the key. cant wait for 1 more week and then hols!

heavenknows

5:15 PM

Another week where i could not go home on a Fri night. I had just come back from an exercise from Tekong. was appointed to be a driver around that island. finally knew how tiring drivers could be. when superior says go at anytime, anywhere, poor me will have to drive.

next week got another exercise. quite sian since these few weeks are the busiest weeks of the year, i bet. 1 more week where i cant go home on a fri.

felt quite angry n sad for zegui. he did nothing wrong but as SHIT ROLLS DOWN N GETS BIGGER, the superiors are just good at meting out punishments n shirking responsiblites. dunno y i felt so angry since i was not involved. the extent of my anger was so much so as to knock on that ugliset door in the office and lashed out at him. but tolerance is the key word now if i want to get my MR PINK next april.

happy that i am watching stefanie sun concert in jan! yeah! most expensive tix that i have ever bought and no i am not those kinds of super hard-core fans to buy the most or more expensive tix. as long as near enough to see her pimples can liao. juz kidding la... hahaha.

heavenknows

9:29 AM