hahaha.. this is wad victorian spirit is all about. time in vj was happening, never boring and soo fun to be at! heez. and of all places this video had to be taken in the toilet. muahhaha

heavenknows

5:38 AM

不知道为了什么忧愁它围绕著我
我每天都在祈祷快赶走爱的寂寞

你要我听这一首歌用这首歌离开我
她唱的太美了歌词却很伤人
你为什么不直接提分手

爱人的话不需要重轻轻的说我就懂
接你的车来了表示爱到站了
我站在十字路口对抗心痛一个人

你的黑发现在睡进谁的胸口
你的唇现在跟谁要温柔
一开始你爱我最后你放弃我
还要用千言万语说得委屈你有多难过

爱牢牢抓紧我恨深深包围我
你要我为你好快赶走爱的寂寞

爱人的话不需要重轻轻的说我就懂
接你的车来了表示爱到站了
我站在十字路口对抗心痛一个人

你的黑发现在睡进谁的胸口
你的唇现在跟谁要温柔
一开始你爱我最后你放弃我
还要用千言万语说得委屈你有多难过

爱牢牢抓紧我恨深深包围我
你要我为你好快赶走爱的寂寞

爱牢牢抓紧我恨深深包围我
你要我为你好快赶走爱的寂寞

fell in love this song the moment i heard it. youjia really has a magnetic voice that brings u into the emotions of the song. the lyrics are not that hard to understand yet it is so powerful and meaningful.

hope that i will never have to go through this kind of emotions in my life =)

hope that you will like this song as much as I do. enjoy!

heavenknows

6:19 AM

if the date difference of the latest entry and the 2nd latest one is a huge one, then either it means that there is nothing much going on in his life and hence nothing to write about or it may also mean that there is sooo much going on in his life but he has no time to update.

sadly, i belong to the 1st case. hahaha...

erm... i am finally perfoming in the singsoc major event OUR ISLAND LAH! hahha... i was roped in due to the fact that i was dancing VJ mass dance during the Chinese New Year carnival. Then Youcai and Jingzhi were staring at me after that, and i know i gone case liao. hahha. ok lah, retro dancing has few steps to remember. hopefully i will be able to master and bring out the intended flavour. anw, i saw and practised the whole dance segment today. it is by far the CHEEKIEST dance i have ever danced in my life. not that i have danced for my whole life either. =)

oh and i got my exam timetable today. i end on the 20th May!! hahaha.. thats quite early and i am so happy. hee. but got 2papers on 1 day, think i will konk out after 5days of 6papers consecutively. so my heart goes out to someoneS who have 4/5 papers in 3 days. ahhaha... anyway, to yvonne, ahha ur prayer worked! i really end on that day and haizzz that means that i have to play host to u and ur fren when u come here liao. hahahahha...

still remember last year, after 7 papers, i was soooo drained that i could not study for my last paper. i slept at 8pm the night before and i woke up at around 10plus the next morning. my paper was at 2pm. hahahha.. luckily the module was easy to understand but i got a B for it. hahaha. but if it happens this year again, i will confirm die cos the last paper is the module which i hate the most. in fact i think that is the only module that i am hating now. roarrr. hahaha.

cant wait to go back to singapore. haha. as in whenever i go back to singapore, i will feel like i am charging up my energy for my time in london. dunno why, this year my energy goes down so fast. maybe i know that i am going back to singapore earlier so i used my energy in excess and not as sparingly as last year (*beaming at the chemistry students*).

anw, me is watching 公主小妹 now. the plot may be alittle trashy but it is reallie a feel-good show. and sometimes i think i can identify to wu zun in the show. i am not saying here that i am as good-looking as him or i have a bod as hot as his. hahah my skin not that thick. but anyway, can really relate to the character in the show. maybe thats wad attract me to the show.

kkiez.. have been staring at the screen for some time not knowing wad to write liao. juz wanna sign off here by asking everyone part of the major event to JIAYOU. dun be stressed by it. enjoy the whole process and enjoy the company of the fellow singaporeans around us. everything will fall into place nicely de. =)

arghh.. juz realised that i think that i sprained my knee or something. i cant squat at all if not my right leg will hurt alot!!

heavenknows

8:01 AM

hahahahha... i cannot stop laughing now.

please ignore my last entry. it was an emo entry written in the heat of the moment and no i did not lose my virginity! hahahha. sorrie to frenz out there who have been speculating and thinking about it. it is nothing serious reallie. =p

anyways, today in afternoon lecture, i was sooo drained that i was just like a robot copying my notes. i wasnt physically tired and so i could not sleep then. that kind of feeling sucks. it was in fact the 1st time when i wanted to go to the gym to run to wake myself up, which i did!

was doing my coursework on sunday. spent the whole day literally to try and solve a 12-mark question. by evening i was quite demoralised already with all the chunks of messy equations. clarice was looking at my working and then i just said

reallie hate all those ugly things (referring to the ugly maths workings), thats why i cant possibly hate myself.

ahhahaha... oh! i am stuck at www.viwawa.com. hahha... it has online mahjong! for someone in london now whose hands get itchy quite often, online mahjong is there for me!! muahahha....

cant wait for this term to end. singapore here i come!!

heavenknows

1:25 AM

I have lost something which was solely mine. I could not even protect it with all my might. I may be making a mountain out of a molehill but that doesnt stop me from feeling disappointed. Surprised? no. cos i know this day will come and so i am very very irritated.

Ignorance is blissed but I am no longer ignorant and so I am not blissed. i am feeling sorry not for myself but for the whole situation. have been thinking if there was a teeny bit chance that i would not have lose it yet could not think of any.

guess i am learning something new. something which i gained from it. about the idealistic world i think i am living in. yet the world is soooo real and complex. (*grinning at all mathematics students*)

BUT

Mark 4:35-40 (English Standard Version)

On that day, when evening had come, he said to them, "Let us go across to the other side." And leaving the crowd, they took him with them in the boat, just as he was. And other boats were with him. And a great windstorm arose, and the waves were breakng into the boat, so that the boat was already filling. But he was in the stern, asleep on the cushion. And they woke him and said to him, "Teacher, do you not care that we are perishing?"

And he awoke and rebuked the wind and said to the sea, "Peace! Be still!" And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. He said to them, "Why are you so afraid? Have you still no faith?"

I have faith with Him and I know that He is there for me. and so, I should rejoice! =p

heavenknows

6:00 AM

I am soooo tired now. practically stuck in school for yesterday and today to do the stupid coursework. allow me to whine and bitch a little.

this coursework is part of the differential equation module that i am taking now and there are a total of 3 courseworks altogether. these amount to 10% of the module. oh did i mention that i am taking 8modules for the whole year? so ya do your maths and you will realise that this coursework is sooo teeeny weeeny in terms of percentage of my overall mark.

yet it is 43pages long of the output of this wonderfully-created maple programme. and i was so fed up that i did not even complete every single thing that is asked of me. well, left out abit here and there. there are soo many things to do all for the little percentage.

but then again, thats the sad thing about students. all we care for is the grades when we are doing the assignments and the exams. but we do not really care whether we understand the subject matter anot. thats singapore education for you IMO. so i am trying hard to like wadever i am learning right now. but still quite hard lahh..

i can so imagine my dad asking me to bite the bullet and to suck thumb cos life is like that. hahahha.

anyway, this coursework is considered to be history and it will be like 2 weeks later before another assignment comes in for us to do! let me breathe more during these 2 weeks plus. ahaha.

better things to mention:

ermm... just realised today that dayung sampan has the same tune as 甜蜜蜜. i bet u all dunno rite? in fact i also dunno until joshua pointed it out. =)

oh!! it is proven from the gym weighing machine that i weigh the same as the last time i weighed! but i am told that my face is rounder and like wad daryl says, i look like a daogay (beansprout). haizzz. even i myself have to admit that my face is rounder! however i am not fatter than before Har! lol... sighz.

kkiez my eyes are going to shut really really soon. this is the reflection of the amount of work i put in. =) need to write the conclusion for the coursework before going to bed. oh did i say that the coursework is history liao? darn.. soon lah soon by tmr 2pm it will officially be history.

heavenknows

7:37 AM

I am bored so here i am again!

haizzz....

when the whole of singapore is visiting relatives and friends for Chinese New year, i am sleeping on my bed.

when my 2 brothers are receiving angbaos and eating bak kwa and pineapple tarts, i am playing chess with 周公.

when the whole of singapore is going to have dinner on the 1st day of Chinese new year, i am in school having lessons.

when the whole of singapore has 4 days to celebrate CNY, i have to hand in assignment on Monday which means i will be stuck in the computer lab for some period of my time.

saddddd.....

kk lunch break is over need to go to school for lessons liao.
are you guys playing balackjack and/or mahjong now?

sadddddd.....

heavenknows

9:37 PM

gong xi fa cai!!

*burp*

haha... it is 230am now and yet i am still very very full from dinner. that is the problem with steamboats. before the steamboat everything seemed not enough but once we have started eating, we realised that there were too much food.

*burpppp*

and the worst part (or rather the best part) we had chocolate fondue for dessert!! fruits are healthy but when they are dipped in chocolate are they healthy anymore? teehee.... there were too much fruits and we had to play zong ji mi ma to clear the fruits. my stomach was soo full until whenever i laugh i will get stomach cramp... hahahah...

plus i am GUILTY! of eating too much and i am FATter... must go and exercise more. in the past the weather was too cold for me to be more active. (hahaha.... excuse) but anyways, my stupid brothers just insulted me over skype. especially darren..

"ehh kor.. put your face nearer to the screen.. nearer.. nearer lahh.. hahah your face takes up the whole screen! hahahha"

roarrrrr.... i will do something to it! (erm.. my body i mean) hahahaha.

i have digressed too much.


just wanted to say
GONG XI FA CAI! may the year be full of blessings, joy and peace!

heavenknows

10:29 AM

农历新年又来临了。
然而心情没有因此而热腾起来。
那种童年时的兴奋与欢乐究竟跑到哪里去了？
人在他乡，随遇而安，更谈不上什么佳节的气氛。
只求除夕的团员饭会是丰富的，并且充满着喜悦。

开学也有四周了。
多么希望时间可以瞬间般的溜走。
不要误会，我在这里的生活也没有什么可以挑的。
这里的朋友也增添了我人生的色彩。

可能是在功课上找不到以前的那种热诚吧。
记得从小学，中学，甚至到了高中，我对数学的热诚是无庸置疑的。
但是这份热诚已像气球飞入蓝蓝的天空。
还好，有些科目还蛮有趣的。我相信这份热诚还是找得回的。

猪年已要告一段落了。
我们也只好认了吧。老了。哈哈。
牛年即将来临了。两轮的十二年也要过了。
回想起着二十多年的生活，也没有什么好遗憾的。
真的要感谢上帝，给予我一个如此美好的生活。

就此祝大家过个幸福的一年。要带着微笑与关怀度过每一天。

heavenknows

12:56 AM