there was campus superstar last night and i was soooo disappointed with the results last night. I have to admit that the departure of the 13yr-old boy was due to lack of sms-es which i have to play a part in cos i din vote for him to ENSURE that he will be in the competition.

but what i want to say is about how this whole thing works. guohao the other guy who sang really horribly last night and only managed a 16.5 mark from the judges while the other guys got a 21.5/22 mark. and shawn has been in the limelight since the audition rounds for impressing everyone who went to hear the auditions. he also scored the highest of 24mark in the 1st round. so what went wrong?

guohao's supporters thought that with such a dismay result, they will have to vote ALOT alot to keep him in the competition while shawn's supporters will think that since he got soo many supporters and guohao will sure to be out so there is no need for them to vote and so this outcome. this is how the game works isnt it?

but shawn will be in after the revival round again, that i am quite sure since his supporters will have a wake-up call.

oh wanted to say abt last night when i watched the results show. the way desmond koh said before the results were released i guessed that shawn would have been eliminated and boy was i right. spot on!

was quite impressed at the gal joanna who sang the difficult song BU TONG from angela zhang.

heavenknows

12:00 PM

soaking in the singapore environment and i am feeling shiok now even if it is juz rotting at home. met up with some frenz over the weekend while the weekdays were mostly spent at home. haiz.. i think this holiday is reallie quite a bad timing. the gals all have internships and the guys have ict. sianzz..

but i am so excited on going to the malaysia trip with my army pals. muahahha...

oh and the car plates are until SGV now!! it is like how fast they changed the letters lahh. it shows that more people have bought cars recently juz within the span of 9 months. sorry arh, i am indeed sua ku here. haha.

met up wif sj and jan yesterday too. really enjoyed their company. =p but what struck me was during the conversation when i told them some stuff and then i realised that in my life i use my head to do my work, in my studies and analyse some important stuff. other than that, i have been using my heart to lead my life. that explains why i am so idealistic. and jan said something like your head can control your heart.

maybe thats why i am not so goal-striven. i dun care whether i climb to the highest rung of MOE in the future or whether i ll be rich. i define success in this area to be able to make positive changes in my students' life be it directly when i am a teacher or indirectly if my policies or decisions affect them in one way or another. money wise, i dun have to be filthy rich and i juz need to lead a comfortable life. i know the definition of this word 'comfortable' is very very broad but let me put it this way, i ll choose more children over money. not that i want my wife to be a making-babies-machine =)

and i juz realised that the above paragraph makes me sound like i am super super pro-government. hahaha.

BUT i have to admit that results in school are very important to me. i mean which singaporean student isnt rite? hahahaha...

and about other mudane stuff, i use my heart to think too much, change emotions like breathing every micro-second etc.

okok dunno why i had that thought too. how much of heart should i use and to what extent should i let my head do the work?

maybe i think too much again! cos this is maybe still the old darius whom haven changed or for the fact that i am able to think like this means that i am using more of my head. hahahahaa....

think i am starting to talk rubbish. it doesnt help that it is 2am now. =p

Oh! wanna thank God for pulling me out of the battalion man. cos some of my army frenz aka duane, zg, wl etc are in the battalion. and they are in the some uluated camp now for their ICT. and they were complaining that it is super xiong. wells, wad to expect from a battalion whom have won best battalion of the year. sianz. feel sad for them and relieved for myself. u all jiayou k! 1 cycle down le! =p

gg to bed le. agenda for tmr? teaching my bro physics in the hope that he will at least pass the paper. i ll be relieved if he gets C or D.

heavenknows

1:49 AM

me is back in singapore! haha..

i hate packing and moving stuff!! hopefully i get to stay the same place in year 3. and i packed my duvet 2 days earlier, so i slept in the cold for 2 nights.

anw, the last few days clarence and kelvin came over to stay with us cos they had nowhere to stay le and they are in france now... they all arr travelled sooo many places ziyang also. not that i am jealous cos i want to go back to singapore too.. aahah...

my luggage cannot be moved properly so that kinda sucked. in the end, i used sainsbury trolley to move to the tube station.. ahaha and i left it there much to many people dismay.. we were desperate le so we juz left the tube station asap.. hahaha.

in the plane, finished watching The Holiday and played alot of stupid games. i refused to sleep too much, scared i will get jet-lag which i am proud to say that i did not really suffer from it. let me talk abit about anti -jetlag. due to the cold 2 nights, i din sleep well and in the plane i only slept for like 5hrs, it made me quite tired when i got off the plane last night. but i still lasted till 1am and woke up at 10am today... oh, and what edwin said is true, in the plane i switched back the time to singapore time to tell my body to get used to singapore time. it helped for me i think, psychologically...

i have to admit that as i am going to the airport and in the plane, i felt lost and abit sad. not because i am leaving london. but because the life in london had been in equilibrium and now suddenly i am going back to singapore. my life will have to change accordingly for the 3 months. maybe it is because i was too tired. the WHOLE world knows that i am sooo eager to go home.

anw when i touched down and saw my family (extended family included), like what astee said, everything felt so surreal.. the HDB flats and the surroundings look sooo familiar and yet so foreign. but after awhile, i could not believe that i have been in london for 9 months. cos it juz seemed like i went to london for a short tour... reallie short tour. yet i gained 9months of maths, made new frenz and lived a life which i have never lived before in singapore. my aunt asked me whether i regretted going to london to study. this time around, i din even hesitate and i shook my head. =p

hougang for one has not changed at all. so does hougang mall.. everything is juz there, majiam like the neighbourhood is waiting for me to come back and so not changing anything.. hahah.. i am sounding soooo BHB here... ahhaha.

even slacking at home feels good. and i mean reallieeeee good.

3 months and 10days of slack, fun and more fun. wheee =)

oh man, my moe junior juz asked me 10 more questions. can see that my juniors are reallie unsure about alot of things and they juz shoot us with loads of questions.. hahha.. not that i am complaining here. juz that they are reallie reallie reallie on the ball.... heez

heavenknows

10:10 PM

my last entry in london for the academic year 06/07.

1st and foremost, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to my dad.. heez. thanks for always being there for me...

yesterday went to church. and that was the 1st time where i reallie went into the church with a grateful heart... thankful to God for these past 9 months.. the wonderful frenz, my schoolwork, those holidays, those meals that we had etc. reallie grateful to everyone around me for helping me and listening to my crap and nonsense sometimes... ahhaha... however, sometimes i am treating God like a vending machine. i turn to Him when i need my can of coke and when i got it, i thank Him.. wells, think now is the time for me to grow spiritually too..

hahaha... wanted to blog more but alot of images are gg through my mind now.... how Singapore was like, how my house was like, and the people blah blah... BUT the clearest thing in my mind right now is the SEAFOOD that is awaiting.. =) haha

oh and seriously, singapore's food thrash london's food hands down... even those western food!! really. maybe I am too used to the western food in Singapore. the only thing that i can think of that is yumilicious here is the duck... hahah..

kkiez.. off to singapore lo. that is after i hand in my project, go for some talk about year 2 stuff and bring remaining stuff to my future place... =)

london Out!

heavenknows

4:28 PM

As I am waiting eagerly for monday to arrive and for me to reach singapore on tues evening, 6pm, I would have thought that these few days will juz crawl. but how wrong can i get.. hahah.. time still flies. not that i am complaining. =)

I hereby declare that my project is done. I am not making any more additions or changes unless i see spelling errors which will make me very dui. anyways, last friday was supposed to meet my supervisor for the last time. I was really dragging my feet to see him, afraid that he will ask me to add more materials. really no mood to do more le.. haha. anyways, upon reaching his door, saw this notice that he would be out of office that day. woohoo! haha.. so wad i did was to amend my project alittle to my liking and now i am done. hahha..

packed some stuff and brought them to olivia's place le... damn xiong.. ahahha. luckily got sainsbury trolleys to the rescue.. even though my small toe kicked against the wheel and i bled alittle.. hahaha...

in exactly 48hrs time, i will either be in the train or at the airport lo! hahahha...

super duper excited!

heavenknows

12:46 AM

You. Can. Only. Type. One. Word. No. Explanations.

1. Yourself: sian
2. Your girlfriend: non-existent
3. Your hair: messy
4. Your mother: supportive
5. Your father: caring
6. Your favourite item: bags
7. Your dream last night: blank
8. Your favourite drink: sweet
9. Your dream car: comfy
10. The room you are in: messy
11. Your ex: nullified
12. Your fear: alone
13. What you want to be in 10 years: happy
14. Who you hung out with last night: girls
15. What you’re not: girl
16. Muffins: raisins
17. One of your wish list items: teleportation
18. Time: midnight
19. The last thing you did: thinking
20. What you’re wearing: clothes
21. Your favourite weather: sunny
22. Your favourite book: romantic
23. The last thing you ate: rice
24. Your life: happie
25. Your mood: blank
26. Your best friend(s): dudes
27. What you’re thinking about right now: complex
28. Your car: long
29. What you’re doing at the moment: typing
30. Your summer: refreshing
31. Your relationship status: awesome
32. What’s on TV: antenna
33. The weather: rainy
34. The last time you laughed: today

heavenknows

7:42 AM

me is back from swiss!! i like spring-time switzerland. dun mind going there again.. like interlaken best. the sea is super clean and nice. had cheese fondue for the 1st time and din know that the fondue has alcohol in it... spent alot of time in trains though. hahah.

it was a super duper duper relaxing trip.. hahaha. got to know olivia and clarice much much better. oh and the swatch watches in swiss were only a teeeny weeeny bit cheaper than in singapore. sighz.

juz now went to watch lord of the rings musical. well, can only say that it would make an excellent theatre show but not a musical. the props and visual effect were good. the stage effect was brilliant... but the songs were a letdown.. yup.

so now, i got 2 things left to do, pack up my room and do my project... well my project is never-ending.. my supervisor always ask me to do more stuff.. luckily this friday will be the last time i will get to see him.. if not for the fact that my supervisor marks my project, i would have handed in my present-state-project..

anw, after this i am gg to pack my room and am not doing my project till tmr. hahah cos packing my room makes me feel happier and it tires me out... so tonight i can have sweeter dreams. =)

i have my whole of next week planned out le when i reached singapore... hahaha so excited!!

tuesday night: 6pm reach singapore then go seafood restautant eat crabs and prawns. =)
wed: morning- cut & dye hair, afternoon-do facial, night-help my bro for his mid-yrs
thurs: rest day cos my face will be too red and swollen to go out.. haha bet gy duane and rayner muz have rem the state of my face after facial.. hahaha. and helping my bro.. night time go ikea in tampines?
fri: nothing yet if not stay home all day to help my bro
sat: jan bdae! haha gg out wif jan and sj...
sun afternoon: meeting wif gy duane and rayner for our short getaway trip..
mon: shld be stuck at home. since maths papers are always on tuesdays, the day after general paper

yeah! cant wait to meet up wif frenz.. cant wait to soak in the sun... cant wait to eat!!!

shit 1235am le.. going to pack my room, make myself much happier then can do my project! hahaha...

heavenknows

7:17 AM

heavenknows

9:44 PM

14 days.

in exactly 14 days time, this hour i ll be in the plane. bet i ll be too excited to go home. bet i ll tear when i see my family. hahaha. frankly speaking, i am tired. yes, i have enjoyed my stay here for 9 months. maybe i have enjoyed too much, i dunno. i am really tired. hahaha.. going home soon.. =)

yesterday, or rather on saturday, me and ks went to manchester to see the THEATRE OF DREAMS. thats the old trafford stadium actually. haha.. went for the stadium tour and even went into the players' changing room. anyways, the stadium is very grand and very RED. after looking at the stadium, really envious of ben and gang who have gone to watch a live match there. hopefully we can get to see it the coming academic year. =)

oh, suddenly rem that we din know the stadium's exact location so i asked this passerby where the stadium was. he asked me back, "man u football stadium?" my 1st thought was," no, geylang united football stadium" hahahhahhaa.... okok manchester got more than 1 stadium i know. haha.

dunno y but i felt bad today. shant say much anyway. juz that ya there were things i could have done but i din do. there are some things that i really cherish too much that i dunno how to react in some situations. hahaha.... dun dwell into this paragraph. it is nothing serious anyways, but i still dun feel good. haha. juz ignore this cryptic paragraph. =p

anyways, i have finished watching WHICH STAR ARE YOU FROM? for a start, the reason as to why i watched this show, the show has my fav korean star. i dunno her exact name, but she acted in MY LOVELY SAMSOON too as the supporting actress. she is hot! ahha.

back to the show. i think the storyline was really good. ok fine, in the middle, it was a typical korean drama. it was a tad draggy and the problem could have been solved relatively easier than what actually happened in the show. but at least, it produced more episodes for me to see my sweetheart rite? hahaha... the show is about how this guy liked this girl. but their relationship was not approved by her mum. (to mummy, pls trust my taste when i have a girlfriend k? hahhahahahahha actually, i think my mum wunt care as long as she is not havoc or wild, i think! muahhaha..) they struggled and they met in a car accident. the girl died. the guy felt sorry and angry for killing her in the accident. cos he was the one driving. then years later, he was in this village and he saw this girl who looked alot like the dead girl. he got to know her better, and he started to like her. he liked her for who she was and not because she looked like the deceased girl. but fate has it that this girl was actually the deceased younger sister. during a fire accident many years ago, this girl was separated and lived in the village. and hence, when the village girl went back to the family, their relationship was not approved. the show ended when the mum FINALLY allowed them to be together.

well, that is the paradox isnt it? u like this girl for who she is but the whole world will like to think that u like this girl only because u liked her sister before and u want to get the feeling back. in the show, the whole world was against them. everyone in the show except for 1 good friend asked them to give up their love. haizzz. hahaha... okok anyways, nice show.

okok. talk about something livelier. ahha. was facebooking juz now and i saw this youtube link. and it actually linked me to this channel 5 sitcom PARENTAL GUIDANCE. it is quite a nice show i muz admit and the kids in the show are soo cute. but wad i want to say here is about episode 6. it talks about schools and education in singapore. about how parents have to do volunteer service or anything juz to get their precious kids into the top schools. it also mentioned that MOST ELITE SCHOOLS IN SINGAPORE ARE SINGLE SEX SCHOOLS. hahha. well, thats true isnt it? when i was in primary 5 and 6, i remembered seeing the ST guide to the top schools where they ranked the schools from 1 to 50. ahaha.. and out of the top ten, there were more single sex schools den co-ed ones. haha.. personally, from a single sex secondary school, i think i will like to send my kids to a co-ed primary school and then a single sex secondary school. ahhaha. well, other than the fact that horniness is part of growing up and getting attached seem to be the welcomed trend but being in single sex school was really a memorable experience. ahha.

lalla...think i talk too much. back to that episode. listen their conversations carefully, they make fun of the system in singapore. like for example, there is ELITE GIRLS SCHOOL. and apparently the school has won all different kinds of awards, so much so that rumours has it that they wanna take part in competitions that they have never taken part before i.e singapore knitting olympics!!! hahaha.. and if u were to watch the show, where the female lead presented this scarf that her niece knitted in the hope of using that talent to admit her into the school. NOTE THE COLOUR OF THE SCARF!! and you will know which ELITE GIRLS SCHOOL the show is referring to..hahaha damn farnie. and i am watching on youtube now. heez. have fun watching this. =)

heavenknows

8:21 AM

today marks the 1st day of JUNE!! hahaha.. me is very happy! cos june is here... ehh not because father's day is in june.. hehehehhe.. but because i am gg back!!! hahhaha.... 18 more days! cant wait to see changi airport, cant wait to see my family, cant wait to eat seafood the moment i touch down!! =)

havent been up to much lately. i met my supervisor on tuesday about my project and he flipped through my handwritten project. he said, 'nice progress' and din further read my project. instead, he asked me to type it out before he will really look into it and give comments later on. he told me to type by friday. then he asked me to use latex programme to type. reasons? cos i have nothing to do now, might as well learn this programme which is good for writing maths thesis papers and reports. haizzz. luckily the programme is quite easy to muster, spent 2 days to finish up my project. hope my supervisor's jaws will drop to the floor. ahhaha.

anw, this whole week was super cold. it got better today. the winds and the rain was juz too cold for me to be outside. thats london weather for u. as unpredictable as... hahaa.. dunno how to complete this simile.

oh juz now i saw this little kid. he was running. Then he slid and fell down on the floor. he looked up and gave his father 2 thumbs' up. and the father actually said a joke to him in response to his fall. i think he said it to prevent the little kid from crying. i laughed at the father's joke but i cant exactly rem wad the joke was about. but then again, if i were the kid, i would have cringed and kept my fingers crossed and hope that my dad doesnt scold me or give me the dagger stare... hor dad? hahahaha... well, thats the difference between the asian dads and the western dads i think. and i was wondering how would i turn out to be if i have a dad like the small boy's. how different will i be as a person compared to now? well, I AM NOT COMPLAINING ABOUT MY DAD arr!! hahaha.. in fact, i think i am quite happy with who i am right now and i am happy with my present family. but that was juz a thought after that incident happened... hahaha.

oh and i like to thank duane for giving me a new perspective today. in fact, i felt numb about it until we talked about it today.. hahaha. thanks!! =)

okok back to the show "which star are you from" .

heavenknows

8:24 AM